Feb 8
my fake plastic love
#been listening to the bends again. shout out radiohead.#sometimes you (the torchbearer) gotta lift your girlfriend (probably concussed?) out of a puddle of blurrypaint (dead people)#where shes been left to her own delirium for however long. & she just. cant believe you (the torchbearer) are really here.. to save her....#twenty one pilots#scaled and icy#clancybearer#<- sort of. Theyre being weird#clancy#torchbearer#my art#clique art#I dont know i think scicyclancy is sort of. idk almost pathetically? affection seeking. in a way wheres shes not usually#shes not all there shes completely out of it trying to curl up against a specter of someone whos not really there#at least not in the way she thinks she is .#and I think the torchbearer almost feels like. Guilty abt this? Like shes taking advantage of her while shes not. fully in her head#trying to comfort her but trying to keep her at a certain distance because She Knows Clancys boundaries#and if Clancy wasn't. drugged and seized and smeared to high heaven like around the clock. She wouldn't be acting this way#but she is so. sad and weary and beaten down and the torchbearer cant just. ignore her.#I DUNNO. Because shes not really there in a way thats. Yknow. and Clancys out of it and not herself and its just#idk. Idk if im articulating this properly.#whaaatever .