To any high school kids out there waiting for college, I’m going to give you the sad truth about what it’s really like going to college. Keep in mind, these are my experiences so I know most of this won’t happen to you, however I am going to warn you anyways. College is not some fluffy, easy party place where it’s super easy to get up, go to class, write a few papers, take a couple tests and then you’re done. I wish it was that way, however it’s not. College for me since the first year has been an absolute shit hole. My first semester I went through three different relationships where two of them were chronic party boys who drank excessively, one sold drugs, one was prone to dangerous drunken tantrums where it ended in him punching me in the face during one of said tantrums, both cheated on me and were chronic liars, I crashed my car, dealt with a recent tragic family death, was dealing with a chronically ill grandparent, lost all my friends, was constantly alone, trying to juggle a job in order to pay for school because my parents were unable to help me, was so stressed I was literally sick for over a month and at the same time I had a long time childhood friend die of an over dose, and all I was trying to do was just go to school. Keep in mind this was only my FIRST semester, all of this happened between the time of August and December and even into January. People are still complete ass holes, teachers give you pointless busy work that makes you want to pull your hair out, you won’t sleep, you’ll have break downs often, and if you have depression and anxiety already like I do, fucking forget it. I’m constantly so unhappy I get on my own nerves. I literally envy people who love school, I wish with all my heart I could love going to class and I could love bettering myself but I don’t. I’m currently a junior and at the rate I’m going I will be in school for another three years. It honestly makes me fucking sick to think I have three more years to suffer through this just in order to get a fucking piece of paper saying I survived and am worthy of a fucking job. So to those kids out there excited to be in school, be ready to have a meltdown every week and hate the idea of getting up in the morning. I never would wish my college experience on anyone because as I said it has been nothing but hell, and as said earlier if you love college and you have a great time then good for you, I hope all of you enjoy your time, however, don’t be fooled, it’s not all it’s cracked up to be.