Dec 2, 2023
I only like some ladies, but those ladies I do like I either want a) to explode me w their minds [horny] or b) to explode them w my mind [horny]
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I only like some ladies, but those ladies I do like I either want a) to explode me w their minds [horny] or b) to explode them w my mind [horny]
The cool (lame) thing about my diagnosis is that it doesn't exist outside a few countries, so if I moved to...idk theoretically, almost anywhere... I wouldn't be treated is soooo fun!!!!
Not that it matters. I don't take antidepressants anymore because I can't be bothered. Plus, they all make me feel worse and after my multitude of OD attempts I feel sick about swallowing pills. Especially if more than once in a while. Cool. I only get a monthly shot of neuroleptics even though I only experience those not-worth-noting negative effects only.
It's not that I'm lamenting that I probably can't post on #actuallyschizoid without risking being bullied or laughed out... No, I don't give a shit about that. It's that I have an invalid fucking diagnosis that's bothering me. DSM-5 AND ICD-11said fuck you very much, but because I live in an ass backwards country (that might as well be villages and no electricity as majority of fucking moronic westerners think), well, I'm stuck with it and I will most likely never know what the fuck is actually wrong with my shit brain.
Grandma was schizoid though. Not that it means I am, too. Obviously. All I've got is probably just glorified depression. I honestly would not fucking know. But the desire to die has been back, which might be for the better.
can I just sleep for the next like two centuries
I think I'll just end up posting a bunch of my writing wips that I'll probably never finish...hmm.
so whats next on our so said forever? or happy ever after was it? we were never happy. you had bigger issues and i cheat. not like you'd noticed you self obssesed freak. im a freak too own my right but who are you to tell me you love when all you loved was the size of your wrists and how boney your torso was. you never cared. you didnt even know i tried to kill myself that night so if i really died, would it still be forever? if it is, i'd still ask what happens next.
you know what. im not really using this blog a lot anymore so i’ll just sorta turn it into an aes blog or something
Lowkey debating using that flower crown icon of me