He hated them, hated this, hated everything that was this existence!
Volke could not even see, reaching again to push the frustrated wetness from his eyes, fright so frigid and insistent in his false blood. Barley could he breathe, or even manage his own stride, the presence of the wall the only way conveyance could possibly be maintained.
Had to get away, to get low, to not be where any would find the evidence of his dysfunction. The bodies would be found, would of course be found, but he knew not when. If-, if he could only be away from here, if he could return to his cell and pretend as if he had been there the entire evening, then no one would know that again he had terminated his betters.
He knew it was a crime, knew that his purpose was only to be a tool for others, but-, but he could not stand when they touched him. When they bellowed and struck him for no reason, as if so pleased to see him bleed and bruise.
Hadn’t done anything wrong, hadn’t deserved a single mark, and yet they hadn’t stopped, had refused him permission to leave, so insistent with each snapped word, with the reach of their hands.
Bleeding out in the back of the armory, arranged as if having engaged each other in conflict as decently as Volke could manage when so terrored. They were dead, and Volke was so desperate to be away, to curl tight in his shadows and exist for as long as he could beyond another’s reach.