#watermeloncholic

[femvy]

watermeloncholic replied to your photo “I’m so uncomfortable with myself”

i'm sorry :( if it helps at all, i think your face looks like a really pretty painting.

thanks. its probably just the filter tho :P

<3

[femvy]

watermeloncholic replied to your post “watermeloncholic replied to your post “feel like crying again. why...”

Why do you want to cut your hair off?

sometimes i think i rely on it too much to feel feminine, i've probably gotten somehow too attached or dependent on it.

[femvy]

watermeloncholic replied to your post “feel like crying again. why cant i cry”

I'm really sorry. I hope you find what's keeping you from crying and manage it :(

thanks, i hope so too :\ i'm thinking of cutting all my hair off or something

[aurazoo]

yes/no: olde tymey windmills

Only if they’re FEROCIOUS GIANTS

[femvy]

watermeloncholic replied to your post:i need a joooooob

a joob in minnesoota

yea a gooood one too

[aurazoo]

I was tagged by veto-power-over-clocks, so let's do this!

Rule one: always post the rules

Rule two: answer the questions the person who tagged you asked and write 5 new ones

Rule three: tag 5 people and link them to the post

Rule four: actually tell them you tagged them

1 to 3 songs you wish everyone in the world could listen to at least once? Huh. One of them would easily have to be Love Love Love by The Mountain Goats. This song has had an incredible effect on my life. It was the first song I had ever heard by The Mountain Goats, and I honestly believe it's the most important song of my life. 

This whole list could be Mountain Goats songs, but I'll refrain from doing that. The second song would be Olsen Olsen by Sigur Ros. One of the happiest moments of my life was watching them play this song at dusk in the fog at Outside Lands in 2012, next to istandonsnowpiles and thousands of other people.

Lastly, a more recent song, You're Damaged by Waxahatchee. 2013 was not an easy year for me, and Katie Crutchfield's song went a long way in helping me get through it alive.

A film you love but feel kind of ashamed for liking so much?

You know, a year ago I'd probably list something off, but now, I don't know. I'm not sure I can think of a movie I'm truly ashamed for liking. 

Best meal you’ve ever had? (Can be because of how it tasted, or because the situation was special, or any reason.)

I can't think of THE BEST, so I'll say a recent great meal I had.

Now, it's barely a meal, but it meant a lot to me. A few weeks ago (two!) I had no food. Literally none. I had essentially been living on two or three pieces of bread a day for about a week. I was so terribly hungry. I had no food and no money to get any. And then watermeloncholic and stephaniebutton both sent me some money for food (I have a paypal donation link to help me with food on my page). As soon as it was available I went to the store and bought some food. I got home from the grocery store and sat down and had two bagels. It wasn't much, and it sure wasn't fancy, but it felt amazing. I was (and am) so incredibly thankful. For a moment I was able to just sit down and enjoy some food without worrying whether it would be my last meal for a while. It was freeing.

Last book/graphic novel you read?

The last book I read was A History of the Nun by Aphra Behn and the last graphic novel I read was The Rabbi's Cat 2 by Joann Sfar (I think).

A place you hate, and why? (Can be a city or a country or something general like “high school”.)

My parent's houses. I don't exactly hate them, or the houses in general, but I hate the idea of having to live there. In the past few months I've lived with both of them (for short times, but still), and every time I do, it feels like I've failed. And not in a "Oh I dropped out and I've failed my societal expectations" sort of failure, but it's almost a feeling of I've failed myself and my morals. I don't know, it's a weird feeling.

My Five Questions:

If you are only able to see one (more) concert for the rest of your life, and the band was only able to play five songs, who would you want to see and what songs would you want them to play?

If you knew that forcing yourself into extreme poverty with no hope of ever getting out would help three other people who were born into extreme poverty get out and never get back in, would you make that sacrifice?

An alien race has taken over the planet and placed you in charge of entertainment for the whole world. They say that you must either completely destroy all aspects of written fiction in the whole world or all aspects of anything musical. Which do you choose to eliminate?

Why don't you just pack your things and move to another country? (Not wanting to is an okay answer.)

If you're truly against the way education and war and the economy and health care is handled in the country you live in, why don't you do anything about it? And if you are working towards real change, what are you doing to bring it about?

The three people tagged already (Emma, Stephanie and Alice), and ancepsvita​ and natureisnice​ are the people I'm tagging to answer mine. I don't really care whether you want to make five more or not, but I am truly interested in your responses.

[femvy]

watermeloncholic replied to your post “I’m really feeling like transitioning is actually a bad idea right...”

You can take different parts of transition at different paces! It doesn't have to all be at once.

harrierattk replied to your post “I’m really feeling like transitioning is actually a bad idea right...”

I haven't started voice training and I only started buying a few female-coded clothing items, and I'm at 8 months. I've found that certain aspects of transition happen gradually and not to push myself too much. Hope you find a balance for yourself <3

watermeloncholic, harrierattk

thanks for the consolation, i'm feeling a little better now. i just feel like i'm not really doing anything towards my transition right now. i have all these things i want to do but don't have the energy for. but i guess i can wait till the time feels right. :/

[punlich]

watermeloncholic replied to your post:Some cool things that can happen to your penis...

Almost none of this has happened to me and I’ve been on a normal dose for almost two months now :(

It took somewhere around six months to notice the first of those changes. Some I noticed even later (although they may have happened before I noticed them since it's gradual and subtle)