#weird vents

[theamethystbaby]

so, I have best friends and I love them so much but why can’t I have that tumblr type best friend: that person that you talk to about any & everything; that person that understands me and where I come from; that person that I always hang out with and talk about the world with. my best friend are definitely carefree black girls but I need that other-half that has no other best friends. but I guess, i’m content, as it is, with the sisters I have now. but sometimes…

[finaspeaks]

Hi My Sweetheart

Maybe I watch too much of this drama. Maybe I am a little too much like the girl. I push the one I'm in love with away, just hoping that he will never let go. I can be so cruel and crude to him. But I have to remember that my life isn't some Taiwanese fantasy. Things probably won't play out the way they do on the show. Even if I do some mean things to him, he might not be as patient and forgiving as Da Lung. It's time to start being realistic. In real life he wouldn't be so patient and forgiving. He would call you a bitch. In real life he would leave. And in the end, he won't come back to you, say he's in love with you and stay by your side forever.

I guess I should give up. I'm not Rainie Yang. And he isn't Show Luo. We aren't going to be okay if I continue this way.