last time I had casual sex with a man I started dissociating so hard as he was fucking me on the carpet he didn't notice I wasn't all there until he finished and I staggered into the kitchen, locked myself in,stared at a wall for 20 minutes then sobbed uncontrollably. this poor man was so freaked out by this after I assured him I wasn't physically hurt he never mentioned it again lmao
This only happens with men, during or after penetrative sex, always randomly & out of nowhere, i'm not sure what triggers it. bfs in the past always got used to it after a while and some even got turned on by it but Ive never really had casual sex or many hookups because of this because I don't want to make it awkward or explain shit I don't want to explain to people i'm not even dating. Carpet sex was after sd died and the first time after starting therapy, which is why I freaked out so much I think. Peanut guy does not know what he's getting himself into
