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[rarepairlovr]

i fucking love minao dawggg i cannot be normal about them ughhh

[spaceycowb0y]

All I do in my room nowadays is fart, scroll on tiktok and hit the cart. Sometimes all at once

[rowantheduchess]

Floater friend

I’ve never really made a vent post on here but tbh I’m just so tired of having no one. In a way, I have friends. I have people that love me. But at the same time, those people have their own people, and I don’t. It’s interesting cause I see online that people feel like they’re the second choice for their friends. But for me, I’m not even the second choice, I’m the last one. The nice girl who’s always friendly with everyone, who anyone can talk to when others aren’t available. I don’t have anyone that would call me everyday, invite me to their house just to have fun, text first, even remember my birthday and say something. Nothing.

And even if I do reach out, it just amounts to nothing. If I call first, it feels awkward and ends in a few minutes. If I text first, I don’t know what to say. If I plan the hangout first, no one shows up (this happened for my birthday last year). Even the gifts I rarely get from my friends don’t match my interests. Dont get me wrong I’m so grateful to get any gifts at all, but I’m conflicted because these gifts are just things that I think any girl my age would be happy to receive, like makeup or skincare or candy or whatever. And they’re great, I love them, but it’s so hard because I’ve never received a gift from a friend that really related to my interests. No books, no food from my culture, nothing that would help with my personal goals, no art supplies, no clothes that are my style. Just nothing.

It sucks because I’m the type of person who would and does do that stuff for my friends. I pick gifts that are from their specific interests, I go out of my way to get to know them, I listen to them, I remember almost all of their birthdays, and they don’t do the same for me. I just want to be loved the way I love.

But in a way, I think its my fault. I’ve never really taken the time to open up to people about any of these things. And I think it stems from my fear of being judged or being perceived as weird. I remember when I was younger I did show that weird part of myself and I’d just get made fun of for it. Though those jokes were probably light hearted, and I will admit I was a really cringe, it still really affected me. I was in like elementary school after all.

I also kinda grew up a little antisocial. I was homeschooled for half my life and I can definitely tell you that being locked in the house when I wasn’t even double digits yet impacted my capability to interact with others and form meaningful friendships. It’s definitely a flaw on my parents’ part, but I still love them, and I can understand that no one’s perfect. It’s their first time on earth too.

And because of that, even if I wanted to open up to other people, I just don’t know how to. I’d love to have friends who I can do art challenges with, talk about oc lore with, friends I can watch weird videos with and laugh with. But I don’t, and thats it.

I know people are dying. Children that are younger than me are getting raped, killed, starved, etc. But it feels like a time where I should actually be selfish for a second and think about me for little while.

And yeah. Does anyone seeing this have any tips to start opening up to people better? Cause like I really need the help. I’d really appreciate it!

[rdmaaron]

We need to bring back mecha anime whose ED themes are from a genre I like to call “Now That’s What I Call Music’s Greatest Love Ballads From The 80’s, 90’s and Today”

[wildberryautumn]

this generation of break-up songs is top tier

[cotinis-mutabilis]

HI I DREW THIS FOR GRIZZ’S BIRTHDAY! I REALLY LIKE HOW IT LOOKS

[broth-y]

hc that taka works so hard and so consistently that when he's Done working and tries to take a Genuine Break - and not move three units past the class pace - he literally doesn't know what to do with himself and is just Numb. he feels like it's pointless and gets really jittery. so he inevitably goes back to work.