Today I'm fighting the need to have a pity party for myself, because I didn't do all this hard work to fall on my face. I use to go out with my friends everyday, my phone would be blowing up, I had some kind of out of state adventure planned monthly. Now I'm reading, my friends asked only a handful of times a month, most the time I have to reach out to them. I'm dealing with anger and other emotions now since I became sober. I use to surround myself with people that loved the drama, that played the victim and now I won't put myself there. Now I feel so alone. Getting healthy is hard and lonely. I said the other day that I feel like people can't accept me unless I'm drunk, I broke down and cried and wished i want back to drinking . I didn't .. but I could have. There's so many human beings that are hurting, there's so many that are playing the victim and have an excuse for everything, I'm just trying to be sober and happy with myself and to keep working on me. Thank you to @apollo0769 and @kieran.dell for being here for me💕 #whywelove #soberlife #soberliving #bekind #moveforward #whyweadventure #mythoughts