with my rpf goggles on. thinking abt secret relationship sincaraz with jannik's girlfriend as pr. and maybe, they've been at an ends. it's been a lot for carlos. and he's beginning to think that maybe love isn't enough. that what they have isn't sustainable - the lying, the time apart, having to see jannik publicly announce that he's with someone else. and carlos' number one fear is not being able to live a life he truly wants to live. he'd be betraying himself if he were to continue on with jannik - but the love is so good and so beautiful and could it be enough?
and then. in front of everyone. jannik gently says, 'i will always choose you.' in front of his girlfriend, in front of his family and friends, in front of carlos' family - and though the context isn't right - carlos knows what he means. how jannik stares at him and chooses him, so confidently. maybe not in the way he'd exactly like it to be, but in only in a way they could have now.
then later on - when it's the two of them - jannik affirms this. it will always be carlos, it will always be jannik. yes the love is enough










