What kind of admin shows up late to a roleplay opening? This admin.
Hello friends!! I’m Alicia, a blue haired nineteen year old dork from North Carolina that would have been here much sooner if life wasn’t kicking her butt. I have been roleplaying nonstop for the past three years now and you can usually find me binge-watching Friends or Criminal Minds, making fan videos and eating like 22/7.
But you’re probably not reading to learn about me, so let’s get onto Marlene, yeah?
I have a page for her here but it’s still under construction and I haven’t gotten around to writing a biography so really all you need to know is --
Throughout high school she didn’t have many friends nor enemies, she was mostly invisible and assumes that most people coming back to town have forgotten her.
She has always looked up to the bride because she was not a forgettable person, just look at how many people are coming back around for her wedding. She thinks that she has everything and she can’t help but be a little jealous but most of all sad. Sad because she knows that she deserves to have it all and that she apparently doesn’t.
Does she have a low confidence level? What’s confidence? She literally has like no confidence at all and she makes a lot of self deprecating jokes and always takes the blame. It’s a lil annoying but she isn’t searching for sympathy. She just really doesn’t like herself.
She is v v negative. She thinks she’s a realist but she’s just negative.
She has a good heart but she rarely shows it.
She mostly just flies under the radar.
She’s been working as a Starbucks barista since she graduated and has not left home simply because she has no plan for her life. She’s convinced it’s going to be just like this for the next sixty years and then she’ll die.
Her mother was deemed unfit to raise her when she was a baby so her father was granted full custody. He has been married three times since she was born and twice she grew used to the changes in her life before things went south and it was up in the air again. Her current step-mother and step-brother feel like they are truly her family and have been in her life since she was fifteen but she fears she is going to eventually lose them as well.
She seriously fears losing people so she’s a bit afraid of commitment, not that it matters, no one ever really tries to get close enough for her to worry about it.
She needs to break out of her comfort zone but she’s afraid that she’ll fail and the “what if”s seem a lot easier to deal with than the “oh well”s.
She’s a nervous wreck tbh she’s going to stammer and ramble sometimes (a lot of times) and avoid eye contact and apologize a lot and not know what to do with her hands bc social anxiety wow it’s amazing that she could survive working in public for the last five years.. .
To sum her up, think of a human Eeyore.
Or a human Sadness from Inside Out.
You know that quote that’s like “she’s sad, but it’s a hopeful kind of sad, the sad that just takes time”?
All she really needs is someone to show her that she’s important.
And worth more than what she gives herself credit for.
She’s my baby and I hurt for her bye.
Let me know if you want to plot because that would be great!!