#werkserye

[the-part-time-escapist]

Lord, give me strength to carry on. Help me to see your light.

[the-part-time-escapist]

hygge.

[hue-gah] Danish.

(n.) the ritual of enjoying life's simple pleasures.

I'm actually stressed out on my work performance since last night. Wrote on my journal before I slept, made myself a good breakfast and kept myself busy trying to curate tumblr worthy photos. So am I feeling better now? Not really. I know I'm doing all these things to distract myself.

I'm a bit lonely these days. I have a lot of thoughts in my head and I am anxious of the future. Will I be able to find the right person for me or will I grow old alone? Will I continue working here after the 2 years? or until when should I work here? If not, will I be able to find work when I go home? How much will I miss if I keep working here? Am I fit to do this job? What is life to offer me when I grow old?

I know I should only be doing and thinking things that will glorify God and will help grow my relationship with him. And this include trusting him and living in the now rather than overthinking of the future.

I know I have to fight all the way - one day at a time until my breakthroughs come in God's perfect time. And God did not promise a life free of sufferings. But he promised that he will walk us through it. I need to keep reminding myself this. And also I need to remind myself that all the challenges I am facing now are part of the waiting and the process.

I always get sidetrack. But Lalaban ulit! For better life for my fam and my relatives. Puhon.

[the-part-time-escapist]

A P R I L H I G H L I G H T S

1. Hustle on things to improve in my new work

2. Meal Prep and food deliveries ( finaaaaally pizzaaaa)

3. Receiving plants to grow

4. Birthdays

5. Skin Care Addiction because breakouts is real

6. Watched anime after a few years: Violet Evergarden

7. Movies: Rewatched my movie faves (Leap Year and The Blind Side) New finds: (Two weeks notice, Miss Congeniality, a Sandra Bullock kind of month)

8. Covid

9. V-calls with fam and Shara (grateful for this wonderful lady who made time and really wanted to talk to me.. Talked for 2 hrs straight.. love you bff even tho you won't be able to read this)

10. ML gaming

11. First padala

12. Familiarize road and became interested on road signs from work to accomodation, vice versa

[the-part-time-escapist]

M A R C H

month of answered prayers

new beginnings

being independent

learning to prep meals

rereading books

journaling

spoonful of cough syrup

cups of tea and ginger

[the-part-time-escapist]

I've realized lately that my workmates have been very observant of me. There are really times when I'm lost with my thoughts. But I've always thought it would be unnoticeable. When they ask me why I am being serious and quiet I switch up to being lively so they won't pry me. I have a habit of making everyone feel that everything is fine.