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I’m not God but I’m not human either....

And the wonder starts when we were little kids looking at the sky full of starts, the moon and all the mysteries of it. Looking at the sea and its wonders, looking at the mountains, trees, flowers! Our eyes can see so much surface but something inside tells you there is something more, something beyond. This curiosity is so innocent and so beautiful, you are seeker you are true seeker until the attention comes upon you totally. And this attention takes over you, so strong and powerful that you look at yourself and you know there is something else beyond this body, beyond every movement you make. Looking at yourself into the mirror you realize there is another mirror inside that mirror and it calls you, with the sound of the ocean and the bright light of the starts. You want to touch it but it's so fragile that trying to poses it slips out of your hands. It stops there, first major hurt, you thought it's just an illusion, can't say to anyone, it's even harder to explain trough words. You still hearing that sound but now it's everything and everyone. Strange sensations, strange emotions, you start praying to an outside God asking for help, asking to take you back where you were before. Looking for an outside source, guide, well that doesn’t help either. What to do now? You are going mad; you are Not OK!

Now you go where your body goes, you walk, run, walk again, circles and circles, you live just like a body, and you travel countries, continents, lives all together and it’s the same circle. Its starts again, you are a baby, the wonder is awake again, calling you to its intensity and love. With resentment you reject again, because you don’t know. Because the truth is that you feel nothing and that emptiness, that vast space it scares you, because you though you have to be something else then that, which is nothing and everything in the same time. That which can't be explain outside, you got to be ready to receive.  

You stop it again, well you can't stop It, because how can you stop nothing? How can you carry something empty, and still feel its power and intensity. I think we should say you stop receiving every time is trying to open you up. Here another life is gone, and there still that gap, every life lived you feel it, it's there and you can't escape. There is no such a thing as:

Well if there is not time there is no race, and fear of not having enough time. You are never dead to be born to begin with … The source is eternal. So, what does it mean? That God is inside and not outside? that I'm God? You’ve been given many lives to live to awaken to our trough self, who we truly are, and it's all up to us how far we are willing to dive deep, and surrender to the source, to God. When you stop perceiving yourself trough the body and go beyond it and start manifesting the unmanifested.  You don’t have to be afraid or fear of quitting everything you thought is real, you don’t have to leave anything it will drop it self, when you surrender into this ecstasy of love, there is no choice, there is no black and white nor wrong or right. Everything is in you, you are everywhere, in the way it is.  

SO,  

Who Am I?  

I’m not God neither I’m a human.......

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PEARL

The girl Pearl was made out of stardust and love. She was sent to Earth to shine the light and everything she'd touch may transform into gold. On the way she lost her memory of who she was and the power she possessed. Pearl needed to rediscover her deeper nature on her own as a human being. As time went by, broken memories appeared in her memory about something stronger, vibrant, powerful. She knew she was different, but what do you do when nobody believes you? She started dreaming and looking for her home. The star family watched Pearl all these years but couldn't do anything. Her mother was in great pain from letting go of her only little light to serve (humanity/the earth). The Source allowed her one-time help for Pearl while she was dreaming after many years of reaching out. Pearl mother sent her Twin Flame in the form of a dolphin. While Pearl was on the beach the sand looked like she was stepping on diamonds. The sun was about to go on the other side of the earth. The scene was so picturesque Pearl lost herself in the colors and frequency that was making her heart fly. As she was looking towards the ocean, she heard a noise and felt a bit of an earthquake. As she looked up the whole ocean rose up. Pearl was not afraid. Strangely enough she felt she was safe and felt no need to run away. The water was so clean and pure she could see the whole kingdom of the ocean. As she touched the water, five gigantic dolphins came towards her. But she felt something about the middle one. Looking straight in his eyes, Pearl felt home. Without saying anything, just those eyes, that warmth and unconditional love made Pearl feel clear and still. He took her on a ride to show her where she belongs and who she truly is. The connection they had could not be explained, only felt. Pearl only cares then were the freedom, wildness, the peace and love that was exactly what she was made from. Little did she know that this dolphin was her Twin Flame - eternal love, undying love. Her mother couldn't send him in his true form, knowing that once they found each other, nobody would ever find them again. The love between Pearl and him was that powerful. So, she made him a dolphin and gave him just one real thing that belonged to him, his eyes. Her mother knew that Pearl would realize sooner or later. She wanted to show her that they loved her, that her light would heal many humans and that she needs to finish her mission before coming home. After their journey, Pearl and the dolphin came back to the beach. Pearl needed to say goodbye to him, but she couldn't. What Pearl felt while riding with him was too strong. All she was thinking was what she felt: alive, passionate and in love. She was melting in her own body. The thought of separation from her twin was burning her soul alive. "How can I live in between two worlds," Pearl asked herself. Time passed by and something changed inside of her, she felt a huge shift, something bigger than her. Pearl didn’t try to explain or to judge it in any way. Sometimes silence is the key to everything, all she knew is that: If she tries to possess it or control it, will make it worst and she didn't want loose this magnificent feeling. Pear went on living her life, by just remember what happened made her straighter to seek for more, to open her heart to what it may to come. A year passed and Pearl slowly was just not caring so much, she felt as maybe all is in just her head. One of her friends invited Pearl to a full moon ceremony, and she joked with her friend:  You shouldn’t invite me to such a thing (with a cute smile, Pearl said) Well, what are you going to transform, or fly on a broom? (her friend was laughing) Lets go and don’t make stupid excuses. They got there, the ceremony started, Pearl was looking at the moon, and got hypnotized by its beauty and light, she could not take her from the moon. This strange wave of wind just hugged Pearls body completely, her body was burning. Someone lighted some incense and everything just got blurry. Pearl was not feeling good, she was about to purge and then just passed out completely.  And here he appeared in his full beauty, looking at Pearl with such a passion and Love. He took her hand and said to Pearl:  Now you will know who you are, close your eyes and breath deep.  Pearl: Where are you taking me? You came first time, and left, disappeared completely, made me believe in dream, made me even more crazy, and now again?   Guide: Just trust me... (with deep breath) he looked at her and just said: My Goddess. Pearl: Well here is the problem, I don’t trust you. When he touched her even stronger, Pearl felt how her soul came out of her human body. She was resisting this power, this love. She opened her eyes and saw her friend trying to wake her up. By the time Pearl tried to explain what the hell is going on? He pulled her back; Guide: Pearl don’t be afraid; I'll take you home. Give me your hand, close your eyes and trust me. The second time he touched Pearls hand; her entire body transformed all in gold. There was just a pure being that was emanating this unexplained gold ray. They finally arrived: Pearl never saw such a beauty all these light beings with extraordinary colors. Pearl instantly, looked at herself and she also looked similar to them.   Pearl: I don’t understand... Guide: Pearl what do you see? What do you feel?   Pearl: Well ... Just when she wanted to say something, they all turned around towards her. Thousands of beings knelled for Pearl’s arrival. The Atlantis kneel in front of Pearl and said: Welcome home Goddess we were waiting for you. And here where Pearl broke down but not into tears, but a wave of love took away her pain and brought a feeling of belonging. Guide: Pearl look up...  When she turned her head, a huge temple was ahead of her Pearl: A temple? Guide: That’s where you belong Pearl, you are getting closer …. Every time he was looking at her, Pearl was feeling this strange pull and intensity, she could dissolve in his eyes. They walked into the temple and Pearl started glowing even more powerful, meanwhile broken memories, fragments started bursting in her head. Pearl: I don’t feel too good, everything is burning and something takes me back and forth from where we are.  Guide: Don’t resist it, just let yourself melt into it let your higher power take over you.  Pearl was in deep trance, her body was moving so strange, electricity, everything was vibrating, this urge of sexual energy was eating Pearl’s body. Was so intense so powerful, suddenly she felt this fresh cold breeze around her neck and down to her spine, a soft touch around her hips. She could feel that every part of her body is being replacing but gently and with love. She didn’t know if she is the sky or water or inside of an egg. Everything and nothing, Love and Cosmos, He was all around her, inside and out a gentle pressure on her neck and pulled her in. Breath Pearl... She heard a soft whisper.  Pearl: I wish I could... she was saying something that not even her could understand. The final deep breath and here... Her womb exploded the cosmic orgasm, the power she was gifted. There was no more Her or Him, it was One, they were living into each other beings. Nothing could separate them, destroy, everything was beyond mind, beyond body and physicality, and that cannot be explain, but who needs it anyway, just feel it! She opens her eyes, and her friend was in despair and yelling at her to wake up.  Pearl: Why are you yelling, my head hurts... Did you take mushrooms or something, what the hell just happened?  Pearl was laughing and just being completely in this ecstasy. Are you OK? Why it seems to me that you look a bit crazy. Pearl said: Well I warned you, to not invite me to these kind of events...

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‘’ I’M’’

I’m everything you touch; you drink and eat. I’m every single atom that its unseen. I’m everything that fly's and swims. I'm in every breath you take. I’m in every drop of rain that touches the ocean.  I’m the rock, the gold, the diamonds! I’m that big tree that you hug every morning, I’m the moon and the sun, I’m in every breath you take. I dissolve at night so I can be your blanket, to nurture you and feel your warm breath. You think you see me but all you see it's an illusion. This is the dance of the universe; this is the dance with God.... This is the dance between your being and your body. Embodying it all; you'll experience joy and love, denying you'll experience chaos.  Do you hear me? Do you feel me? Do you feel this intensity? Do you feel the gravitation into each other? Hear me, open your heart and let me in.

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The Woods of my Soul...

I'm calling you to come with me, I'm calling you into the woods of pure ecstasy and love, I'm calling for forever truth. Would you like to calm your thirst with one drop of eternity? Close your eyes and let's dive deep into surrendering together, there will not be You anymore nor Me, we will emerge into One! Let's dive deep into every feeling that holds your magnetic being, lets penetrate and swallow the motion of bitter and sweet taste. Let's dance, scream and hallow in the darkness of hell and savor the pleasures of heaven. You might think you can't have it all, but I'm here to tell and show you that you already have it, don’t throw none of them, hold them softly don’t try to poses it, just very gently hold them with your fingers. Sadness will make you cry and slow if you surrender will take on the other side of the coin ‘’ Happiness’’ , pain will hurt you if you resist will eat you until you surrender and will take on other side of the coin  ‘’ Pleasure’’ , hate will take the worst out of you, will diminish your world, will take into the darker swamps if you resist, if there is surrender will take you on the other side of the coin which is ‘’Love’’ .  Do you see the power in surrender? Do you see what power is within you? Hell, and Heaven in its own beauty. Just like the woods; night reflects the wolfs, the spirits that can't sleep, this is their time to wonder, you can get lost into the frightened melody of its dark magic. This is when the witches are coming out to cast spells on the lovers this is when everyone makes love with rhythm of the moon all you hear the moaning of the woods. And when the moon and the sun stop making love, he arises and light has covered the woods, silence and peace and beauty all around.  The children of the woods are awakened and ready to blossom, the little birds are kissing the flowers and spreading everywhere their seeds. Fear of intimacy will keep you away from the Goddess of Night and fear of Life will keep you away from the Goddess of Light, but little that you know that is the same Goddess, same energy, just depends on how you flip the coin. I’ m always here with you, following, just looking at you and waiting when you going to take my hand and be ready to walk through the Gate of Love, the Gate of truth and eternity. I can only hope it will not take to many lives until you'll walk into the Woods of My Soul.... 

Enough For Today....

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Hunted!

 I've been hunted by you for so many lives. I've been ashamed, I've been strangulated, I've been left in the cold, I couldn't escape your night tortures in the dark. You followed me everywhere, you possessed my body and turned into flames. I would get wet on my knees would lose my balance; my heart would start beating with the speed of light. Every single cell of my body wanted to become in oneness with the earth. All I could do is crawling away so nobody can see my madness. I look like a lost woman this torture, pain, pleasure this Cosmic Orgasm wouldn’t stop. I barely could breath, my nails are bleeding from so much grasped, my tongue is poisoned and numb by my own desire, urge of letting my soul free. I was high on You, no more fight, no denying nor did I want it anymore. They said to me: Is she a whore? Is she a seductress? Is she a witch? Is she for sale? Is she that? Is she this? She can't, she can't, she can't... And I believed them for a second. But you didn’t stop until my soul was wide opened and I was facing the deepest of my core. Blind and tired I surrendered to you. I let go of everything that held my power now you can tear me apart. I don’t know any more if you are hunting me or I was hunting you. And just then everything became calm, silence, my body was so light: Everything was in harmony. She was awake, the goddess was awake. Now she is out there, clammed her power back, from many lives from many galaxies. Whore? Seductress? Bitch? Witch? She wears the Wedding dress and the Funeral dress at ones, what medicine you'll choose we’ll find out soon enough. But for now,

 I say ,

She Is a Goddess

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I dare you to close your eyes...

Have you ever used your eyes to see inward? Have you ever lost yourself in emptiness and nothingness? Have you ever given up the control to fall deep?  I’m sure not; and if you did it, maybe it was for couple seconds and then you opened right away because you lost your balance and the worst happened, fear and doubt kicked in. Most of us chose to be blind, chose to be death - to live in completely ignorance, even ignorance has been labeled wrong, I would say most of us chose to be asleep, comfortable and fit with everyone! Everything seems familiar, everything has been predicted, I’m safe. But if I dare to close your eyes, what would be? What would happen?  All that is gone and you fall into abyss, there is nothing to catch on to, there is nothing, no paved paths, no labels, no attachments, no past, no present, not future Just NOW! It’s something beyond our understanding, there is no mind, no body, no soul just Presence! You see the mind uses our eyes to label everything we see and touch, so there will be nothing left to define, everything is known by the Mind! There is no mystery just do as I say and you’ll be OK. Now when we close our eyes, the mind can't see anything, there is nothing to label but she still does it, and say to you: This is darkness, its nothing here, no balance, you are going mad – I gave you everything you need, what would others say, be rational, be logic, this is not real and so on and on until you can't do it anymore and you give up and open your eyes, and here you are safe in this little world that mind has created through your eyes to just keep you gravitate down and not uplifted towards the sky.  The day we turn our eyes inward, this would be the first time we would truly see.  

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How to love yourself? Or we are asking the wrong question....

I think the question should be How to accept myself? Learning to accept what we are, to be more patient and gentle with ourselves and start working with that! Even working sounds like pressure, sounds like a job, sounds like a morning rush going no where, more anxiety to try to be someone! What is your life about, anyway?— Nothing but a struggle to be someone, Nothing but a running from your own silence. '' Rumi'' We are taking on all these layers from someone else and trying to make it our, we are borrowing and making others proud! You are so naive by thinking that someone in this world has what you have, has your talent, has your humor, your charisma, has your crazy personality and your freaking beautiful soul! YOU ARE SO WRONG! Nobody has it and nobody will ever have it! When you were created, it was specifically requested just one model of you, not two, not three but ONE! The problem was when you were born a '' Life'' was already created for you without asking your permission, time passed by and that idea of '' Life'' was so much imprinted in your head that you couldn't see the true YOU . Its not easy in our society to break that cycle, because you have to step on many individuals and many patterns. I'm not saying society its totally wrong, not completely; we need it for simple things , we need those skills for our own protection. But here where 99% of us gets stuck and gets lost in these maze. You have to learn society's rules and then when you know it you trow it away - you are asking why? Well because you'll know how and you'll become immune to it.             Enough with that... Now .... You want to be free? Then learn how to accept yourself, learn to nurture, how to be grateful for the infinity being you are. Don't just say it, don't burn candles, don't just write affirmations about how amazing you are, don't just mediate in lotus position, don't just do yoga or any other things. All of that works, and it's beautiful but just when you've already accepted who you are. If you use any this tools that is spirituality,fitness, traveling, work any activities to change who you are by thinking you have to be better in order to be complete, to be accepted, loved, successful and this is my favorite because '' We'' are 'Broken'' and we need healing( it's because that's what I've been telling my self for very long time) I have to heal my self because I'm broken so i can have everything i desire. Do you think God ( Universe, Alah whoever you believe) would create broken people and just let them suffer and be lost ?  NO, not at all. And you have to understand when I talk about change has nothing to do with your exterior, body( if you need to loose couple pounds to be more healthy , definitely do it )face( make sure to wash your face and use some coconut oil or whatever makes you happy)  job( You don't like your job, doesn't make you happy?  leave it, you'll get another ) etc. That's nothing, doesn't even matter anymore it will follow the the inner self anyway. If you are focused just on the outer world then I can predict your future... You'll be stuck in that limbo forever my friend. For this body is a chain and you are its prisoner. Smash through the prison wall and walk outside with the kings and princes. '' Rumi'' Fall in love with the darkness of your being and lose yourself, lose yourself , do not fear this loss for you will rise and shine your true light.Then you'll see that the darkness is just an absence of the light, fear is just the absence of love, hate is just the absence of compassion. If you want the moon do not hide from the night, if you want the stars do not hide from the night, if you want love do not hide from yourself. The healing starts when you accept You are totally complete, loved, not alone, infinite. When you learn to wear both colors black and white, when you learn to wear the wedding dress and funeral dress in the same time when you accept You as who you really are; And You are Love..... ''You are the root of heaven, the morning star, the bright moon, the house of endless love''.  Rumi