cont. | @warwaged
HER GRIEF WAS FAMILIARâ sudden loss of a father that forever altered many lives, the defenselessness that came with it, and the hard-earned ability to rely on one's self above all.
such were the things they shared : a fleeting childhood, a cold bed.
one irrevocable. the other may yet to be redeemed; if only one of them dared to try a tad harder. it appeared today would not be the day they started.
he could feel the eyes on him. misty, & full of quiet sorrow. he knew how they looked without having to turn to meet the gaze. if there was one thing he'd grown accustomed to about her, it was that forlorn look. that, and the crippling inability to lift the mist.
an obstacle, she called him with ease, and he couldn't help but wonder if he was one to her too. it was a thought he was plagued by more often than he'd dare to admit. did a part of her ever resent him ? did she even know that it was not him who orchestrated this union, and that he wasn't any more thrilled than she was ? or how he'd rather not be the first-born son so that he could join the warrior's sons and devote his life to the protection of the faith instead ... ? oh but such things were to stay between him & the gods, for he couldn't bear to look so ungrateful in the eyes of men, too. he knew he possessed things many would kill for ... and yet.
perhaps she wasn't the only one shrouded in an unliftable mist.
"then it must be a blessing that neither of us smiles often," loreon turned to look at her, his pacing having halted momentarily. he did not enjoy discussing politics with her â or anyone, really â but he had come to realize that meditating on subjects related to their common foes was a strangely effective way to build bridges. it appeared that she was aware of the persisting danger; they did not want her to stray too far from their grasp, for she would always be a threat, and they probably would not even let her marry into a powerful house if the said house didn't appear to be loyal enough. little did they know the son did not share the mother's penchant for peace if it came at the cost of one's true beliefs. "you have little reason to mistrust me, i would take honest gloom to feigned joy any day."
not wanting the conversation to become a personal elegy on their loveless marriage, he quickly added, "do you remember the particular people who seemed to have objected to our proposal ? i believe those to be the reason why we might have spies in our midst, they wish to keep an eye on me and make sure we are not ... conspiring against the crown." he paused, hoping she would understand the severity of the situation and would not be too uneased by what he was about to say. "... i'm afraid i suspect one of them to be a handmaiden of yours. i intend to show them no mercy."Â
honest gloom.












