there was significant interest in yasha's introduction scene in the spn au where she's a big sexy mountain mama with a deer slung over her shoulders. so here she is!
hi wheres the incredibly tender and emotionally breathless moment of wmspn yasha first touching up beau's buzzcut for her? where's beau sitting in a hotel tub with her knees pressed to her chest, heart beating bruises against her ribs, because yasha's hand is gracing the back of her neck? its god asking, by the way
it's here
later seasons. harsher times. beau and caleb are separated after disagreements. molly is trapped in another plane (either heaven with angry angels or purgatory after a Sacrifice) and with no way to get him out (basically dead). jester has amnesia. caleb isn't picking up any of beau's calls. beau's just wandering from town to town, taking care of simple salt & burns, just koving forward, doing the easy things she knows how to do, how to live in this world and have a purpose. she sleeps in shitty motels and drinks a little too much, but not enough to dull her senses.
one night she's got a six pack and is watching jeopardy mindlessly. trying not to think about anything. there's a knock on the door, and the lights flicker, and beau stills, because who on earth wants anything good to do with her anymore. she grabs a knife and opens the door so cautiously.
it's yasha, looking the same as she did the last time beau saw her - right after she had to tell her molly is gone, because caleb had already gone by that point so the duty was left to beau. that was seven months ago. beau tries not to think of that day most of all.
yasha walks in, right past a dumbfounded beau. she looks around the dingy little room, the grainy buzzing tv. she sits down at the bed and faces the screen. beau remembers explaining game shows to yasha, so long ago.
after a long awkward pause, as beau stands there staring at yasha as yasha stares at the screen, yasha looks up at beau. her gaze hits as hard as it always has - even harder now, after having to tell her that they failed, that they didn't keep fragile newly-human molly safe. after seeing yasha scream.
"your hair is much longer than i have seen in many years."
beau's had goes unconsciously self-consciously to her scalp. it's at the awkward in-between stage, has been for a while. "oh. yeah. haven't really cared about upkeep lately."
another pause. then - "would you like my help? i can't imagine it's that different from skinning a rabbit. probably easier."
that startles a laugh out of beau, because oh, yasha. "i mean - i won't say no -"
they end up in the stained tiny bathtub, with the scene anon described. it's fragile and strained but it's simple. it's yasha cutting beau's hair because beau's hair is too long, because they're separated from people they love with no recourse with guilt and trauma enveloping each. ok, maybe not simple, then. but it's quiet. and there's company. it's a better night than most.
âThis - this is my fatherâs armchair - and these books, theyâre ones that were on our shelves - what - Mollymauk, where am IâŚâ
âMr. Caleb, this here is your own personal slice of heaven! But itâs not actually your time yet, so donât get too comfy. And more pressingly, my brothers and sisters will be here soon to try and emotionally manipulate us into not foiling their apocalyptic plans⌠yuck.â
(from my deeply embarrassing au)Â (more context about this scene)
caleb: oh my god i can't believe im in love with a literal angel. all the things i want to do to him are blasphemy. i don't deserve him. my internalized homophobia is going crazy. i am a repressed ex-catholic with incomprehensibly low self esteem raised in a hypermasculine culture
god ik its a wm au but I would Love to hear more about beauyasha in this au.. also like what has yasha been up to on earth? how does she interact with beau and caleb before molly arrives? đđ
>:)))! i can absolutely do so!!
so in the first two or so seasons before all the heaven/apocalypse stuff, beau and caleb met yasha in an episode. she never SAID she was a valkyrie but thatâs what they assumed she was, since she had a lot of viking stuff on her and the accent and she sort of implied that. itâs what made sense at the time, especially because they had no signs that angels are a real thing.
then molly happens, and then when yasha shows back up again they recognize each other and WHAT! YASHAâS AN ANGEL ACTUALLY?? crazy.
basically what happened is that at around 200 bce or so, yasha fell in love. iâm gonna say that zuala was another angel in her garrison, and angels arenât supposed to fall in love. theyâre supposed to be conforming divine warriors who donât have all the flaws (or strengths, or texture, or spark) that humans do.
zuala was painted as the main culprit in this transgression. rather than making her Fall (les mis voice) as lucifer fell (because by that point they didnât want to add any more True demons to hellâs side) for punishment, they decide to just obliterate her a la the hellfire in the last scene of the good omens tv show. it isnât pretty. yasha is made to watch. she screams, and it makes the sun flare.
the rest of the angels are going to have their memories wiped of her - including yasha - but she learns of this in time and breaks through the floor of heaven and plummets to earth. molly helps her escape, but manages to avoid getting caught doing so.
molly was in the same garrison as them, and his memory of zuala was wiped with the rest of them. he remembers yasha, remembers being fond of her, remembers that she left heaven voluntarily and that he helped her, but thereâs so many blank spots. they have him move garrisons to the tomb-takers after that, who are very elite and militant, and he becomes a demon-killing expert. itâs meant to drown out all that. and it kind of works; molly remembers more of yasha when he sees her again on earth.
yasha falls and falls and her angel blade slips from her hand as she dematerializes. it plummets and falls deep into some wilderness. a glint streaking down from the shooting star in the sky that night.
what happens next is the thing that happened with anna - yasha has no vessel lined up and she wasnât given permission to leave, and is swiftly getting her grace cut off by heaven, and her being is transformed into a human baby. she is born, and grows up in a little scandinavian village a little bit strange. her parents tell her how there was a huge shooting star the night she was born, how they think itâs a good omen form the gods, and she has a sense that sheâs different - special. sheâs strong and naturally gifted with the club and the axe and especially the sword - anything they put in her hands.
when sheâs old enough, sheâs chosen to go on their clanâs raids. she excels at getting the resources her village needs from the southern peoples. sheâs a terror, and everyone knows that sheâs blessed from above.
then one year, she gets separated from the raiding party and is making her way through the forest trying to make it back to the coast so she can find their boat. and out of the corner of her eye she sees a strange glint, and something in her pulls her to go to it. itâs a strange sword embedded in the rock, and she puts her hand on it, and pulls â
and memories and power flood into her. memories of zuala, of creation, of molly, of heavenâs gleaming pathways, of zuala, of the first things that crawled on land, of zuala, of the face of god, of zuala, zuala, zuala. smiling, flying, fighting, touching, burning. she screams. her howl echoes through the woods.
her people have been waiting for her back at the boat, because they canât leave their best warrior behind. when she strides out of the woods, sheâs different. she walks different, and has this power radiating from her. she climbs on the boat, tells them to go. sheâs almost glowing a little bit. they row away, and yasha spends the entire journey staring up at the sky, out at the horizon.
after that day sheâs different. even quieter. everyone assumes she had a holy experience that day, and she doesnât disagree, because, well. after that day sheâs keenly aware of the norse godsâ presences, and doesnât age. when she realizes that everyone is moving forward towards death without her (humans seem so small now - she loves her human parents, she does, but remembering what the sun looked like in its infancy changes a viking), she leaves, and goes to asgard, and pledges herself to the ranks of valkyries. sheâs not nearly as strong as she once was, but sheâs strong enough to fit in with her new people, so she finds herself a place there among the aesir.
(side note im keeping my distance from how this world interacts with non-abrahamic religions - thats SO not my business - just know theyve got their own power and their own places that arenât like. Beneath that of abrahamic god. because iirc spn was terrible about that) (also i say abrahamic bc iirc islam has a lot of angels and demonology in its culture but thats all im gonna say bc again: i am not a theology major, and this au is much more about the surface fun of it all rather than making any statements or assertions about ACTUAL religions (past or present) obviously) (also iâm never gonna mention jesus or the antichrist or whatever)
the angel blade is tied to her grace. her grace still exists up in heaven, locked away in the archives, so the blade still has its source. it also contains her love for zuala and molly and - and all that she loved before she was torn apart - and that fuels it, connects it to her. gives her access to its power. sheâs mostly just sort of supernaturally stronger and can take more of a beating than a normal human, and on certain days/times of year she can fly short distances. days that were holy to her. she carves norse runes on her blade, because itâs hers now. she canât age or die of old age, but she still does have human needs - food, water, sleep. sheâs tough, but if sheâs unlucky then she can be killed. luckily, sheâs very good at fighting.
her wings⌠theyâre not like they once were. being with the valkyries makes humans see them like other valkyriesâ, but the aesir can see them for what they are - decayed, fragile, skeletal things, with what remaining feathers there are barely hanging on. like her feathers in cr proper.
after ragnarok, when the surviving aesir meet in the fields of asgard, yasha thanks them for their hospitality, and returns to midgard. she wanders for a while, mostly by herself. she helps when she sees people who need her help, but mostly she just keeps herself alive and moving. quiet, contemplative. loving godâs creation even though heaven hurt her deeply. she spends years not speaking to anyone. what happened to the aesir was traumatizing to her, and sheâs secure enough that she doesnât need what they gave her when she was âyounger.â
at some point she makes her way to north america. she wanders, builds cabins, and when she stumbles upon the opportunity she watches over what she once watched over. sheâs aware of Hunters but is uninterested in them - theyâre not hunting for food and while they help widows and the grieving thatâs not their Business. not her business.
flash forward to early season 2. we know beau and caleb by this point and the basic premise of the show and the world. on a hunt in montana beau and caleb take shelter in a cabin during a snowstorm, and in the middle of the night the door opens. beau is taking watch and shoves a gun up in the intruderâs face - but itâs just yasha, holding a deer carcass and looking distinctly unimpressed. âyouâre in my house.â
beau stutters an apology, caught entirely off guard by the 6â˛5âł mountain of a woman, and yasha shoulders past her to the table to stoke the fire and clean her kill. itâs her dinner for next month, yasha gruffly explains when beau asks what sheâs doing. donât like supermarkets.
caleb wakes up to beau helping yasha cut away the entrails. he is very frightened and confused, but when beau gives the all-clear he calms down a little. not entirely, because he knows this woman is beauâs type, and theyâre still on a hunt.
they explain what theyâre up to to yasha, who nods. says sheâs noticed things have been strange. and beau helped her, so. sheâll help them. sheâs also bored, and has a good feeling about these two.
so she helps out with the hunt, and throughout the episode beau clumsily flirts with her and yasha never turns her down but also never Flirts back. thereâs a tension thatâs mostly powered by beau but isnât shut down by yasha (yasha thinks beauâs sweet and attractive, and sheâs taken some human lovers over the last two millennia, but is still devoted to the memory of zuala. the audience doesnât know that thought). she and caleb connect on a We Are Both Quiet Introverts level, like they do in actual cr (reminiscent of the shaving scene after bowlgate).
it isnât until the end that caleb and beau think sheâs anything but a mountain lady. then she pulls out a HUGE GLOWING SWORD carved with RUNES and THEREâS SOMETHING BEHIND HER THAT LOOKS LIKE WINGS? and then she nods, says goodbye, and walks away into the woods before caleb and beau can pepper her with questions about what the fuck just happened.
they run after her, but canât find her or the cabin again. in the car ride back to civilization, caleb theorizes that she might be a valkyrie, and beauâs like yeah that sounds appropriately sexy.
yasha is a fan favorite. she had a whole focus episode and she was so mysterious and cool! the audience clamors for her to be brought back, and are sad when she doesnât show up for the rest of season 2. beau and caleb mention her a couple times, so itâs made plain that she isnât TOTALLY a one-off, but⌠hm!
beaujester shippers already existed by this point (jester was in season 1 and again in season 2), and beauyasha gains some popularity. beau having attractions to both of them is present in the show, but she isnât dating either of them. thereâs significance to both of them - theyâre both people beau thinks of when she thinks of having Somebody.
a lot of fic about yasha is written between seasons 2 and 4, theorizing about her life as a valkyrie and what her and beau meeting up would be like⌠which is all then jossed when angels happen in season 4.
caleb gets taken to hell at the end of season 3 because of ikithon and for beau. during his last couple days on earth, he begs beau to find jester. or hell, yasha. donât be alone, please. live and be happy. go get - go get powerlifted by one or both of them. i heard you sleeptalk enough about that. and beau tells him to shut up, donât talk like that, iâll - iâll find a way to bring you back. and then you can see me get gay married or whatever it is you want me to do. because iâm gonna get you out of there. and caleb smiles, and his eyes say we both know you wonât.
thereâs a whole genre of fic about jester or yasha (or both) comforting beau and settling into hunting/domesticity with her or helping her rescue caleb after caleb gets dragged away btw. idk why im making up fake fic about this au but you know what. i deserve this.
yasha is sort of put out of mind in the heaven excitement of season 4 and the arrival of molly as a third companion, turning their duo into a trio half the time. the apocalypse stuff isnât quite happening yet btw (this is where i start diverging from the seasonal structure of spn), itâs just angels being real and caleb and beau being mysteriously important to them.
there is one point where during the beginning of an episode about halfway through the season where theyâre regaling molly with a story of one of their hunts - beau is trying to embarrass caleb with a time he got enthralled by a siren, and caleb bats back with well, at least i didnât let a giant woman with a dead deer push my gun aside so she could skin the thing with no enchantments on me at all. and beauâs like AW CMON DUDE DONT BRING YASH INTO THIS.
then thereâs a shot where their bickering dialogue continues but the camera is focused on molly, who tilts his head a little, considering, then takes a sip of his orange juice (he hates coffee - too bitter! if heâs going to consume something to keep up the idea that heâs human, itâll be something that tastes good!). then it cuts to the car.
itâs intentionally ambiguous if thatâs about caleb getting seduced by a siren, beau being embarrassed, or whatever - itâs just an odd little moment. which is significant when theyâre up north again, four episodes later, in a little restaurant off the highway, and theyâve just finished their meal and talk about the season plotline is happening when the door SLAMS open, and booted feet stomp across the dirty tile, strong legs in worn jeans, a huge backpack - beauâs eyes widen - and thereâs yasha, striding directly to their table with a look of utmost focus and determination.
beau goes to stand, calebâs brow furrows - yasha, what are you doing here - whatâs going on - when, before they can act, molly stands up, causing the table to rock and their cups to slosh over. yashael! he exclaims, his face split in incredulous delight. youâre alive! you survived! youâre okay - itâs been millennia! what are you doing here?! oh, i donât care, get over here. and he goes to her, and she hugs him, and beau and caleb are standing there, slack-jawed, as stony stoic yasha cracks a wide smile and hugs molly and lifts him off the ground.
did⌠did mollymauk just say âyashael?â caleb says, stunned. molly is cradling yashaâs face in his hands, and her cheeks are round with joy. beauâs imagination could never have given her this smile, and sheâs jealous a little bit, but also in awe, but mostly also trying to process the two puzzle pieces that just locked themselves together that she thought were totally separate from each other.
(relevant posts to their reunion: art, text, text)
from then on yasha is part of their group, at least for that season. thereâs a lot of caleb and beau commiserating over their attraction to two LITERAL ANGELS - especially when the truth of yashaâs fall is revealed. beau is torn up inside about all of it - an ANGEL, for the first part, and her dead angel lover (how could beau ever compete with an ANGEL) and, oh christ, mollyâs odd humoring of her crush on yasha is cast in a new light now.
and then jester comes back and⌠well, now beauâs torn between two hot girls who are both important in the grand scheme of things! yipes!
it takes a long time and thereâs probably also some romantic drama in that triangle etc, but beauyaster is endgame. because i have a huge fucking brain.
