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[wiltedpurple]

15mar

tw: sexual assault

a man made a rape joke.

my throat closes up. i can feel the hands pushing against my own. clawing their way into where they don’t belong. i give up.

a man made a rape joke.

i wait for the others to say something. call him out. anything.

silence.

the conversation slowly returns. again, the man is let off with no punishment or remorse.

a man made a rape joke.

i feel my lunch start to come back up. the familiar shaking hands and uneven breaths return again. i’m safe. i’m okay. i’m safe.

i’m scared. and alone. and this is normalised.

a man made a rape joke.

and i have to relive it every single time.

-wiltedpurple

[wiltedpurple]

dear me, i'm sorry you still love him. sincerely, me.

sunshxnequote-s

[wiltedpurple]

what do you do when every time you do anything his face pops up? when you're cooking pasta and you remember that time he tried to make some and spilled it all over your kitchen. when you're scrolling through instagram and his favourite account posts a picture that lands at the top of your feed. what do you do when people begin to ask about new loves but he's still on your mind? he's always on your mind. what are you supposed to do. what are you supposed to do when every night is one of your 'bad nights?' what do you do when you see other girls talking to him and commenting on his photos and it breaks your heart because deep down you know he doesn't care about you. you know he'll never love you again. gosh, you don't even talk anymore. how is one, single broken girl supposed to know what to do?

sunshxnequote-s

[wiltedpurple]

i'm not in love with you anymore. i loved you, and i always will respect you. i'll always be here for you if you need me. but i don't love you anymore. i don't need you every second and you rarely cross my mind. you were and are incredible and i hope your next girlfriend is perfect and she's everything you ever wanted and the things that you used to tell me, you say to her but mean them. i hope it's better and it works out for you. i hope your future is bright.

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[wiltedpurple]

no one understands that feelings don't just disappear once it's over. hearing them dreadful words doesn't just turn off a switch in your brain and it's all back to normal. no, you sit there for days, months, even years wondering where it went wrong and missing them. god i miss you.

no one understands sunshxnequote-s