hellooo this are some questions i would love to ask you (they are all music related cause i love talking about music)
What's your favorite song of all time?
If you were to get lyrics tattooed on you, which would they be?
Who are your top 3 favorite bands/artists?
What is a song you are obsessed with at the moment?
What is your least favorite BB song? >hahhaha i am evil and i want to see what you pick
Thats all for now :))))
Hiiiii thank youuuuu for asking this stuff to meeeee and taking the time to look for and think about these questions and stuff I appreciate it soooo muchhhh :D
a) Gosh you came in swinging what the heckkkk TToTT. I’ll say “Seven” by Taylor Swift, I always feel so nice listening to that song, no matter what my mood is :)) And me and my bestie have proclaimed it our “friendship song” that expresses our love for each other. I could explain what this song means to me for days, but long story short, it’s about innocence, self-reflection and childhood friendships, and it just hits us hard and comforts us (we’ve been through a LOT these past few years and have always had each other in our support system). So like yeh, this song is everything to me and softens my soul and heart :”)) "August" by T Swizzle was a close second
b) Oh GOSH these are all so harddddd TT-TT. I stared at my screen for like 5 minutes just THINKING about what I'd like to have tattooed T-T. I'll go for "Love you to the moon and to Saturn", from the song above (and my bestie will get "The love lasts so long" tattooed, yes I asked her, yes we're as close as GDYB cuz we're pulling their antics (Ji's 'Forever Young' tattoo and YB's cross being in the same place to symbolise them). And we'd write it in each other's handwriting. Okay I'll stop. OMG I just realised y'all probably don't know this! They got it tattooed together on the same day and Ji even said he was gonna get "Forever Youngbae" tattooed. Yes GDYB used to be a super popular ship back in the day. Yes I trolled you with that one, it was revenge for making you disclose my least fav BB song, I in fact waited for your like and then edited this in. Happy anniversary to the FOUR seconds of your life in which you thought that was real.).
c) Top 3 favourites!! Oh gosh I regret asking you to give me questions these are impossible /lh /joke I aprecciate ya so much. Welllll ummm.. I'll go for BB (ofc), Taylor Swift and Kendrick Lamar, they're GOATED.
d) Obsessed with "It's Not Living (If It's Not With You)", it's such an experience lmao.
e) Ahhhhh nooooo you're gonna get me cancelleddddd. No like really you're gonna get me cancelled. Like I'm scared. Genuinely y'all plz don't block me I'm sorry. I really am sorry I love y'all but I'm sorry. There go ANY possible likes I could've gotten for writing this post. But it just SHOWS how much I love BB's music imho cuz I wouldn't skip it if it came up in my playlist unless I'm in a MOOD, it's literally my only skip. Okay here goes... (I even relistened to make sure that I'm certain.. I ESPECIALLY don't like the live version, can't get past the intro, like please keep the live version away from me.. another confession, in my DECADE of being a BB fan I haven't watched the mv more than once.. like not even kidding I watched it ONCE)..
No I don't dare it I'm sorry it's such a popular song I'm goNNA be MURDERED in my sleep if I disclose this TTOTT
The new joetrick pic is making me insane but also i just wanna talk about joe because i didn't even knew he wears glasses, but he looks sooooo fucking cute (yeah I know he looks blurry as hell lmao but still)
NO FRRRRR im so intrigued because joe got lasik in 2016 (or some other type of corrective eye surgery idk insta post where he talked about it), and before that you’d see him in glasses occasionally but only occasionally…and so im like. are these for seeing??? or is he just in his fashionista era (which may be the case with his lil loafers…) like i want to see these glasses in better quality cuz even when he DID wear glasses it seemed like they didn’t look like this…
(tumblr cropping is weird it won’t let me crop any further than this without freaking out on the formatting LMAOOOO)
part of me wonders if it’s like. his lasik has reversed itself (which sometimes happens), or like if the glasses are related to whatever he had his eye bandaged up for last month in the pics from gordon…idk JOE IN OLD MAN GLASSES SAVE ME REGARDLESS……and you’re so right blurry or not he looks SOOOOO CUTEEEEE
💬 0 🔁 0 ❤️ 10 · Jiyong: Ah oppa, the rain that’s falling right now goes sooo well with youuu.🥲
But see, this isn’t Oppa, it’s Obha. Cuz O
f) Hickeys (nobody is surprised there)
g) Nipples (I'm sure you remember the infamous clip of Tabi pinching Ji's nipples)
💬 2 🔁 247 ❤️ 614 · when Jiyong finally managed to ace the milk bottle drinking battle
credit: dabuuunk
^I can't relisten the audio rn but I think they were talking about nipples?
((There’s like more evidence of allllll of this but y’all don’t know how busy I am rn TOT so feel free to send anythinggggg you wanna add :D) and I'll edit this as well when I got more time)
Atp they probably have some sorta exhibitionism as well
ooouuh do u have any specific tswift lyrics that remind u of gtop?
TOO MANY (to reduce the damage, Imma focus on romantic lyrics; otherwise, we'd be here all day). Just promise y'all will make more creative things for GTOP cuz this is the biggest GTOP x romantic lyrics moodboard in the history of "romantic quotes based around GTOP moodboards" I've seen (loooook at all the tropes, the break-ups, the drama, the loveeeee). Here's a TL;DR version cuz I got carried away to say the least: (Btw there are a buncha pictures (cuz Rachel refuses to read my long posts if there are no visuals) and I used this Tumblr for all of it: /reputayswift/).
𝕯𝖗𝖊𝖘𝖘
Made your mark on me, a golden tattoo
(...)
Say my name and everything just stops
I don't want you like a best friend
(...)
Carve your name into my bedpost
(...)
Only bought this dress so you could take it off
(...)
I'm spilling wine in the bathtub
You kiss my face and we're both drunk
Everyone thinks that they know us
But they know nothing about
…𝕽𝖊𝖆𝖉𝖞 𝕱𝖔𝖗 𝕴𝖙?
But if he's a ghost, then I can be a phantom
Holdin' him for ransom, some
Some boys are tryin' too hard, he don't try at all though
(...)
I, I, I see how this is gon' go
Touch me and you'll never be alone
Island breeze and lights down low
No one has to know
𝕰𝖓𝖉𝖌𝖆𝖒𝖊
Big reputation, big reputation
Ooh, you and me, we'd be a big conversation, ah
And I heard about you, ooh (yeah)
You like the bad ones too
(...)
I hit you like, "Bang"
We tried to forget it, but we just couldn't
And I bury hatchets but I keep maps of where I put 'em
Reputation precedes me, they told you I'm crazy
I swear I don't love the drama, it loves me
And I can't let you go, your handprint's on my soul
It's like your eyes are liquor, it's like your body is gold
You've been calling my bluff on all my usual tricks
So here's the truth from my red lips
𝕯𝖔𝖓'𝖙 𝖇𝖑𝖆𝖒𝖊 𝖒𝖊
Don't blame me
Love made me crazy
If it doesn't, you ain't doing it right
(...)
And, baby, for you
I would fall from grace
Just to touch your face
If you walk away
I'd beg you on my knees to stay
(...)
I once was poison ivy
But now I'm your daisy
𝕾𝖔 𝕴𝖙 𝕲𝖔𝖊𝖘…
Gold cage, hostage to my feelings
Back against the wall
Trippin', trip, trippin' when you're gone
(...)
'Cause we break down a little
But when you get me alone, it's so simple
'Cause baby, I know what you know
We can feel it
(...)
And all the pieces fall
Right into place
Getting caught up in a moment
Lipstick on your face
So it goes
I'm yours to keep
And I'm yours to lose
𝕲𝖔𝖗𝖌𝖊𝖔𝖚𝖘
You should think about the consequence
Of your magnetic field being a little too strong
(...)
Whisky on ice, Sunset and Vine
You've ruined my life by not being mine
(...)
You should take it as a compliment
That I'm talking to everyone here but you (but you, but you)
(...)
There's nothing I hate more than what I can't have and
Guess I'll just stumble on home to my cats, alone
Unless, you wanna come along?
𝕶𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝕺𝖋 𝕸𝖞 𝕳𝖊𝖆𝖗𝖙
And all at once, you are all I want, I'll never let you go
King of my heart, body and soul, ooh whoa
(...)
Late in the night, the city's asleep
Your love is a secret I'm hoping, dreaming, dying to keep
Change my priorities
The taste of your lips is my idea of luxury
(...)
Is this the end of all the endings?
My broken bones are mending
With all these nights we're spending
Up on the roof with a school girl crush
𝕯𝖆𝖓𝖈𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖂𝖎𝖙𝖍 𝕺𝖚𝖗 𝕳𝖆𝖓𝖉𝖘 𝕿𝖎𝖊𝖉
I, I loved you in secret
First sight, yeah, we love without reason
Oh, 25 years old
Oh, how were you to know and
(...)
I could've spent forever with your hands in my pockets
Picture of your face in an invisible locket
You said there was nothing in the world that could stop it
I had a bad feeling
(...)
I'd kiss you as the lights went out
Swaying as the room burned down
I'd hold you as the water rushes in
If I could dance with you again
(...)
Dancing with our hands tied, hands tied
Oh, yeah, we were dancing
Like it was the first time, first time
𝕮𝖆𝖑𝖑 𝕴𝖙 𝖂𝖍𝖆𝖙 𝖄𝖔𝖚 𝖂𝖆𝖓𝖙
Windows boarded up after the storm
He built a fire just to keep me warm
All the drama queens taking swings
All the jokers dressing up as kings
They fade to nothing when I look at him
(...)
I'm laughing with my lover
Making forts under covers
Trust him like a brother
Yeah, you know I did one thing right
Starry eyes sparking up my darkest night
(...)
My baby's fit like a daydream
Walking with his head down
I'm the one he's walking to
So call it what you want to
𝕹𝖊𝖜 𝖄𝖊𝖆𝖗’𝖘 𝕯𝖆𝖞
I'll be there if you're the toast of the town, babe
Or if you strike out and you're crawling home
(...)
Please don't ever become a stranger
(Hold on to the memories, they will hold on to you)
Whose laugh I could recognize anywhere
(I will hold on to you)
𝘚𝘛𝘠𝘓𝘌
I should just tell you to leave 'cause I
Know exactly where it leads but I
Watch us go 'round and 'round each time
(...)
You got that James Dean daydream look in your eye
And I got that red lip classic thing that you like
And when we go crashing down, we come back every time
'Cause we never go out of style
We never go out of style
(...)
Just take me home
𝘉𝘓𝘈𝘕𝘒 𝘚𝘗𝘈𝘊𝘌
I could show you incredible things
Magic, madness, heaven, sin
(...)
'Cause we're young and we're reckless
We'll take this way too far
It'll leave you breathless, hmm
Or with a nasty scar
(...)
I get drunk on jealousy
But you'll come back each time you leave
'Cause, darling, I'm a nightmare dressed like a daydream
(...)
Boys only want love if it's torture
Don't say I didn't, say I didn't warn ya
𝘖𝘜𝘛 𝘖𝘍 𝘛𝘏𝘌 𝘞𝘖𝘖𝘋𝘚
I remember
You took a Polaroid of us
Then discovered
The rest of the world was black and white
But we were in screaming colour
(...)
Ooh, your necklace hanging from my neck
The night we couldn't quite forget
When we decided
To move the furniture so we could dance
Baby, like we stood a chance
Two paper airplanes flying, flying, flying
(...)
When you started cryin', baby, I did, too
But when the sun came up, I was lookin' at you
Remember when we couldn't take the heat
I walked out and said, "I'm settin' you free,"
But the monsters turned out to be just trees
When the sun came up, you were lookin' at me
𝘈𝘭𝘭 𝘠𝘰𝘶 𝘏𝘢𝘥 𝘛𝘰 𝘋𝘰 𝘞𝘢𝘴 𝘚𝘵𝘢𝘺
People like you always want back
The love they gave away
And people like me wanna believe you
When you say you've changed
The more I think about it now
The less I know
(...)
Here you are now, calling me up, but I don't know what to say
I've been picking up the pieces of the mess you made
People like you always want back the love they pushed aside
(...)
Hey, all you had to do was stay
Had me in the palm of your hand
Then why'd you have to go and lock me out when I let you in?
𝘐 𝘞𝘪𝘴𝘩 𝘠𝘰𝘶 𝘞𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥
You say it's in the past, you drive straight ahead
You're thinking that I hate you now
'Cause you still don't know what I never said
(...)
I wish you would come back
Wish I never hung up the phone like I did
I wish you knew that I'd never forget you as long as I live
And I wish you were right here, right now, it's all good
(...)
And remember what we were fighting for
And I wish you knew that I miss you too much to be mad anymore
(...)
You always knew how to push my buttons
You give me everything and nothing
This mad mad love makes you come running
To stand back where you stood
(...)
See your face, hear my voice in the dark
We're a crooked love in a straight line down
Makes you wanna run and hide
But it made us turn right back around
𝘞𝘪𝘭𝘥𝘦𝘴𝘵 𝘋𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘮𝘴
He said, "Let's get out of this town
Drive out of this city, away from the crowds"
I thought, "Heaven can't help me now"
Nothing lasts forever
But this is gonna take me down
(...)
He's so tall and handsome as hell
He's so bad, but he does it so well
(...)
Say you'll remember me
Standin' in a nice dress
Starin' at the sunset, babe
Red lips and rosy cheeks
Say you'll see me again
Even if it's just in your
Wildest dreams
(...)
Say you'll see me again
Even if it's just pretend
(...)
I said, "No one has to know what we do"
His hands are in my hair, his clothes are in my room
And his voice is a familiar sound
Nothin' lasts forever
But this is gettin' good now
(...)
You'll see me in hindsight
Tangled up with you all night
Burnin' it down
Someday, when you leave me
I bet these memories
Follow you around
𝘛𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘓𝘰𝘷𝘦
And I could go on and on, on and on and I will
Skies grew darker
Currents swept you out again
And you were just gone and gone, gone and gone
(...)
Tossing, turning
Struggled through the night with someone new
And I could go on and on, on and on
Lantern, burning
Flickered in my mind, only you
But you were still gone, gone, gone
(...)
Your kiss, my cheek
I watched you leave
Your smile, my ghost
I fell to my knees
When you're young, you just run
But you come back to what you need
(...)
This love left a permanent mark
This love is glowing in the dark,
These hands had to let it go free, and
This love came back to me
𝘐 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘤𝘦𝘴
I can hear them whisper as we pass by
It's a bad sign, bad sign
(...)
See the vultures circling dark clouds
Love's a fragile little flame, it could burn out
(...)
'Cause they got the cages, they got the boxes
And guns
They are the hunters, we are the foxes
And we run
(...)
Baby, I know places we won't be found
And they'll be chasing their tails tryin' to track us down
'Cause I, I know places we can hide
I know places, I know places
(...)
Lights flash and we'll run for the fences
Let them say what they want, we won't hear it
Loose lips sink ships all the damn time
Not this time
(...)
Just grab my hand and don't ever drop it
My love
(...)
They take their shots, but we're bulletproof
I know places
And you know for me, it's always you
I know places
𝘚𝘓𝘜𝘛!
Flamingo pink, Sunrise Boulevard
Clink, clink, being this young is art
Aquamarine, moonlit swimmin' pool
What if all I need is you?
(...)
Adorned with smoke on my clothes
Lovelorn and nobody knows
Love thorns all over this rose
I'll pay the price, you won't
(...)
But if I'm all dressed up
They might as well be lookin' at us
And if they call me a slut
You know it might be worth it for once
And if I'm gonna be drunk
I might as well be drunk in love
(...)
It's a big mistake, I said, "It might blow up in your pretty face"
I'm not saying, "Do it anyway"
But you're going to
(the entire song tbh).
𝘠𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘪𝘯 𝘓𝘰𝘷𝘦
The light reflects
The chain on your neck
(...)
Morning, his place
Burnt toast, Sunday
You keep his shirt
He keeps his word
And for once you let go
Of your fears and your ghosts
(...)
One night he wakes
Strange look on his face
Pauses, then says
"You're my best friend."
And you knew what it was
He is in love
𝘚𝘢𝘺 𝘋𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘎𝘰
I'm standing on a tightrope, alone
I hold my breath a little bit longer
Halfway out the door, but it won't close
I'm holding out hope for you to say, "Don't go"
I would stay forever if you say, "Don't go"
(...)
'Cause you kiss me and it stops time
And I'm yours, but you're not mine
(...)
I'm standing on the sidewalk, alone
I wait for you to drive by
I was trying to see the cards that you won't show
I'm about to fold unless you say, "Don't go"
I would stay forever if you say, "Don't go"
(...)
Why'd you have to make me want you?
Why'd you have to give me nothing back?
Why'd you have to make me love you?
I said, "I love you," you say nothing back
((Time for the BEHEMOTHS, TTPD and Folklore are my FAV))
𝒂𝒖𝒈𝒖𝒔𝒕
And I can see us twisted in bedsheets
August sipped away
Like a bottle of wine
'Cause you were never mine
(...)
Your back
Beneath the sun
Wishing I could write my name on it
(...)
Back when we were still changing for the better
Wanting was enough
For me, it was enough
To live for the hope of it all
𝒕𝒉𝒆 1
I guess you never know, never know
And if you wanted me, you really should've showed
And if you never bleed, you're never gonna grow
(...)
But we were something, don't you think so?
Roaring twenties, tossing pennies in the pool
And if my wishes came true
It would've been you
(...)
We never painted by the numbers, baby
But we were making it count
(...)
I persist and resist the temptation to ask you
If one thing had been different
Would everything be different today?
(...)
We were something, don't you think so?
Rosé flowing with your chosen family
And it would've been sweet
If it could've been me
𝒄𝒂𝒓𝒅𝒊𝒈𝒂𝒏
Vintage tee, brand new phone
High heels on cobblestones
When you are young, they assume you know nothing
(...)
But I knew you
Dancing in your Levi's
Drunk under a streetlight
(...)
And when I felt like I was an old cardigan under someone's bed
You put me on and said I was your favorite
(...)
You drew stars around my scars
But now I'm bleeding
(...)
Stepping on the last train
Marked me like a bloodstain
(...)
But I knew you'd linger like a tattoo kiss
I knew you'd haunt all of my what-ifs
The smell of smoke would hang around this long
'Cause I knew everything when I was young
𝒆𝒙𝒊𝒍𝒆
I think I've seen this film before
And I didn't like the ending
You're not my homeland anymore
So what am I defendin' now?
(...)
I can see you starin', honey
Like he's just your understudy
Like you'd get your knuckles bloody for me
Second, third, and hundredth chances
Balancin' on breaking branches
Those eyes add insult to injury
(...)
I'm not your problem anymore
So who am I offending now?
You were my crown
Now I'm in exile seein' you out
(...)
So step right out
There is no amount
Of cryin' I can do for you
𝒎𝒚 𝒕𝒆𝒂𝒓𝒔 𝒓𝒊𝒄𝒐𝒄𝒉𝒆𝒕
I didn't have it in myself to go with grace
And you're the hero flying around saving face
And if I'm dead to you why are you at the wake?
Cursing my name
Wishing I stayed
Look at how my tears ricochet
(...)
And I can go anywhere I want
Anywhere I want
Just not home
(...)
And you can aim for my heart, go for blood
But you would still miss me in your bones
(...)
And I still talk to you
When I'm screaming at the sky
And when you can't sleep at night
You hear my stolen lullabies
𝒎𝒊𝒓𝒓𝒐𝒓𝒃𝒂𝒍𝒍
When no one is around, my dear
You'll find me on my tallest tiptoes
Spinning in my highest heels, love
Shining just for you
(...)
You are not like the regulars
The masquerade revelers
Drunk as they watch my shattered edges glisten
(...)
I'm still a believer but I don't know why
I've never been a natural
All I do is try, try, try
I'm still on that trapeze
I'm still trying everything
To keep you looking at me
𝒊𝒍𝒍𝒊𝒄𝒊𝒕 𝒂𝒇𝒇𝒂𝒊𝒓𝒔
Make sure nobody sees you leave
Hood over your head keep your eyes down
(…)
Leave the perfume on the shelf
That you picked out just for him
So you leave no trace behind
Like you don't even exist
(…)
And that's the thing about illicit affairs
And clandestine meetings
And stolen stares
They show their truth one single time
But they lie and they lie and they lie
a million little times
(...)
Look at this godforsaken mess that you made me
You showed me colors you know I can't see with anyone else
(...)
Look at this idiotic fool that you made me
You taught me a secret language I can't speak with anyone else
(...)
And you know damn well
For you I would ruin myself
a million little times
𝒊𝒏𝒗𝒊𝒔𝒊𝒃𝒍𝒆 𝒔𝒕𝒓𝒊𝒏𝒈𝒔
Out of all the wrong arms right into that dive bar
Something wrapped all of my past mistakes in barbed wire
Chains around my demons
Wool to brave the seasons
One single thread of gold tied me to you
(...)
Gold was the color of the leaves when I showed you around Centennial Park
Hell was the journey but it brought me heaven
(...)
Time
Wondrous time
Gave me the blues and then purple-pink skies
And it's cool
Baby with me
(...)
And isn't it just so pretty to think
All along there was some
Invisible string
Tying you to me?
𝒃𝒆𝒕𝒕𝒚
Betty, I won't make assumptions about why you switched your homeroom
But I think it's 'cause of me
Betty, one time I was riding on my skateboard when I passed your house
It's like I couldn't breathe
(...)
Betty, I know where it all went wrong
Your favorite song was playing from the far side of the gym
I was nowhere to be found, I hate the crowds, you know that
Plus, I saw you dance with him
(...)
Betty, I'm here on your doorstep
And I planned it out for weeks now but, it's finally sinking in
Betty, right now is the last time
I can dream about what happens when you see my face again
The only thing I wanna do
Is make it up to you
𝒑𝒆𝒂𝒄𝒆
Our coming-of-age has come and gone
Suddenly this summer it's clear
I never had the courage of my convictions
As long as danger is near
And it's just around the corner, darlin'
'Cause it lives in me
No, I could never give you peace
(...)
All these people think love's for show
But I would die for you in secret
The devil's in the details
But you got a friend in me
(...)
Your integrity makes me seem small
You paint dreamscapes on the wall
I talk shit with my friends
It's like I'm wastin' your honour
(...)
And you know that I'd
Swing with you for the fences
Sit with you in the trenches
Give you my wild, give you a child
Give you the silence that only comes when two people understand each other
Family that I chose now that I see your brother as my brother
𝒉𝒐𝒂𝒙
Stood on the cliffside
Screaming, "Give me a reason"
Your faithless love's the only hoax
I believe in
Don't want no other shade of blue
But you
No other sadness in the world would do
(...)
You knew it still hurts underneath my scars
From when they pulled me apart
But what you did was just as dark
Darling, this was just as hard
As when they pulled me apart
(...)
My only one
My kingdom come undone
My broken drum
You have beaten my heart
𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒍𝒂𝒌𝒆𝒔
I want auroras and sad prose
I want to watch wisteria grow right over my bare feet
'Cause I haven't moved in years
And I want you right here
A red rose grew up out of ice frozen ground
With no one around to tweet it
While I bathe in cliffside pools
With my calamitous love and insurmountable grief
(...)
Take me to the Lakes where all the poets went to die
I don't belong and, my beloved, neither do you
Those Windermere peaks look like a perfect place to cry
I'm setting off, but not without my muse
No, not without you
𝐅𝐎𝐑𝐓𝐍𝚰𝐆𝐇𝐓
I was supposed to be sent away, but they forgot to come and get me
I was a functioning alcoholic till nobody noticed my new aesthetic
All of this to say, I hope you're okay, but you're the reason
And no one here's to blame, but what about your quiet treason?
(...)
And for a fortnight there, we were together
Run into you sometimes, comment on my sweater
Now you're at the mailbox, turned into good neighbours
My husband is cheating
I wanna kill him
(...)
I love you, it's ruining my life
I touched you for only a fortnight
(...)
Thought of calling ya, but you won't pick up
Another fortnight lost in America
Move to Florida, buy the car you want
But it won't start up till I touch, touch, touch you
𝐃𝐎𝐖𝐍 𝐁𝐀𝐃
Tell me I was the chosen one
Show me that this world is bigger than us
Then sent me back where I came from
For a moment, I knew cosmic love
(...)
Now I'm down bad, crying at the gym
Everything comes out teenage petulance
"Fuck it if I can't have him"
"I might just die, it would make no difference"
(...)
Down bad, waking up in blood
Staring at the sky, come back and pick me up
Fuck it if I can't have us
I might just not get up
I might stay down bad
(...)
Did you take all my old clothes?
Just to leave me here naked and alone
In a field in my same old town
That somehow seems so hollow now
They'll say I'm nuts if I talk about the existence of you
(...)
Like I lost my twin
Fuck it if I can't have him (Down bad)
Down bad
Waving at the ship
(...)
How dare you say that it's-
I'll build you a fort on some planet
Where they can all understand it
How dare you think it's romantic
Leaving me safe and stranded
'Cause fuck it, I was in love
So fuck you if I can't have us
𝐆𝐔𝚰𝐋𝐓𝐘 𝐀𝐒 𝐒𝚰𝐍
My boredom's bone deep
This cage was once just fine
Am I allowed to cry?
(...)
Crashing into him tonight
He's a paradox
I'm seeing visions, am I bad?
Or mad? Or wise?
(...)
What if he's written 'mine' on my upper thigh
Only in my mind?
(...)
Messy top lip kiss
How I long for our trysts
Without ever touching his skin
How can I be guilty as sin?
(...)
I keep these longings locked
In lowercase inside a vault
(...)
These fatal fantasies
Giving way to laboured breath
Taking all of me
We've already done it in my head
If it's make-believe
Why does it feel like a vow
We'll both uphold somehow?
(...)
What if I roll the stone away?
They're gonna crucify me anyway
What if the way you hold me
Is actually what's holy?
If long-suffering propriety
Is what they want from me
They don't know how you've haunted me
So stunningly
I choose you and me
Religiously
𝐌𝐲 𝐁𝐨𝐲 𝐎𝐧𝐥𝐲 𝐁𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐤𝐬 𝐇𝐢𝐬 𝐅𝐚𝐯𝐨𝐮𝐫𝐢𝐭𝐞 𝐓𝐨𝐲𝐬
Oh, here we go again.
The voices in his head
Called the rain to end our days of wild
(...)
The sickest army doll
Purchased at the mall
Rivulets descend my plastic smile
(...)
My boy only breaks his favourite toys
I'm queen of sand castles he destroys
'Cause I knew too much
There was danger in the heat of my touch
He saw forever so he smashed it up
Oh, my boy only breaks his favourite toys
(...)
Just say when, I'd play again
He was my best friend
Down at the sandlot
(...)
I felt more when we played pretend
Than with all the Kens
'Cause he took me out of my box
Stole my tortured heart
(...)
Left all these broken parts
Told me I'm better off
But I'm not
𝐁𝐮𝐭 𝐃𝐚𝐝𝐝𝐲 𝐈 𝐋𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐇𝐢𝐦
I forget how the West was won
I forget if this was ever fun
I just learned these people only raise you to cage you
(...)
Too high a horse
For a simple girl to rise above it
They slammed the door on my whole world
The one thing I wanted
(...)
I'm telling him to floor it through the fences
No, I'm not coming to my senses
I know he's crazy but he's the one I want
(...)
Growing up precocious sometimes means not growing up at all
He was chaos, he was revelry
Bedroom eyes like a remedy
(...)
Lord knows the words we never heard
Just screeching tires and true love
(...)
I'll tell you something right now
I'd rather burn my whole life down
Than listen to one more second of all this bitching and moaning
(...)
I'll tell you something about my good name
It's mine alone to disgrace
I don't cater to all these vipers dressed in empath's clothing
(...)
Scandal does funny things to pride
But brings lovers closer
We came back when the heat died down
(...)
Now I'm dancing in my dress in the sun, and
Even my daddy just loves him
I'm his lady
And oh my God, you should see your faces
(...)
Time, doesn't it give some perspective?
And no, you can't come to the wedding
I know he's crazy, but he's the one I want
(...)
I'll tell you something right now, you ain't gotta pray for me
Me and my wild boy and all of this wild joy
If all you want is gray for me
Then it's just white noise, and it's my choice
𝐅𝐫𝐞𝐬𝐡 𝐎𝐮𝐭 𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐒𝐥𝐚𝐦𝐦𝐞𝐫
Now, pretty baby, I'm runnin' back home to you
Fresh out the slammer, I know who my first call will be to
(...)
Handcuffed to the spell I was under
For just one hour of sunshine
(...)
Years of labor, locks and ceilings
In the shade of how he was feelin'
But it's gonna be alright, I did my time
(...)
Camera flashes, welcome bashes
Get the matches, toss the ashes off the ledge
(...)
As I said in my letters, now that I know better
I will never lose my baby again
(...)
My friends tried but I wouldn't hear it
Watched me daily disappearing
For just one glimpse of his smile
All those nights you kept me going
Swirled you into all of my poems
Now we're at the starting line, I did my time
(...)
To the house where you still wait up and that porch light gleams
To the one who says I'm the girl of his American Dreams
And no matter what I've done, it wouldn't matter anyway
Ain't no way I'm gonna screw up, now that I know what's at stake
Here
(...)
At the park where we used to sit on children's swings
Wearing imaginary rings
𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐀𝐥𝐜𝐡𝐞𝐦𝐲
This happens once every few lifetimes
These chemicals hit me like white wine
What if I told you I'm back?
(...)
I circled you on a map
I haven't come around in so long
But I'm coming back so strong
(...)
'Cause the sign on your heart said it's still reserved for me
Honestly, who are we to fight the alchemy?
(...)
There was no chance, tryna be the greatest in the league
Where's the trophy?
He just comes running over to me
𝐢𝐦𝐠𝐨𝐧𝐧𝐚𝐠𝐞𝐭𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐛𝐚𝐜𝐤
And I'll tell you one thing, honey
I can tell when somebody still wants me, come clean
Standing at the bar like something's funny, bubbly
Once you fix your face, I'm goin' in
(...)
Whether I'm gonna flip you off or
Pull you into the closet
I haven't decided yet
But I'm gonna get you back
(...)
I hear the whispers in your eyes
I'll make you wanna think twice, you'll find
That you were never not mine
You're mine
(...)
I can feel it comin', hummin' in the way you move
Push the reset button, we're becoming something new
(...)
Even if it's handcuffed, I'm leaving here with you
(...)
We broke all the pieces but still want to play the game
Told my friends, "I hate you" but I love you just the same
Pick your poison, babe
I'm poison either way
𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐁𝐥𝐚𝐜𝐤 𝐃𝐨𝐠
I move through the world with the heartbroken
My longings stay unspoken
And I may never open up the way I did for you
(...)
And all of those best-laid plans
You said I needed a brave man
Then proceeded to play him
Until I believed it too
(...)
And it kills me
I just don't understand
How you don't miss me
In the shower
And remember
How my rain-soaked body was shaking
Do you hate me?
(...)
Six weeks of breathing clean air
I still miss the smoke
Were you making fun of me with some esoteric joke?
Now I want to sell my house and set fire to all my clothes
And hire a priest to come and exorcise my demons
Even if I die screaming
And I hope you hear it
(...)
That was intertwined in the tragic fabric of our dreaming
'Cause tail between your legs you're leaving
And I still can't believe it
'Cause old habits die screaming
𝐂𝐡𝐥𝐨𝐞 𝐨𝐫 𝐒𝐚𝐦 𝐨𝐫 𝐒𝐨𝐩𝐡𝐢𝐚 𝐨𝐫 𝐌𝐚𝐫𝐜𝐮𝐬
As the decade would play us for fools
And you saw my bones out with somebody new
Who seemed like he would've bullied you in school
And you just watched it happen
(...)
If the glint in my eye traced the depths of your sigh
Down that passage in time
Back to the moment I crashed into you
Like so many wrecks do
Too impaired by my youth
To know what to do
(...)
Could it be enough to just float in your orbit?
Can we watch our phantoms like watching wild horses?
Cooler in theory, but not if you force it
To be, it just didn't happen
(...)
So if you want to break my cold, cold heart
Say you loved me
And if you want to tear my world apart
Say you'll always wonder
As the decade would play us for fools
And you saw my bones out with somebody new
Who seemed like he would've bullied you in school
And you just watched it happen
(...)
If the glint in my eye traced the depths of your sigh
Down that passage in time
Back to the moment I crashed into you
Like so many wrecks do
Too impaired by my youth
To know what to do
(...)
Could it be enough to just float in your orbit?
Can we watch our phantoms like watching wild horses?
Cooler in theory, but not if you force it
To be, it just didn't happen
(...)
So if you want to break my cold, cold heart
Say you loved me
And if you want to tear my world apart
Say you'll always wonder
𝐇𝐨𝐰 𝐃𝐢𝐝 𝐈𝐭 𝐄𝐧𝐝?
He was a hothouse flower to my outdoorsman
Our maladies were such we could not cure them
And so a touch that was my birthright became foreign
(...)
Soon they'll go home to their husbands
Smug 'cause they know they can trust him
Then feverishly calling their cousins
"Guess who we ran into at the shops
Walking in circles like she was lost"
"Didn't you hear they called it all off"
One gasp, and then
"How did it end?"
(...)
The deflation of our dreaming
Leaving me bereft and reeling
My beloved ghost and me
Sitting in a tree
D-Y-I-N-G
(...)
We'll tell no one except all of our friends
But I still don't know
How did it end?
𝐒𝐨 𝐇𝐢𝐠𝐡 𝐒𝐜𝐡𝐨𝐨𝐥
I feel so high school
Every time I look at you
(...)
Tell me 'bout the first time you saw me
I'll drink what you think and I'm high
From smokin' your jokes all damn night
The brink of a wrinkle in time
Bittersweet sixteen suddenly
(...)
I'm watchin' American Pie with you on a Saturday night
Your friends are around, so be quiet
I'm tryin' to stifle my sighs
(...)
Are you gonna marry, kiss, or kill me?
It's just a game, but really
I'm bettin' on all three for us two
Get my car door, isn't that sweet
Then pull me to the backseat
No one's ever had me, not like you
(...)
I feel like laughin'
In the middle of practice
Do that impression you did of your dad again
I'm hearin' voices, like a madman
𝐈 𝐋𝐨𝐨𝐤 𝐢𝐧 𝐏𝐞𝐨𝐩𝐥𝐞’𝐬 𝐖𝐢𝐧𝐝𝐨𝐰𝐬
Northbound I got carried away
As you boarded your train
South, south, south, south, south, south
A feather taken by the wind blowing
I'm afflicted by the not knowing
(...)
I look in people's windows
In case you're at their table
What if your eyes looked up and met mine
One more time
(...)
You had stopped and tilted your head
I still ponder what it meant
Now, now, now, now, now, now
I tried searching faces on streets
What are the chances you'd be
Downtown, downtown, downtown
Does it feel alright to not know me?
I'm addicted to the "if only"
𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐏𝐫𝐨𝐩𝐡𝐞𝐜𝐲
And it was written
I got cursed like Eve got bitten
(...)
I guess a lesser woman would've lost hope
A greater woman wouldn't beg
But I looked to the sky and said
Please
I've been on my knees
Change the prophecy
Don't want money
Just someone who wants my company
Let it once be me
(...)
Slow is the quicksand
Poison blood from the wound of the pricked hand
Oh, still I dream of him
(...)
A greater woman stays cool
But I howl like a wolf at the moon
(...)
And I look unstable
Gathered with a coven round a sorceress' table
A greater woman has faith
But even statues crumble if they're made to wait
I'm so afraid I sealed my fate
Cruel Summer
Bad, bad boy, shiny toy with a price
You know that I bought it
(...)
Killing me slow, out the window
I'm always waiting for you to be waiting below
(...)
And it's new, the shape of your body
It's blue, the feeling I've got
(...)
You say that we'll just screw it up in these trying times
We're not trying
(...)
I'm drunk in the back of the car
And I cried like a baby coming home from the bar (oh)
Said, "I'm fine, " but it wasn't true
I don't wanna keep secrets just to keep you
(...)
And I snuck in through the garden gate
Every night that summer, just to seal my fate (oh)
And I screamed, "For whatever it's worth
I love you, ain't that the worst thing you ever heard?"
He looks up, grinnin' like a devil
Lover
This is our place, we make the rules
And there's a dazzling haze, a mysterious way about you, dear
Have I known you 20 seconds or 20 years?
(...)
Can I go where you go?
Can we always be this close forever and ever?
And ah, take me out, and take me home
You're my, my, my, my
Lover
(...)
And I'm highly suspicious that everyone who sees you wants you
(...)
Ladies and gentlemen, will you please stand?
With every guitar string scar on my hand
I take this magnetic force of a man to be my lover
My heart's been borrowed and yours has been blue
All's well that ends well to end up with you
Swear to be overdramatic and true to my lover
I think he knows
His hands around a cold glass
Make me wanna know that
Body like it's mine
(...)
He got that boyish look that I like in a man
I am an architect, I'm drawing up the plans
It's like I'm 17, nobody understands
No one understands
(...)
He got my heartbeat
Skipping down 16th Avenue
Got that, oh, I mean
Wanna see what's under that attitude like
I want you, bless my soul
And I ain't gotta tell him, I think he knows
I think he knows
(...)
Lyrical smile, indigo eyes, hand on my thigh
We can follow the sparks, I'll drive
Paper Rings
I like shiny things, but I'd marry you with paper rings
Uh huh, that's right
Darling, you're the one I want, and
I hate accidents except when we went from friends to this
Uh huh, that's right
Darling, you're the one I want
In paper rings, in picture frames, in dirty dreams
Oh, you're the one I want
(...)
In the winter, in the icy outdoor pool
When you jumped in first, I went in too
I'm with you even if it makes me blue
(...)
Kiss you once 'cause I know you had a long night
(Oh) Kiss you twice 'cause it's gonna be alright
Three times 'cause you waited your whole life
(...)
I want to drive away with you
I want your complications too
I want your dreary Mondays
Wrap your arms around me, baby boy
Cornelia Street
I hope I never lose you, hope it never ends
I'd never walk Cornelia Street again
That's the kinda heartbreak time could never mend
I'd never walk Cornelia Street again
And baby, I get mystified by how this city screams your name
And baby, I'm so terrified of if you ever walk away
I'd never walk Cornelia Street again
(...)
Windows flung right open, autumn air
Jacket 'round my shoulders is yours
We bless the rains on Cornelia Street
(...)
You hold my hand on the street
Walk me back to that apartment
Years ago, we were just inside
Barefoot in the kitchen
Sacred new beginnings
That became my religion
Death by a Thousand Cuts
Saying goodbye is death by a thousand cuts
Flashbacks waking me up
I get drunk, but it's not enough
'Cause the morning comes and you're not my baby
(…)
I look through the windows of this love
Even though we boarded them up
Chandelier's still flickering here
'Cause I can't pretend it's ok when it's not
It's death by a thousand cuts
(…)
I ask the traffic lights if it'll be all right
They say, "I don't know"
And what once was ours is no one's now
I see you everywhere
The only thing we share
Is this small town
(…)
You said it was a great love
One for the ages
But if the story's over
Why am I still writing pages?
(…)
My heart, my hips, my body, my love
Trying to find a part of me that you didn't touch
Gave up on me like I was a bad drug
Now I'm searching for signs in a haunted club
(…)
Our songs, our films, united we stand
Our country, guess it was a lawless land
Quiet my fears with the touch of your hand
Paper cut stings from our paper thin plans
(…)
My time, my wine, my spirit, my trust
Trying to find a part of me you didn't take up
Gave you too much but it wasn't enough
But I'll be all right, it's just a thousand cuts
False God
We were crazy to think
Crazy to think that this could work
Remember how I said I'd die for you?
(…)
We were stupid to jump
In the ocean separating us
Remember how I'd fly to you?
(…)
They all warned us about times like this
They say the road gets hard and you get lost
When you're led by blind faith, blind faith
(…)
But we might just get away with it
Religion's in your lips
Even if it's a false god
We'd still worship
We might just get away with it
The altar is my hips
Even if it's a false god
We'd still worship this love
Afterglow
Fighting with a true love is boxing with no gloves
Chemistry 'til it blows up, 'til there's no us
Why'd I have to break what I love so much?
(…)
It's all me in my head
I'm the one who burned us down
But it's not what I meant
Sorry that I hurt you
I don't wanna do, I don't wanna do this to you
I don't wanna lose, I don't wanna lose this with you
(…)
I need to say, hey
It's all me, just don't go
Meet me in the afterglow
(…)
It's so excruciating to see you low
Just wanna lift you up and not let you go
This ultraviolet morning light below
Tells me this love is worth the fight
(…)
I lived like an island, punished you with silence
Went off like sirens, just crying
(…)
Tell me that you're still mine
Tell me that we'll be just fine
Even when I lose my mind
I need to say
Tell me that it's not my fault
Tell me that I'm all you want
Even when I break your heart
Daylight
I don't wanna look at anything else now that I saw you
I don't wanna think of anything else now that I thought of you
I've been sleepin' so long in a twenty-year dark night
And now I see daylight, I only see daylight
(…)
Threw out our cloaks and our daggers because it's morning now
It's brighter now, now
(…)
And I can still see it all (in my mind)
All of you, all of me (intertwined)
I once believed love would be (black and white)
But it's golden (golden)
Soon You'll Get Better
(I’m sorry for making this GTOP, but I have to.. TT-TT)
That was the first time we were there
Holy orange bottles, each night I pray to you
Desperate people find faith, so now I pray to Jesus too
And I say to you
Ooh-ah, soon you'll get better
(…)
I just pretend it isn't real
I'll paint the kitchen neon, I'll brighten up the sky
I know I'll never get it, there's not a day that I won't try
And I'll say to you
(…)
Ooh-ah, soon you'll get better
'Cause you have to
(…)
And I hate to make this all about me
But who am I supposed to talk to?
What am I supposed to do
If there's no you?
(…)
This won't go back to normal, if it ever was
It's been years of hoping, and I keep saying it
'Cause I have to
Okay from now on only 'Midnights' is an album I adore so there will be gaps and I'm gonna miss a lot but like lemme.
𝗦𝘁𝗮𝗿𝗹𝗶𝗴𝗵𝘁
It was the best night, never would forget how we moved
The whole place
Was dressed to the nines
And we were dancing, dancing
Like we're made of starlight
(...)
Picked me up late one night out the window
We were seventeen and crazy running wild, wild
Can't remember what song he was playing when we walked in
The night we snuck into a yacht club party
Pretending to be a duchess and a prince
(...)
He said, "Look at you, worrying so much about things you can't change
You'll spend your whole life singing the blues
If you keep thinking that way"
He was tryna to skip rocks on the ocean saying to me
"Don't you see the starlight, starlight
Don't you dream impossible things"
(...)
Ooh, ooh he's talking crazy
Ooh, ooh dancing with me
Ooh, ooh we could get married
Have ten kids and teach 'em how to dream
𝗘𝘃𝗲𝗿𝘆𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗵𝗮𝘀 𝗰𝗵𝗮𝗻𝗴𝗲𝗱
'Cause all I know is we said, "Hello"
And your eyes look like comin' home
All I know is a simple name
Everything has changed
All I know is you held the door
And you'll be mine and I'll be yours
All I know since yesterday
Is everything has changed
(...)
Come back and tell me why
I'm feelin' like I've missed you all this time
And meet me there tonight
And let me know that it's not all in my mind
𝗔𝗹𝗹 𝗧𝗼𝗼 𝗪𝗲𝗹𝗹
I walked through the door with you
The air was cold
But something about it felt like home somehow
(...)
Photo album on the counter
Your cheeks were turning red
You used to be a little kid with glasses in a twin-sized bed
And your mother's telling stories 'bout you on the tee-ball team
You told me 'bout your past thinking your future was me
(...)
'Cause there we are again in the middle of the night
We're dancing 'round the kitchen in the refrigerator light
Down the stairs, I was there
I remember it all too well, yeah
(…)
And there we are again when nobody had to know
You kept me like a secret, but I kept you like an oath
Sacred prayer and we'd swear
To remember it all too well, yeah
(...)
And maybe we got lost in translation
Maybe I asked for too much
But maybe this thing was a masterpiece 'til you tore it all up
Running scared, I was there
I remember it all too well
(...)
And you call me up again just to break me like a promise
So casually cruel in the name of being honest
I'm a crumpled up piece of paper lying here
'Cause I remember it all, all, all
Too well
(...)
Time won't fly, it's like I'm paralyzed by it
I'd like to be my old self again
But I'm still trying to find it
𝗠𝗲𝘀𝘀𝗮𝗴𝗲 𝗜𝗻 𝗔 𝗕𝗼𝘁𝘁𝗹𝗲
But now
You're so far away and I'm down
Feelin' like a face in the crowd
I'm reachin' for you, terrified
(...)
'Cause you could be the one that I love
I could be the one that you dream of
Message in a bottle is all I can do
Standin' here, hopin' it gets to you
You could be the one that I keep, and I
Could be the reason you can't sleep at night
Message in a bottle is all I can do
Standin' here, hopin' it gets to you
(...)
These days I'm restless
Work days are endless
Look how you've made me, made me
But time moves faster
Replaying your laughter
Disaster
(...)
How is it in London?
Where are you while I'm wonderin'
If I'll ever see you again?
𝗥𝗘𝗗
Loving him is like driving a new Maserati down a dead-end street
Faster than the wind, passionate as sin, ending so suddenly
(...)
Losing him was blue, like I'd never known
Missing him was dark gray, all alone
Forgetting him was like trying to know
Somebody you never met
But loving him was red
Loving him was red
(...)
Memorizing him was as easy as knowing all the words
To your old favorite song
(...)
Remembering him comes in flashbacks and echoes
Tell myself it's time now gotta let go
But moving on from him is impossible
When I still see it all in my head
In burning red
Burning, it was red
(...)
And that's why he's spinning 'round in my head
Comes back to me, burning red
𝗙𝗼𝗿𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗿 𝗪𝗶𝗻𝘁𝗲𝗿
He seems fine most of the time
Forcing smiles and never minds
His laugh is a symphony
When the lights go out, it's hard to breathe
I pull at every thread trying to solve the puzzles in his head
Live my life scared to death he'll decide to leave instead
(...)
All this time I didn't know
You were breaking down
I'd fall to pieces on the floor
If you weren't around
Too young to know it gets better
I'll be summer sun for you forever
Forever winter if you go
(...)
If I was standing there in your apartment
I'd take that bomb in your head and disarm it
I'd say I love you even at your darkest and
Please don't go
(...)
I'll be your summer sun forever
At 3 A.M., pacing
All this time I didn't know
At 5 A.M., wasted
I'd be in pieces on the floor
Forever winter if you go
(...)
He says he doesn't believe anything much he hears these days
I say, "Believe in one thing, I won't go away"
𝗥𝘂𝗻
Give me the keys, I'll bring the car back around
We shouldn't be in this town
And my so-called friends, they don't know
I'd drive away before I let you go
So give me a reason and don't say no
(...)
And run, like you'd run from the law
Darling, let's run
Run from it all
We can go where our eyes can take us
Go where no one else is, run
(...)
So you laugh like a child
And I'll sing like no one cares
No one to be, no one to tell
I could see this view a hundred times
Pale blue sky reflected in your eyes
So give me a reason and don't say no
(...)
And the note from the locket, you keep it in your pocket
Since I gave it to you
There's a heart on your sleeve
I'll take it when I leave
And hold it for you
(...)
There's been this hole in my heart
This thing was a shot in the dark
Say you'll never let 'em tear us apart
And I'll hold onto you while we run
𝗧𝗵𝗲 𝗠𝗼𝗺𝗲𝗻𝘁 𝗜 𝗞𝗻𝗲𝘄
You should've been there
Should've burst through the door
With that "Baby, I'm right here" smile
And it would've felt like
A million little shining stars had just aligned
And I would've been so happy
(...)
People ask me how I've been
As I comb back through my memory
How you said you'd be here
You said you'd be here
(...)
And the hours pass by
Now I just wanna be alone
But your close friends always seem to know
When there's something really wrong
So they follow me down the hall
And there in the bathroom
I try not to fall apart
And the sinking feeling starts
As I say hopelessly
"He said he'd be here"
(...)
What do you say, when tears are streaming down your face
In front of everyone you know?
And what do you do when the one who means the most to you
Is the one who didn't show?
(...)
You should've been here
And I would've been so happy
(...)
And it was like slow motion
Standing there in my party dress
In red lipstick
With no one to impress
And they're all standing around me singing
"Happy birthday to you"
But there was one thing missing
And that was the moment I knew
Ooh, I knew
(...)
You called me later
And said, "I'm sorry, I didn't make it"
And I said, "I'm sorry too"
And that was the moment I knew
𝐸𝓃𝒸𝒽𝒶𝓃𝓉𝑒𝒹
This is me praying that
This was the very first page
Not where the storyline ends
My thoughts will echo your name
Until I see you again
These are the words I held back
(...)
Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you
𝑀𝒾𝓃𝑒
Flash forward and we're takin' on the world together
And there's a drawer of my things at your place
You learn my secrets and you figure out why I'm guarded
You say we'll never make my parents' mistakes
(...)
But we got bills to pay
We got nothing figured out
(...)
Do you remember all the city lights on the water?
You saw me start to believe for the first time
You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
You are the best thing that's ever been mine
(...)
As everything was slippin' right out of our hands
I ran out cryin' and you followed me out into the street
Braced myself for the goodbye
'Cause that's all I've ever known
Then you took me by surprise
You said, "I'll never leave you alone"
𝒮𝓅𝒶𝓇𝓀𝓈 𝐹𝓁𝓎
You're the kind of reckless
That should send me running
But I kinda know that I won't get far
(...)
Drop everything now
Meet me in the pouring rain
Kiss me on the sidewalk
Take away the pain
'Cause I see sparks fly whenever you smile
(...)
My mind forgets to remind me
You're a bad idea
You touch me once and it's really something
(...)
I'll run my fingers through your hair and watch the lights go wild
Just keep on keeping your eyes on me, it's just wrong enough to make it feel right
And lead me up the staircase
Won't you whisper soft and slow?
I'm captivated by you, baby, like a firework show
𝐵𝒶𝒸𝓀 𝓉𝑜 𝒟𝑒𝒸𝑒𝓂𝒷𝑒𝓇
I'm so glad you made time to see me
How's life? Tell me how's your family?
I haven't seen them in a while
(...)
Your guard is up and I know why
Because the last time you saw me is still burned in the back of your mind
You gave me roses and I left them there to die
(...)
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
(...)
These days I haven't been sleeping
Staying up, playing back myself leaving
When your birthday passed and I didn't call
(...)
And then the cold came, the dark days when fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love and all I gave you was "Goodbye"
(...)
I miss your tanned skin, your sweet smile
So good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms that September night:
The first time you ever saw me cry
Maybe this is wishful thinking
Probably mindless dreaming
But if we loved again, I swear I'd love you right
(...)
I'd go back in time and change it but I can't
So if the chain is on your door I understand
But this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you, saying, "I'm sorry for that night."
And I go back to December all the time
𝒮𝓅𝑒𝒶𝓀 𝒩𝑜𝓌
I am not the kind of girl
Who should be rudely bargin' in on a white veil occasion
But you are not the kind of boy
Who should be marrying the wrong girl
(...)
She floats down the aisle like a pageant queen
But I know you wish it was me
You wish it was me
Don't you?
(...)
I hear the preacher say, "Speak now or forever hold your peace."
There's the silence, there's my last chance
I stand up with shaky hands, all eyes on me
Horrified looks from everyone in the room
But I'm only looking at you
(...)
So, don't say "Yes", run away now
I'll meet you when you're out of the church at the back door
Don't wait or say a single vow
You need to hear me out
And they said, "Speak now."
And you say, "Let's run away now
I'll meet you when I'm out of my tux at the back door
Baby, I didn't say my vows
So glad you were around
When they said, "Speak now""
𝒯𝒽𝑒 𝒮𝓉𝑜𝓇𝓎 𝒪𝒻 𝒰𝓈
I used to think one day we'd tell the story of us
How we met and the sparks flew instantly
And people would say, "They're the lucky ones."
I used to know my place was the spot next to you
Now I'm searching the room for an empty seat
'Cause lately I don't even know what page you're on
(...)
Now I'm standing alone in a crowded room and we're not speaking
And I'm dying to know is it killing you like it's killing me, yeah?
I don't know what to say, since the twist of fate when it all broke down
And the story of us looks a lot like a tragedy now
(...)
Oh, I'm scared to see the ending
Why are we pretending this is nothing?
I'd tell you I miss you but I don't know how
I've never heard silence quite this loud
(...)
The battle's in your hands now
But I would lay my armour down
If you said you'd rather love than fight
So many things that you wish I knew
But the story of us might be ending soon
𝒪𝓊𝓇𝓈
Strangers' silence makes me wanna take the stairs
If you were here we'd laugh about their vacant stares
But right now my time is theirs
(...)
Seems like there's always someone who disapproves
They'll judge it like they know about me and you
And the verdict comes from those with nothing else to do
The jury's out, but my choice is you
(...)
So don't you worry your pretty little mind
People throw rocks at things that shine
And life makes love look hard
The stakes are high, the water's rough
But this love is ours
(...)
But they can't take what's ours
(...)
And it's not theirs to speculate
If it's wrong and
Your hands are tough
But they are where mine belong and
I'll fight their doubt and give you faith
With this song for you
(...)
And any snide remarks from my father about your tattoos will be ignored
'Cause my heart is yours
𝒯𝒾𝓂𝑒𝓁𝑒𝓈𝓈
The kinda love that you only find once in a lifetime
The kind you don't put down
And that's when I called you and it's so hard to explain
But in those photos, I saw us instead
And, somehow, I know that you and I would've found each other
In another life, you still would've turned my head even if we'd met
On a crowded street in 1944
And you were headed off to fight in the war
You still would've been mine
We would have been timeless
(...)
Which brought me back to the first time I saw you
Time stood still like somethin' in this old shop
I thought about it as I started lookin' 'round
At these precious things that time forgot
That's when I came upon a book covered in cobwebs
Story of a romance torn apart by fate
Hundreds of years ago, they fell in love, like we did
And I'd die for you in the same way if I first saw your face
(...)
In a crowded room a few short years ago
And sometimes there's no proof, you just know
You're always gonna be mine
We're gonna be
I'm gonna love you when our hair is turnin' gray
We'll have a cardboard box of photos of the life we've made
And you'll say, "Oh my, we really were timeless"
𝕃𝕒𝕧𝕖𝕟𝕕𝕖𝕣 ℍ𝕒𝕫𝕖
I've been under scrutiny
You handle it beautifully
All this shit is new to me (Yeah, oh yeah)
(...)
I feel the lavender haze creeping up on me
Surreal
I'm damned if I do give a damn what people say
No deal
The 1950s' shit they want from me
I just wanna stay in that lavender haze
(...)
Talk your talk and go viral
I just need this love spiral
Get it off your chest
Get it off my desk
𝕄𝕒𝕣𝕠𝕠𝕟
When the morning came, we
Were cleaning incense off your
Vinyl shelf 'cause we lost track of time again
Laughing with my feet in your lap
Like you were my closest friend
(...)
Looked up at the sky and it was
The burgundy on my t-shirt when you splashed your wine into me
And how the blood rushed into my cheeks, so scarlet, it was
The mark they saw on my collarbone
The rust that grew between telephones
The lips I used to call home
So scarlet, it was maroon
(...)
You were standing hollow-eyed in the hallway
Carnations you had thought were roses
That's us
I feel you, no matter what
The rubies that I gave up
(...)
And I wake with your memory over me
That's a real fuckin' legacy to leave
𝕊𝕟𝕠𝕨 𝕆𝕟 𝕋𝕙𝕖 𝔹𝕖𝕒𝕔𝕙
One night a few moons ago
I saw flecks of what could've been lights
But it might just have been you
Passing by unbeknownst to me
(...)
And it's like snow at the beach
Weird, but fuckin' beautiful
Flying in a dream
Stars by the pocketful
You wanting me tonight, feels impossible
But it's comin' down, no sound, it's all around
Like snow on the beach
(...)
I've never seen someone lit from within
Blurring out my periphery
My smile is like I won a contest
And to hide that would be so dishonest
And it's fine to fake it till you make it
Till you do
Till it's true
(...)
I can't speak, afraid to jinx it
I don't even dare to wish it
But your eyes are flying saucers from another planet
Now I'm all for you like Janet
Can this be a real thing, can it?
𝕄𝕚𝕕𝕟𝕚𝕘𝕙𝕥 ℝ𝕒𝕚𝕟
My boy was a montage
A slow motion, love potion
Jumping off things in the ocean
(...)
He was sunshine
I was midnight rain
He wanted it comfortable
I wanted that pain
He wanted a bride
I was making my own name
Chasing that fame
He stayed the same
All of me changed
Like midnight
(...)
So I peered through a window
A deep portal, time travel
All the love we unravel
And the life I gave away
(...)
I guess sometimes we all get
Some kind of haunted, some kind of haunted
And I never think of him
Except on midnights like this
ℚ𝕦𝕖𝕤𝕥𝕚𝕠𝕟…?
Good girl, sad boy
Big city, wrong choices
We had one thing going on
I swear that it was something
'Cause I don't remember who I was before you
Painted all my nights
A color I have searched for since
(...)
Did you leave her house in the middle of the night? Oh
Did you wish you'd put up more of a fight, oh
When she said it was too much?
Do you wish you could still touch her?
(...)
Does it feel like everything's just like second best after that meteor strike?
𝕃𝕒𝕓𝕪𝕣𝕚𝕟𝕥𝕙
"It only hurts this much right now"
Was what I was thinkin' the whole time
Breathe in, breathe through, breathe deep, breathe out
I'll be gettin' over you my whole life
(...)
It only feels this raw right now
Lost in the labyrinth of my mind
Break up, break free, break through, break down
You would break your back to make me break a smile
(...)
You know how much I hate
That everybody just expects me to bounce back
Just like that
𝔹𝕚𝕘𝕘𝕖𝕣 𝕋𝕙𝕒𝕟 𝕋𝕙𝕖 𝕎𝕙𝕠𝕝𝕖 𝕊𝕜𝕪
Every single thing I touch becomes sick with sadness
'Cause it's all over now, all out to sea
(...)
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye
You were bigger than the whole sky
You were more than just a short time
And I've got a lot to pine about
I've got a lot to live without
I'm never gonna meet
What could've been, would've been
What should've been you
(...)
Did some bird flap its wings over in Asia?
Did some force take you because I didn't pray?
Every single thing to come has turned into ashes
'Cause it's all over, it's not meant to be
So I'll say words I don't believe
ℙ𝕒𝕣𝕚𝕤
I'm so in love that I might stop breathing
Drew a map on your bedroom ceiling
No, I didn't see the news
'Cause we were somewhere else
Stumbled down pretend alleyways
Cheap wine, make believe it's champagne
I was taken by the view
(...)
Privacy sign on the door
And on my page and on the whole world
Romance is not dead if you keep it just yours
Levitate above all the messes made
Sit quiet by my side in the shade
And not the kind that's thrown
I mean, the kind under where a tree has grown
(...)
I wanna brainwash you
Into loving me forever
I wanna transport you
To somewhere the culture's clever
Confess my truth
In swooping, sloping, cursive letters
Let the only flashing lights be the tower at midnight
In my mind
(...)
'Cause we were in Paris
Yes, we were somewhere else
My love, we were in Paris
Yes, we were somewhere else
𝔾𝕝𝕚𝕥𝕔𝕙
We were supposed to be just friends
You don't live in my part of town but maybe I'll see you out some weekend
Depending on what kind of mood and situation-ship I'm in
(...)
I think there's been a glitch
Five seconds later I'm fastening myself to you with a stitch
And I'm not even sorry
Nights are so starry
Blood moonlit
(...)
I was supposed to sweat you out
In search of glorious happenings of happenstance on someone else's playground
But it's been 2,190 days of our love blackout
The system's breaking down
(...)
A brief interruption
A slight malfunction
I'd go back to wanting
Dudes who give nothing
I thought we had no chance
And that's romance
Let's dance
𝕊𝕨𝕖𝕖𝕥 ℕ𝕠𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕟𝕘𝕤
They said the end is coming
Everyone's up to something
I find myself running home to your
Sweet nothings
(...)
Outside, they're push and shoving
You're in the kitchen humming
All that you ever wanted from me was
Sweet nothing
(...)
On the way home
I wrote a poem
You say, "What a mind"
This happens all the time
(...)
Industry disrupters and soul deconstructors
And smooth-talking hucksters
Out glad-handing each other
And the voices that implore
"You should be doing more"
To you I can admit
That I'm just too soft for all of it
ℍ𝕚𝕥𝕤 𝔻𝕚𝕗𝕗𝕖𝕣𝕖𝕟𝕥
I washed my hands of us at the club
You made a mess of me
I pictured you with other girls in love
Then threw up on the street
(...)
They say that if it's right, you know
Each bar plays our song
Nothing has ever felt so wrong
(...)
Catastrophic blues
Movin' on was always easy for me to do
It hits different
It hits different 'cause it's you
(...)
Now the sun burns my heart and the sand hurts my feelings
And I never don't cry (And I never don't cry) at the bar
Yeah, my sadness is contagious (My sadness is contagious)
I slur your name 'til someone puts me in a car
I stopped receiving invitations
(...)
I find the artifacts, cried over a hat
Cursed the space that I needed
I trace the evidence, make it make some sense
Why the wound is still bleedin'
You were the one that I loved
Don't need another metaphor, it's simple enough
A wrinkle in time like the crease by your eyes
This is why they shouldn't kill off the main guy
Dreams of your hair and your stare and sense of belief
In the good in the world, you once believed in me
And I felt you and I held you for a while
Bet I could still melt your world
Argumentative, antithetical dream girl
(...)
I heard your key turn in the door down the hallway
Is that your key in the door?
Is it okay? Is it you?
Or have they come to take me away?
To take me away
𝕄𝕒𝕤𝕥𝕖𝕣𝕞𝕚𝕟𝕕
Once upon a time, the planets and the fates and all the stars aligned
You and I ended up in the same room at the same time
And the touch of a hand lit the fuse
Of a chain reaction of countermoves
To assess the equation of you
Checkmate, I couldn't lose
(...)
You see all the wisest women had to do it this way
'Cause we were born to be the pawn in every lover's game
If you fail to plan, you plan to fail
Strategy sets the scene for the tale
I'm the wind in our free-flowing sails
And the liquor in our cocktails
(...)
No one wanted to play with me as a little kid
So I've been scheming like a criminal ever since
To make them love me and make it seem effortless
This is the first time I've felt the need to confess
And I swear
I'm only cryptic and Machiavellian 'cause I care
(...)
So I told you none of it was accidental
And the first night that you saw me, nothing was gonna stop me
I laid the groundwork and then saw a wide smirk
On your face, you knew the entire time
You knew that I'm a mastermind
And now you're mine
Yeah, all you did was smile
'Cause I'm a mastermind
𝕋𝕙𝕖 𝔾𝕣𝕖𝕒𝕥 𝕎𝕒𝕣
All that bloodshed, crimson clover
Sweet dream was over
My hand was the one you reached for
All throughout the Great War
Always remember
Tears on the letter, I vowed
Not to cry anymore
If we survived the Great War
(...)
So I called off the troops
That was the night I nearly lost you
I really thought I'd lost you
(...)
We can plant a memory garden
Say a solemn prayer
Place a poppy in my hair
There's no morning glory
It was war, it wasn't fair
And we will never go back to that
Confession before we begin: I don't like Debut album... and Fearless is meh for me so this will be incomplete af (and I'll be skipping debut completely) I already said this but just repeating myself.
𝙵𝚎𝚊𝚛𝚕𝚎𝚜𝚜
There's somethin' 'bout the way
The street looks when it's just rained
There's a glow off the pavement
You walk me to the car
And you know I wanna ask you to dance right there
In the middle of the parking lot
(...)
But you're just so cool
Run your hands through your hair
Absentmindedly makin' me want you
(...)
And I don't know how it gets better than this
You take my hand and drag me head first
Fearless
And I don't know why but with you I'd dance in a storm in my best dress
Fearless
(...)
My hands shake
I'm not usually this way
But you pull me in and I'm a little more brave
It's the first kiss
It's flawless
Really something
It's fearless
𝙼𝚛. 𝙿𝚎𝚛𝚏𝚎𝚌𝚝𝚕𝚢 𝙵𝚒𝚗𝚎
Mr. "Perfect face"
Mr. "Here to stay"
Mr. "Looked me in the eye and told me you would never go away"
Everything was right
Mr. "I've been waiting for you all my life"
Mr. "Every single day until the end, I will be by your side"
(...)
Hello Mr. "Perfectly fine"
How's your heart after breaking mine?
Mr. "Always at the right place at the right time," baby
Hello Mr. "Casually cruel"
Mr. "Everything revolves around you"
I've been Miss "Misery" since your goodbye
And you're Mr. "Perfectly fine"
(...)
So dignified in your well-pressed suit
So strategized, all the eyes on you
Sashay away to your seat
It's the best seat, in the best room
Oh, he's so smug, Mr. "Always wins"
So far above me in every sense
So far above feeling anything
(...)
And it's really such a shame
It's such a shame
'Cause I was Miss "Here to stay"
Now I'm Miss "Gonna be alright someday"
And someday maybe you'll miss me
But by then, you'll be Mr. "Too late"
𝙻𝚘𝚟𝚎 𝚂𝚝𝚘𝚛𝚢
We were both young when I first saw you
(...)
"Romeo, save me. They're tryna tell me how to feel
This love is difficult but it's real
Don't be afraid. We'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story. Baby, just say 'Yes'."
(...)
I got tired of waiting
Wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you was fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town
And I said
"Romeo, save me. I've been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you, but you never come
Is this in my head? I don't know what to think."
𝙷𝚎𝚢 𝚂𝚝𝚎𝚙𝚑𝚎𝚗
Of all the girls tossing rocks at your window
I'll be the one waiting there even when it's cold
(...)
Boy, you might have me believing
I don't always have to be alone
(...)
'Cause I can't help it if you look like an angel
Can't help it if I wanna kiss you in the rain
So, come feel this magic I've been feeling since I met you
Can't help it if there's no one else
Mmm, I can't help myself
(...)
They're dimming the street lights
You're perfect for me. Why aren't you here tonight?
I'm waiting alone now, so, come on and come out
(...)
I could give you fifty reasons
Why I should be the one you choose
All those other girls—
Well, they're beautiful
But would they write a song for you?
𝙱𝚢𝚎 𝙱𝚢𝚎 𝙱𝚊𝚋𝚢
It wasn't just like a movie
The rain didn't soak through my clothes, down to my skin
I'm driving away and I, I guess you could say
This is the last time I'll drive this way again
Lost in the gray and I try to grab at the fray
'Cause I, I still love you but I can't
(...)
Bye, bye, to everything I thought was on my side
Bye, bye, baby
I want you back but it's come down to nothing
And all I have is your sympathy
'Cause you took me home but you just couldn't keep me
Bye, bye, baby
(...)
The picture frame is empty
On the dresser, vacant just like me
I see your writing on the dash
Then back to your hesitation
I was so sure of everything
Everything I thought we'd always have
Guess I never doubted it
Then the here and the now floods in
Feels like I'm becoming a part of your past
(...)
And there's so much that I can't touch
You're all I want but it's not enough this time
And all the pages are just slipping through my hands
And I'm so scared of how this ends
(...)
I want you back but it's come down to nothing
And all I have is your sympathy
'Cause you took me home but you just couldn't keep me
Oh, you took me home, I thought you were gonna keep me
Bye, bye, baby
Bye, bye, baby
𝚈𝚘𝚞 𝙱𝚎𝚕𝚘𝚗𝚐 𝚆𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝙼𝚎
You're on the phone with your girlfriend
She's upset, she's going off about something that you said
'Cause she doesn't get your humor like I do
(...)
I'm in the room, it's a typical Tuesday night
I'm listening to the kind of music she doesn't like
And she'll never know your story like I do
(...)
But she wears short skirts
I wear T-shirts
She's cheer captain
And I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day when you wake up and find
That what you're looking for has been here the whole time
(...)
Walk in the streets with you in your worn-out jeans
I can't help thinking this is how it ought to be
Laughing on a park bench thinking to myself
"Hey, isn't this easy?"
(...)
And you've got a smile
That could light up this whole town
I haven't seen it in a while
Since she brought you down
You say you're fine I know you better than that
Hey, what you doing with a girl like that?
(...)
Standing by and waiting at your backdoor
All this time how could you not know, baby?
You belong with me
You belong with me
(...)
Oh, I remember you driving to my house
In the middle of the night
I'm the one who makes you laugh
When you know you're 'bout to cry
I know your favorite songs
And you tell me about your dreams
Think I know where you belong
Think I know it's with me
(...)
Can't you see
That I'm the one
Who understands you?
Been here all along
So, why can't you see
You belong with me
𝙱𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚝𝚑𝚎
I see your face in my mind as I drive away
'Cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way
People are people and sometimes we change our minds
But it's killing me to see you go after all this time
(...)
Music starts playing like the end of a sad movie
It's the kind of ending you don't really wanna see
'Cause it's tragedy and it'll only bring you down
Now I don't know what to be without you around
(...)
And we know it's never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand
(...)
And I can't breathe without you, but I have to
Breathe without you, but I have to
(...)
Never wanted this, never wanna see you hurt
Every little bump in the road, I tried to swerve
But people are people and sometimes it doesn't work out
Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fall out
(...)
It's 2 AM, feeling like I just lost a friend
Hope you know it's not easy, easy for me
𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝚆𝚊𝚢 𝙸 𝙻𝚘𝚟𝚎𝚍 𝚈𝚘𝚞
And you were wild and crazy
Just so frustrating
Intoxicating, complicated
Got away by some mistake and now
(...)
I miss screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain
And it's 2 AM and I'm cursing your name
I'm so in love that I acted insane
And that's the way I loved you
Breaking down and coming undone
It's a roller coaster kind of rush
And I never knew I could feel that much
And that's the way I loved you
𝚄𝚗𝚝𝚘𝚞𝚌𝚑𝚊𝚋𝚕𝚎
Untouchable like a distant diamond sky
I'm reaching out and I just can't tell you why
I'm caught up in you
(...)
It's half full, and I won't wait here all day
I know you're saying that you'd be here anyway
But you're untouchable, burning brighter than the sun
And now that you're close I feel like coming undone
(...)
Oh, in the middle of the night
Waking from this dream
I wanna feel you by my side
Standing next to me
You gotta come on, come on
Say that we'll be together
𝙵𝚘𝚛𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛 & 𝙰𝚕𝚠𝚊𝚢𝚜
You looked me in the eye and told me you loved me
Were you just kidding?
'Cause it seems to me
This thing is breaking down, we almost never speak
I don't feel welcome anymore
(...)
Baby, what happened? Please tell me
'Cause one second it was perfect
Now you're halfway out the door
(...)
And I stare at the phone, he still hasn't called
And then you feel so low you can't feel nothing at all
And you flashback to when he said forever and always
Oh, and it rains in your bedroom
Everything is wrong
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
'Cause I was there when you said forever and always
(...)
I looked into your eyes
Thought I knew you for a minute, now I'm not so sure
So here's to everything coming down to nothing
Here's to silence that cuts me to the core
Where is this going?
Thought I knew for a minute, but I don't anymore
Last album lez go °3°
𝓌𝒾𝓁𝓁ℴ𝓌
Lost in your current like a priceless wine
(...)
Wherever you stray, I follow
I'm begging for you to take my hand
Wreck my plans, that's my man
(...)
Life was a willow and it bent right to your wind
Head on the pillow, I could feel you sneaking in
(...)
Wait for the signal and I'll meet you after dark
Show me the places where the others gave you scars
Now this is an open/shut case
I guess I should've known from the look on your face
Every bait-and-switch was a work of art
(...)
You know that my train could take you home
Anywhere else is hollow
𝒸𝒽𝒶𝓂𝓅𝒶𝑔𝓃ℯ 𝓅𝓇ℴ𝒷𝓁ℯ𝓂𝓈
Because I dropped your hand while dancing
Left you out there standing
Crestfallen on the landing
Champagne problems
Your mom's ring in your pocket
My picture in your wallet
Your heart was glass, I dropped it
Champagne problems
(...)
Dom Pérignon, you brought it
No crowd of friends applauded
Your hometown skeptics called it
Champagne problems
You had a speech, you're speechless
Love slipped beyond your reaches
And I couldn't give a reason
Champagne problems
(...)
"This dorm was once a madhouse"
I made a joke, "Well, it's made for me"
How evergreen, our group of friends
Don't think we'll say that word again
(...)
And soon they'll have the nerve to deck the halls
That we once walked through
One for the money, two for the show
I never was ready, so I watch you go
Sometimes you just don't know the answer
'Til someone's on their knees and asks you
"She would've made such a lovely bride
What a shame she's fucked in the head," they said
But you'll find the real thing instead
She'll patch up your tapestry that I shred
𝑔ℴ𝓁𝒹 𝓇𝓊𝓈𝒽
I don't like a gold rush
I don't like anticipating my face in a red flush
I don't like that anyone would die to feel your touch
Everybody wants you
Everybody wonders what it would be like to love you
(...)
Walk past, quick brush
I don't like slow motion double vision in rose blush
I don't like that falling feels like flying 'til the bone crush
Everybody wants you
But I don't like a gold rush
'(...)
What must it be like
To grow up that beautiful?
With your hair falling into place like dominoes
(...)
My mind turns your life into folklore
I can't dare to dream about you anymore
At dinner parties
I won't call you out on your contrarian shit
And the coastal town
We never found will never
See a love as pure as it
'Cause it fades into the gray of my day-old tea
'Cause it will never be
𝓉ℴ𝓁ℯ𝓇𝒶𝓉ℯ 𝒾𝓉
I wait by the door like I'm just a kid
Use my best colors for your portrait
Lay the table with the fancy shit
And watch you tolerate it
(...)
If it's all in my head tell me now
Tell me I've got it wrong somehow
I know my love should be celebrated
But you tolerate it
(...)
While you were out building other worlds, where was I?
Where's that man who'd throw blankets over my barbed wire?
I made you my temple, my mural, my sky
Now I'm begging for footnotes in the story of your life
(...)
Drawing hearts in the byline
Always taking up too much space or time
You assume I'm fine
But what would you do if I
Break free and leave us in ruins
Took this dagger in me and removed it
Gain the weight of you then lose it
Believe me, I could do it
𝒸ℴ𝓃ℯ𝓎 𝒾𝓈𝓁𝒶𝓃𝒹
Break my soul in two
Looking for you but you're right here
If I can't relate to you anymore
Then who am I related to?
(...)
Did I close my fist around something delicate?
Did I shatter you?
(...)
And I'm sitting on a bench in Coney Island wondering where did my baby go?
The fast times, the bright lights, the merry go
Sorry for not making you my centerfold
(...)
The question pounds my head
"What's a lifetime of achievement?"
If I pushed you to the edge
(...)
And do you miss the rogue
Who coaxed you into paradise and left you there?
Will you forgive my soul
When you're too wise to trust me and too old to care?
(...)
'Cause we were like the mall before the Internet
It was the one place to be
The mischief, the gift wrapped suburban dreams
Sorry for not winning you an arcade ring
(...)
Were you waiting at our old spot
In the tree line by the gold clock
Did I leave you hanging every single day?
Were you standing in the hallway
With a big cake, happy birthday
Did I paint your bluest skies the darkest gray?
(...)
A universe away
And when I got into the accident
The sight that flashed before me was your face
But when I walked up to the podium
I think that I forgot to say your name
ℯ𝓋ℯ𝓇𝓂ℴ𝓇ℯ
And when I was shipwrecked (Can't think of all the cost)
I thought of you (All the things that will be lost now)
In the cracks of light (Can we just get a pause?)
I dreamed of you (To be certain we'll be tall again)
(If you think of all the costs)
It was real enough (Whether weather be the frost)
To get me through (Or the violence of the dog days)
(Or the violence of the dog days)
(Out on waves, being tossed)
(I'm on waves, out being tossed)
I swear (Is there a line that we could just go cross?)
You were there
𝒸ℴ𝓌𝒷ℴ𝓎 𝓁𝒾𝓀ℯ 𝓂ℯ
And you asked me to dance
But I said, "Dancin' is a dangerous game."
Oh, I thought
This is gonna be one of those things
Now I know
I'm never gonna love again
(...)
Never wanted love
Just a fancy car
Now I'm waiting by the phone
Like I'm sitting in an airport bar
You had some tricks up your sleeve
Takes one to know one
You're a cowboy like me
(...)
You're a bandit like me
Eyes full of stars
Hustling for the good life
Never thought I'd meet you here
It could be love
We could be the way forward
And I know I'll pay for it
𝓇𝒾𝑔𝒽𝓉 𝓌𝒽ℯ𝓇ℯ 𝓎ℴ𝓊 𝓁ℯ𝒻𝓉 𝓂ℯ
Help, I'm still at the restaurant
Still sitting in a corner I haunt
Cross-legged in the dim light
They say, "What a sad sight,"
(...)
I swear you could hear a hair pin drop
Right when I felt the moment stop
Glass shattered on the white cloth
Everybody moved on, I, I stayed there
Dust collected on my pinned-up hair
They expected me to find somewhere
Some perspective, but I sat and stared
Right where you left me
(...)
I cause no harm
Mind my business
If our love died young
I can't bear witness
And it's been so long
But if you ever think you got it wrong
I'm right where
You left me
Anyways, here's the song vibe I'm praying to every God Seunghyun delivers to us/suchhhhh a GTOP song that fits with fanfics to end this way to long post absolutely nobody asked for but I had a lotta fun making it :D
This is how i sleep knowing gtop is real and they are going to be together soon ❤
Sighhhh.. same, everything's gonna be okay :))
EDIT: @wintercrash GURL COME BACK
I found this super romantic GD like right after I responded and HAD to share immediately, oh mi lord does he KNOW he isn't using his lurker account for this stuff (he's been liking some random things, low-key getting on my nerves lmfao)? Idk when he liked but OEF since I just found it, maybe recent? Moral of the story: you sending messages makes GTOP stuff happen (shhhh don't question my GTOP science).
ok girl idk if you have answered this already but i need you to tell me everything you know about untitled 2014. I've heard so many rumors about it: its a song about top, is about kiko, is just a song about gds life, the title comes from a fanfic (?). I need to know your pov.
i also find it very interesting how bullshit was supposed to be the lead single for kwon ji yong but due to the top stuff that happened near that time, gd totally changed it to be untitled the lead single, a song that talks about wanting to see someone again just one last time ..........👀
Okayyyyy Imma just tell you what I know, tho, since it was such a horribleeee time most of us gtoppers didn't really engage in this discussion :)) I do have to say, a LOT of shippers looooved using Untitled 2014 as a "weapon" to prove their ship, so there are too many theories and some of them are just.. absurd.. oef.
I'm going to start with the mv's visuals. According to me, GD was "laying himself bare", the way Tae did for 'Eyes, Nose, Lips', because it was a sincere song from his heart. But he was still wearing a veil because he, unlike Tae, didn't (and couldn't) reveal his muse. The shifting colours represent different emotions that he has gone through, and the colours on the Übermensch album match up with the colours we had linked to 'Love'. Additionally, in his changed outro for Untitled 2014 (which he only rolled out after the Seoul concerts for as far as I can tell) also displays those bright colours that are possibly linked to love. Like everything about the song, such a change could have two meanings. Either, his personal journey is over and he is now in his space, in his love, or his love story is over and he's found peace and settlement.
This is what I've written about Untitled 2014 in the past: "And in his lyrics of Untitled 2014, which in my opinion is about self reflection through the lens of a breakup, ((he admits to himself that he says harsh things and chases people away))" and I pretty much still stand by this and everything else I wrote here, but this post was just a brief thing I wrote about Jiko vs. GTOP. I think that this song is a sincere song and could be about two things at the same time, his journey and his heartbreak. Not sure if I should analyze the lyrics or not, but it's pretty vague anyways.. the same way 'Take Me''s only "concrete" receipt besides the vibes being very VERY GTOP is the fact that he posted the words "Take Me (I'm Yours)" to Instagram in the beginning of 2014 with very suspicious GTOP timing.
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Is it true that GD wrote Untitled 2014 for T.O.P?
Some people say it was actu
Now, the first point of discussion was when GD had written this song. Was it in 2014 (when he had an obvious and painful break up) or was it in 2017? Many people suspected that doing some sort of math problem (I BELIEVE (since I'm going to go off of what I know and am giving a POV so I don't wanna do too much research and taint what I do and don't know) it was an addition of his birthday, so 1988 + 8 + 18 = 2014) would get you GD's birthday and therefore it's a song about himself, instead of alluding to the time he wrote the song. In a picture that GD released with the lyrics of the song written on a piece of paper, he'd written Untitled 2017 and scratched the 2017 out to write 2014 instead, but later on in his career he made a painting called "Untitled 2022" in 2022 as the title suggests, which proceeds to confuse me a bit, since GD is a consistent person in his symbolism but I'm not sure what to think in this case. You can conclude that the song was either written in 2014 or in 2017; both of these have valid arguments.
Another point of discussion was the change of the lead single from 'Bullshit' to 'Untitled 2014'. Something you should know is that Seunghyun was supposed to feature in 'Bullshit'. There is proof of this through clips of Ji using pre recordings with Seunghyun's voice for his performances, and since it's not like Seunghyun can just come and record these lines given the situation he was in, the conclusion was that Seunghyun was supposed to be featured (isn't it interesting, the fact that Seunghyun was supposed to rap alongside GD in this very personal album of Jiyong's?). Now, maybe it's just me, but in a friendly context this song would've stayed the lead single since it was the one that featured Seunghyun's voice and was a perfect gesture. But that's just my personal opinion. Many people would rather attribute this change to a "tonal shift" to match the more depressing circumstance, and not a gesture to TOP, which is... also valid? I guess? Even if I remove my shipping goggles, I don't really understand this, since Bullshit was RIGHT THERE, with Seunghyun's feature and all, but he had to switch it? Idk tho, probably just me.
I am not aware of the title coming from a fan fiction, I think you misunderstood an inside joke? Lemme know what you came across tho, maybe I'm wrong :))) The inside joke within the GTOP community is that Ruinwyn can "predict" the future and/or always provides incredible interpretation of GTOP, and one of the things she did is predict that a song like "Untitled" would exist, except she felt that Seunghyun would be the one writing such an emotional song.
Now, for the rumours surrounding other potential muses (sigh sigh sigh). I don't like Jiko (I've made it very clear) and I don't think this song is for her. Like at all. Most Jiko shippers think this song was written in 2014 (cuz their ship was buried in 2015 lmfao) so I'll address it while 'acknowledging' that as a fact. I know that people see Ji unfollowing Kiko TWO WEEKS after his break up as proof of them being together, but we all have agreed that the timing reeks of a cover story and that the performance (which I hadn't found until recently smh) that BB did in 2014 makes it clearer to me that it's actually Seunghyun who broke up with Ji. Additionally, and maybe it's just me, but GD posting "We have to(o) many memories" during his break up just.. doesn't fit well with Kiko. Since they made it clear that the only language they have in common is English and they only really hung out in groups (till ofc the paparazzi images lol) and even then barely, making them chronically long distance, I don't know where these "to(o) many memories" came from. Additionally, Jiko was Jiyong's most public relationship rumour (since people are too heteronormative to think of men being a valid option) and "nobody knows" being such a focal point of the song doesn't make much sense (to me). But really, there's so much counter evidence to Jiko it's funny. Then we got CL.. not even gonna start this one, it's so obvious they aren't dating lmfao.
And then, we get to the shippers that have the award for the most far fetched theorists, Applers. Jesus, when I TELL you that they spread rumours with no base in reality and do it again and again and again. Don't believe a thing coming out of their mouths it's all unbelievable to such an extent that I'm sure Ji sends their theories to Dara so that they can laugh together. They live in a Kdrama, not reality TOT. Yes that's all I have to say, not even gonna start unpacking their wild ideas. Speaking of wild ideas.. here's mine (yes I'm a massive hypocrite but I have concrete evidence that they're dating and don't rely a 100% of the time on delusions like Daragon shippers) :))
Good Day opening scenes:
a) 'Missing You' is the first song that GD decides to play during this documentary
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GD singing ‘missing you’, backup vocal by TOP a.k.a TOP destroying a bea
b) After which he says a phrase that is mostly translated into/basically means "Long Time No See".
c) Then we see THIS? Like.. my mind can only go to ONE place in the entire universe TTOTT
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JS: If t
d) AND THEN THEY START PLAYING UNTITLED 2014?? And he's realllllyyyy emotional while walking these streets? Where he even filmed (an Infinity Challenge version) of Crooked? I'm assuming people didn't bat an eye because he laid a thick layer of HDon on top (pun unintended) during this scene. But umm yeah, I don't think he's recalling his past with HDon alone...
There are probably other things that allude to Choi Seunghyun being the muse but I..can't recall lulz I apologize. But, since I believe they were dating, ofc I also believe that Tabi's the muse. Feel free to ask me more questions, I probably know more but can't recall it rn lmao.
