Post-Educational Social Life: A Reflection in Stream-of-Consciousness Form
I wish I could go back to early high school when I liked girls because they were cool people and not because I was attracted to them sexually.
Like yeah, I was sexually attracted to them too, but I would find reasons to hang out with people (males and females, boys and girls) because I liked who they were.
PS. Some of those ppl were not worth getting to know better, some were worth galaxies, and some merely deserved better but were ultimately bland. That's life.
But now there's this malign landscape where girls have to watch themselves against predators old and young, adept and inept. It really actually hurts the friend dynamic.
I mean, there's also the part where when you get older you see less people less often - c'est la vie - but for those who outwardly display as masc./hetero. to have to cross a further gap between themselves and those who outwardly display as femme./hetero is plain ridiculous.
Attempting to cross that gap is usually interpreted, in my experience, as intent to romance (which is fine, because ¿how much time do we as working class adults really have, anyway? Don't let me waste your time or cut into your pre-allocated romance time.)
Not to mention that you gotta pick an activity, which in essence is a compromise, which will eventually lead to malcontentment. I guess I was just happier in secondary school when I was forced to coexist in the same space as others my age by custom and law (I'm looking at you, truancy officer)