#wearenotourfailures

[stoned-onyou]

We are not out failures.

[screamloudernow]

Trying this new thing where I don’t just say things off the tip of my tongue in jealously and stupidity.

[alex2point0]

Newest addition big thanks to @daschicken at @saintsandsinnersdallas I couldn't be happier with the way it turned out. #ladispute #flower #wearenotourfailures #tattoo #peoplethatposttheirtattoosaredouchebags #thattagistoolong #happy #goodmessage #runningoutofideasfortags

[katliquidates-blog]

Another bougie cooking utensil for $5 dollaaaaah So I have to confess: I didn't shop for a lot of these things I am posting. Imagine my surprise when I looked through the invoice, and found that we paid $15 for this honey. That's like more than I have in my back account, people! If memory serves me right, we had to watch a YouTube video to even learn how to use it. #boug! Leave your email if interested. #katliquidates #wearenotourfailures #hawaii

[katliquidates-blog]

$5 dollaaaaaah Pretty sure this “Microplane” is the bougiest kitchen tool I laid my hands on. I guess that at my house we were SAVAGES, and used the cheese grater to zest lemons too.Pretty sure I used it 3 times. Now’s it’s lonely in it’s bougie misery. (Typical, right?) #katliquidates #wearenotourfailures #hawaii Leave your email in the comments if interested!

[katliquidates-blog]

#30 OBO—Originally $63  These tree-free world centric bad boys never got their chance in the limelight.  Give them #onemorechance! Their story matters!  Leave your email in the comments if interested!  #katliquidates #sustainability #wearenotourfailures #hawaii

[im-spaced0ut]

Fears

I realized a lot of things today.  Life moves on fast with or without you.  I remember being 16 and thinking to myself how much happier id be once I finished high school and moved out.  But the sad realization is that I miss home terribly.  I miss having my mom for everything.  I miss being surrounded by my family. and constantly having people around me.  My dog Is very sick. and is probably going blind.  And it kills me that i cant be there for her. To hold her. and make sure she's okay. My pug princess means the world to me.  I would hate myself if she passed and i wasn't there for her.  I miss my mom so much. And it sucks that we grew closer just as I was leaving home.  And I hate asking her for money.  Ill ask for $10 and the woman sends me $30-80 depending on what she has.  She is already paying my rather expensive tuition.  And she has my 4 other siblings to worry about.  I think the stupidest part of everything. Is that i'm Inlove with a total asshole.  who treated me rather shitty. Ignores me. talks to me when he feels like it. not to mention some of the mental and mild physical abuse that went on.  But Im only 19. And you are 23. age shouldn't matter. But you look down on me and constantly give me shit about things that shouldn't matter.  But I don't know how to let go. Ive tried. But trouble seems to follow me.  Today I got lost taking the bus to work.  Oh and I puked a couple of times. but since i'm an idiot that doesn't eat. My body had nothing to puke out but water and a strawberry.  Its hard not to break down and cry.  I hate that I have anxiety and panic attacks constantly.  But above everything.  I know I am going to be Okay.  I look at it this way.  I accomplished my ultimate goal : Getting the fuck out of Port Saint Lucie FL.  And getting into the University of my choice.  I have a Paid internship at a lovely restaurant that not only serves healthy, organic, and some vegan options. But ultimately will help me in my Culinary Nutrition degree. I have a Trimester left. And then i'm off to Denver for my Bachelors. Not to mention the fact that I will be living with my Best Friend since we are both getting the same degree.  Im Ultimately happy that i'm doing something that i love.  Not to bash on anybody.  but I notice that everyone back home i went to high school with. is getting married. and having kids. doing drugs. or in jail.  Half of you don't even have a Community college Degree,  and its sad.  Im just happy i got the fuck out.  Because despite all the bullshit I go through each day.  I thank God. Because Im better off here than I ever could have been there.                                                                                                        -xxxx

[im-spaced0ut]

Toxic

As long as I have you. Its all worth it. 

I'll tolerate the panic attacks I get because of you, The emotional attacks you throw at me, The hysterical crying I get when Im alone, The physical attacks; because lets face it, your hands are pretty big around my neck and sometimes I feel like you squeeze too hard on purpose. But when i'm with you I feel like i'm on drugs, and everything is okay in that moment.  And just when I feel like everything is perfect. Shade gets thrown at me like i'm the biggest cunt in the world.  According to everyone i'm either this or that, did this and that. Whatever.  I don't give a fuck on what anyone has to say about me.  I just want you to believe the shit I have to say. Your opinion on me is all I care about.  I know I can be a really fucked up person, but the truth is, you don't really know me. I only let you know what I want you to know.   Maybe If you would stop listening to the people that aren't with me anymore for a reason,  I'd let you see a side of me that isn't black and white. 

I just wish you'd see me the way I see you.  You capture my attention. 

Despite what anyone has told you, I don't go around saying the same shit to everybody. Im not just leading you on, go ahead call me a tease and that i'm just like every other bitch.  But i'm not.  I think i'm truly starting to feel something beautiful for you.  How do I know? Well for one I still get nervous every time I am about to see you.  I go around talking about you to all my friends like a school girl crush. You are on my mind all fucking day.   And Im starting to love everything about you.  I love your loud and obnoxious laugh.  I love your dark messy hair. I love the way you say "Mira" every time instead of the word "look". I love your dark, hypnotic eyes.  I love your smirk grin excuse for a smile. I love how your kisses always taste like alcohol.  I love waking up and seeing your face. I love your butt and how nice it feels. I love it when you threaten me with knives.  I love it when you kiss me all over.  I love how you bite the fuck out of my thighs.  I love how you slap my face when we are fucking.  I love how stupid you can be.  I love how stupid you make me feel.  I love you, is a strong phrase I am no where near ready to use with you yet. but I fucking adore you, and would do anything to prove it to you. Just please, Stop being scared. Why are you scared that I might actually mean something to you.  I don't care how toxic you are. You are the only one I want.