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I wish I could scrub this feeling out of me

#girlblogging #mental health #but i’m also just a girl #diary of a teenage girl #this is a girlblog #sad girl cinema #fadingfilmstill #self loathing #someone sedate me #girl interrupted #radiohead #me and my thoughts #black swan #idk how to explain this feeling #cinephile #overthinking #will it ever stop #hell is a teenage girl #angel dust

HI ITS NEBULA 😭😭😭

@glacierruler @butterflies-for-michael @weirdo09 @delusional-dingus @adoremikewheeler @sorry-i-panicked @donutdisturblivball TUMBLR HAD THE AUDACITY TO T3RM1NATE MY MAIN

already sent in support tickets and tweeted them on twitter multiple times

#this is so fucking stupid #byler #<- not byler related #idk when this will stop #will it ever stop

will i ever get to experience peace in this life

#insert ben affleck smoking meme #pearlsandrambles #WILL IT EVER STOP

Okay, so I know it's just that the abortion discussions are bringing up old mental health shit but like, how do y'all handle it when you feel like you'll never be able to prove you're good enough no matter how good your deeds are?

Like I have my meds back and they're helping but that little stubborn voice in my head that asks how much time and resources and care it's been to help me live and how could I ever, EVER, EVER do anything good enough to repay that debt?

Like usually "recall that Jesus loves you anyway" helps cos even though I think Jesus is a story, it helps my brain remember I don't HAVE to deserve to live for it to be a good thing that I'm alive

but right now my brain doesn't care, cos if that's just a story, it might as well just be one i made up to make myself feel better so who cares anyway

and just

i'm disabled

my mom kept me

but what if that wasn't an informed choice, just a silly one

how will I ever stop deserving to be dead? Stop wasting resources more than one nondisabled kid could have used faster, easier, quicker, better?

i do so many "good deeds" but it's always there

waiting for me

go do another, another, another

...if I was a choice how the fuck do I ever convince myself I was a GOOD one?

#donut rebagel #person3lle #negative #internalized ableism #as in discussing mine not accusing some rando bc i don't like them #fuck this #will it ever stop #i know i can't (and shouldn't) use the law as therapy #but it was so much easier to beat these demons back when all abortion was wrong in my mind

I've heard all about you you wear fine things well you're a fucking lunatic you came back never left nah I'm blackbeard for me why you make stede happy ed his name is ed

#brain rot brain rot brain rot #will it ever stop #our flag means death

I had good food WHY AM I STILL SAD

#sad boy hours #pretty when you cry #will it ever stop #i hate it i hate it i hate it #aaaaah #textpost #personal text #txt post #i'm sad #it makes me cry #cry for help #chaotic academia #chaotic ramblings #chaotic mind

sometimes i like living in the city but then they start construction work in my immediate vicinity

#personal #welcome to hell #we have 24x7 drilling and free headaches #WILL IT EVER STOP