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I’m not God but I’m not human either....

And the wonder starts when we were little kids looking at the sky full of starts, the moon and all the mysteries of it. Looking at the sea and its wonders, looking at the mountains, trees, flowers! Our eyes can see so much surface but something inside tells you there is something more, something beyond. This curiosity is so innocent and so beautiful, you are seeker you are true seeker until the attention comes upon you totally. And this attention takes over you, so strong and powerful that you look at yourself and you know there is something else beyond this body, beyond every movement you make. Looking at yourself into the mirror you realize there is another mirror inside that mirror and it calls you, with the sound of the ocean and the bright light of the starts. You want to touch it but it's so fragile that trying to poses it slips out of your hands. It stops there, first major hurt, you thought it's just an illusion, can't say to anyone, it's even harder to explain trough words. You still hearing that sound but now it's everything and everyone. Strange sensations, strange emotions, you start praying to an outside God asking for help, asking to take you back where you were before. Looking for an outside source, guide, well that doesn’t help either. What to do now? You are going mad; you are Not OK!

Now you go where your body goes, you walk, run, walk again, circles and circles, you live just like a body, and you travel countries, continents, lives all together and it’s the same circle. Its starts again, you are a baby, the wonder is awake again, calling you to its intensity and love. With resentment you reject again, because you don’t know. Because the truth is that you feel nothing and that emptiness, that vast space it scares you, because you though you have to be something else then that, which is nothing and everything in the same time. That which can't be explain outside, you got to be ready to receive.  

You stop it again, well you can't stop It, because how can you stop nothing? How can you carry something empty, and still feel its power and intensity. I think we should say you stop receiving every time is trying to open you up. Here another life is gone, and there still that gap, every life lived you feel it, it's there and you can't escape. There is no such a thing as:

Well if there is not time there is no race, and fear of not having enough time. You are never dead to be born to begin with … The source is eternal. So, what does it mean? That God is inside and not outside? that I'm God? You’ve been given many lives to live to awaken to our trough self, who we truly are, and it's all up to us how far we are willing to dive deep, and surrender to the source, to God. When you stop perceiving yourself trough the body and go beyond it and start manifesting the unmanifested.  You don’t have to be afraid or fear of quitting everything you thought is real, you don’t have to leave anything it will drop it self, when you surrender into this ecstasy of love, there is no choice, there is no black and white nor wrong or right. Everything is in you, you are everywhere, in the way it is.  

SO,  

Who Am I?  

I’m not God neither I’m a human.......

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‘’ I’M’’

I’m everything you touch; you drink and eat. I’m every single atom that its unseen. I’m everything that fly's and swims. I'm in every breath you take. I’m in every drop of rain that touches the ocean.  I’m the rock, the gold, the diamonds! I’m that big tree that you hug every morning, I’m the moon and the sun, I’m in every breath you take. I dissolve at night so I can be your blanket, to nurture you and feel your warm breath. You think you see me but all you see it's an illusion. This is the dance of the universe; this is the dance with God.... This is the dance between your being and your body. Embodying it all; you'll experience joy and love, denying you'll experience chaos.  Do you hear me? Do you feel me? Do you feel this intensity? Do you feel the gravitation into each other? Hear me, open your heart and let me in.

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Hunted!

 I've been hunted by you for so many lives. I've been ashamed, I've been strangulated, I've been left in the cold, I couldn't escape your night tortures in the dark. You followed me everywhere, you possessed my body and turned into flames. I would get wet on my knees would lose my balance; my heart would start beating with the speed of light. Every single cell of my body wanted to become in oneness with the earth. All I could do is crawling away so nobody can see my madness. I look like a lost woman this torture, pain, pleasure this Cosmic Orgasm wouldn’t stop. I barely could breath, my nails are bleeding from so much grasped, my tongue is poisoned and numb by my own desire, urge of letting my soul free. I was high on You, no more fight, no denying nor did I want it anymore. They said to me: Is she a whore? Is she a seductress? Is she a witch? Is she for sale? Is she that? Is she this? She can't, she can't, she can't... And I believed them for a second. But you didn’t stop until my soul was wide opened and I was facing the deepest of my core. Blind and tired I surrendered to you. I let go of everything that held my power now you can tear me apart. I don’t know any more if you are hunting me or I was hunting you. And just then everything became calm, silence, my body was so light: Everything was in harmony. She was awake, the goddess was awake. Now she is out there, clammed her power back, from many lives from many galaxies. Whore? Seductress? Bitch? Witch? She wears the Wedding dress and the Funeral dress at ones, what medicine you'll choose we’ll find out soon enough. But for now,

 I say ,

She Is a Goddess

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I dare you to close your eyes...

Have you ever used your eyes to see inward? Have you ever lost yourself in emptiness and nothingness? Have you ever given up the control to fall deep?  I’m sure not; and if you did it, maybe it was for couple seconds and then you opened right away because you lost your balance and the worst happened, fear and doubt kicked in. Most of us chose to be blind, chose to be death - to live in completely ignorance, even ignorance has been labeled wrong, I would say most of us chose to be asleep, comfortable and fit with everyone! Everything seems familiar, everything has been predicted, I’m safe. But if I dare to close your eyes, what would be? What would happen?  All that is gone and you fall into abyss, there is nothing to catch on to, there is nothing, no paved paths, no labels, no attachments, no past, no present, not future Just NOW! It’s something beyond our understanding, there is no mind, no body, no soul just Presence! You see the mind uses our eyes to label everything we see and touch, so there will be nothing left to define, everything is known by the Mind! There is no mystery just do as I say and you’ll be OK. Now when we close our eyes, the mind can't see anything, there is nothing to label but she still does it, and say to you: This is darkness, its nothing here, no balance, you are going mad – I gave you everything you need, what would others say, be rational, be logic, this is not real and so on and on until you can't do it anymore and you give up and open your eyes, and here you are safe in this little world that mind has created through your eyes to just keep you gravitate down and not uplifted towards the sky.  The day we turn our eyes inward, this would be the first time we would truly see.  

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How to love yourself? Or we are asking the wrong question....

I think the question should be How to accept myself? Learning to accept what we are, to be more patient and gentle with ourselves and start working with that! Even working sounds like pressure, sounds like a job, sounds like a morning rush going no where, more anxiety to try to be someone! What is your life about, anyway?— Nothing but a struggle to be someone, Nothing but a running from your own silence. '' Rumi'' We are taking on all these layers from someone else and trying to make it our, we are borrowing and making others proud! You are so naive by thinking that someone in this world has what you have, has your talent, has your humor, your charisma, has your crazy personality and your freaking beautiful soul! YOU ARE SO WRONG! Nobody has it and nobody will ever have it! When you were created, it was specifically requested just one model of you, not two, not three but ONE! The problem was when you were born a '' Life'' was already created for you without asking your permission, time passed by and that idea of '' Life'' was so much imprinted in your head that you couldn't see the true YOU . Its not easy in our society to break that cycle, because you have to step on many individuals and many patterns. I'm not saying society its totally wrong, not completely; we need it for simple things , we need those skills for our own protection. But here where 99% of us gets stuck and gets lost in these maze. You have to learn society's rules and then when you know it you trow it away - you are asking why? Well because you'll know how and you'll become immune to it.             Enough with that... Now .... You want to be free? Then learn how to accept yourself, learn to nurture, how to be grateful for the infinity being you are. Don't just say it, don't burn candles, don't just write affirmations about how amazing you are, don't just mediate in lotus position, don't just do yoga or any other things. All of that works, and it's beautiful but just when you've already accepted who you are. If you use any this tools that is spirituality,fitness, traveling, work any activities to change who you are by thinking you have to be better in order to be complete, to be accepted, loved, successful and this is my favorite because '' We'' are 'Broken'' and we need healing( it's because that's what I've been telling my self for very long time) I have to heal my self because I'm broken so i can have everything i desire. Do you think God ( Universe, Alah whoever you believe) would create broken people and just let them suffer and be lost ?  NO, not at all. And you have to understand when I talk about change has nothing to do with your exterior, body( if you need to loose couple pounds to be more healthy , definitely do it )face( make sure to wash your face and use some coconut oil or whatever makes you happy)  job( You don't like your job, doesn't make you happy?  leave it, you'll get another ) etc. That's nothing, doesn't even matter anymore it will follow the the inner self anyway. If you are focused just on the outer world then I can predict your future... You'll be stuck in that limbo forever my friend. For this body is a chain and you are its prisoner. Smash through the prison wall and walk outside with the kings and princes. '' Rumi'' Fall in love with the darkness of your being and lose yourself, lose yourself , do not fear this loss for you will rise and shine your true light.Then you'll see that the darkness is just an absence of the light, fear is just the absence of love, hate is just the absence of compassion. If you want the moon do not hide from the night, if you want the stars do not hide from the night, if you want love do not hide from yourself. The healing starts when you accept You are totally complete, loved, not alone, infinite. When you learn to wear both colors black and white, when you learn to wear the wedding dress and funeral dress in the same time when you accept You as who you really are; And You are Love..... ''You are the root of heaven, the morning star, the bright moon, the house of endless love''.  Rumi