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I can’t believe what was happening, I had literally gone to hell, to hell in my own mind. My mind was my own worst enemy, my fears surfaced, everything I loved, I feared, everything I feared, I feared even more. No positive thoughts, if a positive thought surfaced, my ego would through it to the side and say “You’re not worthy of such thoughts” and replace it with negative ones, which increased the negative feeling and pinging sensation.










