#westlie

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*has been staring at the word page for 30 minutes*

... if there was a Roman!Liztlie AU, I would throw Arthur and Westlie into the Colosseum and pay someone else to write the fanfic of their incredibly awesome fight to the death.

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I’m my own fanartist and I require the fluff. It’s very sexy and I’m proud of myself.

Also holy FUCK this is probably one of the best things I’ve ever done look at that boot???????? I’m never going to draw a better victorian boot. I’m in awe.also their hands??? eddy helped with westlie’s thumb bc i was wondering what I was missing. i appreciate him.

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Westlie and Morgan Faire POV: You have a sister.

(Ah! Absolutely wild over this picrew! I want to do some of the side characters like Theo, Charlotte, and Elizabeth.)

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Chapter One Westlie: I won't touch you, a child. I don't know how to interact with you. I expect you to carry your own weight. I expect you to figure out your own questions. I am confused by your fear and I am an idiot.

Chapter Twenty-One Westlie: I greet you downstairs. I pick you up to hug you. I misunderstand and tease you. I gift you my time. I admire your progress. I answer all your questions with honesty and love.

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Sunless-Albion tasted like gunpowder and cinnamon.

If Westlie opened her mouth and breathed deep, she could ever-so-faintly taste hours on her tongue. A muted, earthy tang, like truffles stored in ice.

The sky was a deep pitch.

She hadn't gotten used to it, even after two years; even after near-death blowing up the sun; even after landing the Queen's final blow with her own two hands. None of it felt real.

Elijah's footsteps sounded on the stairwell and she turned as he made the final step. One mug was more carefully balanced than the other, lest it slip on his glass fingers. She took that one. They both settled against the railing.

She sipped. Elijah had made an Achlys blend of tea; dark, earthy, very familiar. She savored it. "... The sky's darker than I remember."

She couldn't see his smile behind the mug, but the skin behind his eyepatch wrinkled. "The Khanate has helped. There have been contributions."

"Contributions from you I hear."

His nose wrinkled. "Family contributions."

"Your contributions."

He ignored that, and Westlie dismissed it for another day.

"... How's Andy?"

"Brilliant." She smiled. "Still rough around the edges, but he learns quickly."

"You have an inordinate amount of patience for the most inexplicable things."

"Thank you," she sipped again. "I'll take that as a compliment."

"He needs it."

"He does."

"What about Arthur? Are you going to visit him?"

Westlie hesitated. "... Probably. At some point. I should."

Elijah hesitated, and Westlie could see the question on his face. She took another sip so she could hide behind her mug.

"Why haven't you come to London for two years?"

'Busy' was true, but it was also a lie. Westlie squinted at the stars like they would hold an answer and Elijah waited.

She admired that about him, as much as she hated it. That deep-sunken silence as she tried to reconcile her actions with words. She let her breath spiral in soft blotted clouds from the chill. "I... I don't know."

Elijah waited.

"Nothing's finished," she whispered. It sounded loud despite the noise of London. "There's so much to do- so many runs to make- we didn't finish."

"There's no sun in the sky. No throne of hours."

"Achlys-" Westlie's voice cracked; for a second she hated herself for sounding half her age. "New Winchester, Port Prosper- They took the brunt of London's invasion so we could have that chance. There isn't enough to repay them-"

She stayed quiet for a moment, hoping he'd read her mind- that she didn't want to sit. She had to do. Had to keep doing. She could help, she could fly, she was free, it was purpose, and whenever she was still there was that itch to keep pushing.

She wasn't Morgan- Gods knew where Marion and Sally and Morgan were off now to kill more Judgements- but she wanted to make things safe in the mess they were leaving. Which words said that?

"I- I just... I want to finish the job; and right now, it's not in London."

"I know." Elijah hesitated. He cleared his throat. "I mean, you have a ho- place here, if you want it. Somewhere to stay that isn't Arthur's."

"O-oh."

"I hoped you weren't staying away because of that." His voice softened a little. "I know you're not done."

"... how?"

"Your letters were happy." They'd finished their tea, so he couldn't hide the way his visible eye softened with understanding and the separation that lingered between them sometimes.

They stood there on the roof of the Fry mansion as gas lights shone through the mist and locomotives steamed to the docks.

"I missed you," Westlie blurted out. "It's not the same."

Elijah's face flushed a violent pink.

Her cheeks burned.

"I- fuck-"

"Yo- you have a home here, whenever you need-" Elijah's words were a little strangled but he managed. "I- I mean that."

oh fucking hell

In the middle of the night Elijah was still wearing his goddamn tie under his waistcoat and Westlie had parked in Wolfstack station and signed 29 pages of paperwork and after two years Elijah was still going to play dignified even though it was very, very attractive- and she dragged him into a kiss.

It was fierce and crushed and hurt, kinda, but she wanted it to hurt because she couldn't stop captaining, and there was a hole at her side where he once stood and that hole hurt, and she missed him and that hurt, and they were both gasping and red when she finally let go.

"... Ow."

"I love you." The words choked in her throat. "I love you- I will come home."

"You could have said that."

"I am- did."

"Gentler next time." But he was teasing now in his dry manner with the subtle up-quirk of the lip.

"Fine." Westlie waited for him to collect the mugs and face her again before she grabbed his tie.

She

gently

with

emphasized slowness

-pulled him down into another kiss that she did make softer that time because she was almost crying with relief. She didn't pull away at the end, and he rested his forehead on hers.

"I'm sorry," Westlie whispered, "for making you worry."

"Come home to me, Wes."

"I will."

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🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹!!

‘Relief’ was the wrong word to describe how Westlie felt after a week of living with Lizzie on their own. A weight had been lifted from her chest, but now she was seeing for the first time too. It was like she’d put on magic glasses and the world was suddenly full of roses with thorns. She was still stuck walking through the briars. But she could touch them. She could see them. There was no Arthur trimming off the flowers whenever she got close; no Mary to tease her about every invisible cut and tear. When she scraped a thorn, she bled- and she could feel the pain now, watch the blood run down her arm, feel the determination course through her to reach the rose again. Challenges didn’t seem like they’d be freeing, but she was making the choice to chase them, she was the one in control; the world had moved on from the events of last week and she was left a changed woman in an unfamiliar city; the chains were gone, she was just… Westlie.

The first day of her new job, Westlie woke up, dressed, and started to pull up her hair up from habit when her arms hesitated. There wasn’t a mirror in the little apartment, but she could imagine herself as she stared at the wall: slender, pale, nervous, a curl of red hair over her right cheek; the vest, the skirt, the defiant chin; frightened eyes, sister-less, a guardian, a runaway; free. She wasn’t Westlie from Fairweather anymore and she didn’t want to look it. Free. Westlie’s arms ached a bit, but she didn’t move, just holding the word in her heart.

She was free, wasn’t she? That thing, that word she’d worked to secure for Morgan her whole life- that dream she’d fantasized for Lizzie- she was free to decide whether they should stay or move, free to work for Jamison or any other company, any other goal. She could be a navigator if she wanted. She had the license. She could do it. She could try.

Old-Westlie, the woman in the mirror with the long curls, the hand with the hairpins, with the practiced, ruthless efficiency- that was the person she had been. Westlie made her way over to her carpet bag in a haze. She had a little travel sewing kit with thread scissors. She took them out and raised them to her hair, chopping a curl off at neck length before she could process what she was doing. 

She immediately saw herself in the mirror again, caught in the act, scissors raised like a shield, lop-sided, frightened, new. Like a sculpture she couldn’t see the final form of, even in her mind’s eye. She didn’t want to be the same, but it was terrifying to change. Old-Westlie was a coward, she thought to herself. Old-Westlie might still be with Arthur if she hadn’t run with Lizzie; angry, sulking, bitter, but there. It was Morgan who bought their freedom this time. ... Where was Morgan? Westlie hacked at her hair until it was all the same length and she looked in the imaginary mirror again.

Short, curly, red, pale; brown eyes, chewed lips. … she didn’t feel free now, she just felt… she felt… Not-Westlie, and she didn’t know if that was good, or bad, or wrong, or right, or if she was just a woman trying so hard to grab the roses she saw, she didn’t care how many thorns cut her skin.

Arthur would say she looked unprofessional. Westlie swallowed and tucked a curl behind her ear. Arthur would say she wasn’t worth the work she did. … But Arthur wasn’t here, was he? He was gone and the no-longer heir to Fairweather was left standing in shoes she didn’t know how to fill. She could do it though. Westlie whispered confidence to herself in the imaginary mirror, trying not to think of the shoddy apartment and the stench of honey she’d never be able to get out of her nose. She could do it because she had a new job and a new employer, and she would find Lizzie a new apartment and she was going to make it wonderful because Lizzie should be free. And it started here; it started now, with New-Westlie.

New-Westlie took a breath, softly tapped Lizzie’s nose while she slept in, and stepped out into the musky, London briars to gather some roses.

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Really want to thank you for this one because it kicked my butt into adding to Chapter 17. I’m stuck on getting started, lol. This helped get me into the headspace. :)

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more things before bed

Short and unedited because I’m sleepy but I needed seratonin. Not sure if this happens in London after Westlie realizes she can’t give Lizzie to the London orphanage or in Port Prosper right after Part 1 when they’re waiting for Morgan to arrive. 

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She was like a little shadow around the shop, trailing at Westlie’s heels. When she opened the ledgers, Lizzie’s big brown eyes peered over the counter. not asking, just staring. Her quietness creeped Mary out, but it made sense to Westlie. When things where new and big and scary you didn’t want to talk because talking might get you in trouble. Safer to watch. Safer to stay put.

She got used to having a larger shadow faster than she would have liked.

They moved about without speaking, Westlie going about her business as usual. Lizzie stuck so close the banker barely noticed her. There was a brief glance that clearly didn’t register before they refocused on Westlie’s order. The next time she opened up the ledgers in the shop, Westlie pulled up two stools without speaking. She didn’t even glance at Lizzie as the girl hesitated beside her.

The unspoken question hovered in the air. Do I....?

Either way, Westlie quietly willed her. If you’re going to stand there, you might as well sit. 

It took another minute for Lizzie to slowly put her foot on the first rung, then she swung up and perched at the desk beside her. She just kind of sat there, nothing to do, just looking at the book - looking at her, maybe. Westlie smiled privately to herself and flipped the page. 

After an hour or so of math, Lizzie was clearly bored. She was fidgeting so much the stool was starting to creak. Finally she hopped off and Westlie breathed out in relief. She refocused on the numbers, pen scratching diligently. There was a quiet minute in the back of the shop before there were little footsteps and Lizzie came back. She placed a piece of paper and a pencil she’d grabbed on the desk beside Westlie - Westlie resisted the urge to look - before crawling up on the stool and sitting down again. There was a bit of a scratch as she started to write.

Westlie realized after a minute of doing the same calculation three times and forgetting the sum- She hadn’t asked and didn’t know if Lizzie could read or write. It seemed pretty straightforward. Orphanages were supposed to teach penmanship and basic arithmetic, right? And the whole goal was to help these children grow into society. She peeked at the paper out of the corner of her eye. 

Lizzie had drawn lines across the page at first, quite a bit like the ledger lines, Westlie realized, although they were big and jagged. The pencil had caught in the grain of the wood at some points and Lizzie struggled with it. After the girl had draw out lines, Westlie caught her staring at the ledger she had full of those important neat numbers. Lizzie very carefully traced out a nine in one box. She looked over at the ledger again. She very carefully traced out a three in the next box over. After a bit she got tired of copying numbers and she set to work drawing something in every box on the bottom of the page. 

Westlie tried to focus on her own arithmetic rather than watching her but her mind was thoroughly distracted. If she was working so hard to trace those numbers she absolutely couldn’t have learned them properly. If she had, it’d been slow going with inadequate teaching. Something twisted inside her again, and it was- Fuck, it’d been happening a lot lately. Westlie stared at the ledger. She’d been doing the ledgers since she was- how old? seven? eight? Arthur had told the secretary to take her to the shop and throw the book at her and that was it. Add the receipts into the book. Do the sums, check the numbers, triple-check and write them again. And then there were the maps, charting, navigating. She couldn’t remember not knowing how to toy with numbers. 

Westlie looked over at Lizzie - now completely entranced in the drawing - with some intangible, nameless emotion. She felt it sometimes with Morgan when she toed the law too much. (”You worry too much.” “I support myself just fine.” “College? I would die thank you very much.”) And it echoed of the times when she hated Arthur- wanted to smash his face in and tell him exactly what she thought when he dismissed her out of hand, when he ignored her requests, when he denied her what she was due. She wasn’t free. Westlie wasn’t free to leave, to breathe, to grow. Morgan was, and that was all she could ask and she would pay for that with money, with sweat, and with blood.

Now there was Lizzie.

Lizzie finished a little stick figure on the left side and started on a drawing in another box.

She was free from the orphanage, but what now? She had no skills, no knowledge. Westlie’s heart twisted again because she wasn’t really free. She wasn’t free to have options and grow and explore. Lizzie wasn’t free - and of course, Morgan with her freedom was her own breed of Problem™ - but she could be. 

Westlie felt herself quietly starting to make a list of things she would need. If she had time- Fuck. A tutor had always done things for her, but she couldn’t afford a tutor. It would have to be after work, so after 5 or so- What would Lizzie even do for ten hours? Were there schools? The task felt insurmountably daunting, but so necessary.

Westlie felt the irrational urge to hug Lizzie close and tell her it was going to be alright somehow, and they would manage; they’d all manage, and she’d be free someday and she could pick what she wanted and nobody would be able to tell her what to do. 

Westlie watched her for a moment longer before turning back to the ledger and setting back to the numbers with a sudden urgency. Freedom, the pen seemed to scratch out in the numbers. We work to earn our freedom.

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Could not leave that untouched.