I feel like I've never been anyone's first choice. Not here, not in my real life... Everyone always has something more important, something that speaks to them more, someone that they like better, who means more to them... it's always been that way and it just keeps chipping away at everything I am. It's getting so hard to keep moving forward...
Oh my dear sweet Nonnie. Is it okay if I call you Nonnie? This is pretty much my insecurities M.O, and one of the main reasons I almost ran away in high school. The key word is almost. Because it does get better. I know it sucks. Believe in I know. But it gets better. And know that you do matter, you do have imporotance and you are a priority. And if you ever wanna vent or rant, you can come to me. And one more thing that it took me about my entire life thus far to learn and I’m still struggling with but hey I’m trying. Ask for help when you need it. Ask from others around you and if they’re not helpful seek help from a professional. Going to counseling changed my life for the better. Like so much better. <3