@overtimecurse asked: "Do you love her?"
nanami's sudden question pulls satoru from whatever daydream. something about rivers of chocolate and trees made of candy — heaven, in satoru's eyes. he looks up to meet nanami's gaze, and the other man's expression is quite serious. he can't really discern what he's thinking, though, but that's always been the thing with nanami. he's generally good at keeping a level head. satoru's the one that likes to push his buttons, but even then, he doesn't quite pull the reactions he'd like to aside from an annoyed grimace.
❝ her? i'm afraid i don't know what you're talking about, nanami, ❞ satoru feigns ignorance, but he realizes he should know better than to think some stupid lie like that was going to work. who else could he be possibly talking about except utahime. satoru asked him the same question before, curious, and now nanami's turned it back to him. did he finally remember that satoru expressed interest in her many years ago? or…
❝ does it matter? i told you i'm not the marriage type. i meant that, ❞ satoru says, leaning back with his arms crossed behind his head. he's the picture of nonchalance, and he's sure that the lie must be believable. contrary to what others might assume, he's got quite the poker face. the way his eyes are covered 90% of the time probably helps, but he's good at at least appearing calm when he's not too incensed. it's probably not wise to lie — he'll probably go and assure her that she's making the right choice because satoru's a hedonistic and selfish bastard that doesn't have it in him to love anyone.
but that's not true.
satoru loves her. he thinks he's loved her from the start, spotting her at his family's estate when he was just a child himself. he'd found her pretty even then, and now he thinks she's beauty incarnate. he loves her enough to have potentially fucked one of his closest friendships (well two, counting his friendship with her as well). maybe that's what gives his feelings away, because nanami has to know that satoru isn't that unfeeling and selfish.
❝ — is that all? ❞