#well... here we are again

[akolnoix]

i wanted to be free from the smell of blood, but the scent had seeped into my heart...

[jacinpain]

Sorry. There is no read more thing when I’m on my mobile phone. So, if you are not interest in any personal shit you shouldn’t read this.

Do you know these weird conversations and situations you go through in your head when you lie in your bed and everything is quiet and you feel all alone? Well, I do and these thoughts are driving me crazy. I can’t deal with them anymore. I mean, none of them will ever happen and I’m lying to myself all the fucking time. I don’t just lie to others, no I lie to myself. And it’s killing me. I can’t fucking sleep... again. I have a huge headache. And I have to wake up in 7 hours, which is more than yesterday and totally enough sleep. But tomorrow is school. And I fucking hate school. Of course I’m good at school. I get good grades and everything but that’s just because I have to. I’d rather be a normal kid with normal grades and normal friends and I’d rather just be normal. But I guess I’m not.