#wnstice

[heartpascal]

im doing okay!! trying to get through my own finals 🥀🥀🥀 ALSO HELLO???? your essay topic actually sounds so good…. forget a fic. drop your essay.

BUT ALSO I READ SOMEWHERE THST IT WAS UR BIRTHDAY??? many moons ago…. do forgive my belated happy birthday wishes….. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! 🎂🎊🥳🩵 but anyway i hope your essays and whatever other work you have are going well. we’re all behind you and rooting for you!!

omg how have finals been going?!?!? sorry i know i am (yet again) late!!!! hope all is well .. especially with the finals!!! keeping you in my thoughts fr. ALSO LMAO HAHAH can you imagine.. sorry yall, my blog is turning into an essay blog now, forget fics ❌ (kidding)

HAHAHA thank you!!!! you’re basically early now!! my bday is in august 🫡 the 11th to be PRECISE. but thank you thank you <3 i am sending yuou literally all my love rn. I ROOT FOR ALL OF U GUYS I SWEAR. love u all.

[heartpascal]

my suggestion is to turn one of ur essays into a fic [agreeable head nodding here]

ALSO HI!! ITS BEEN SO LONG ^_^ i hope you’ve been doing well and taking care of yourself!!

agreeable head nodding is noted!!!!

BUT HI!!!! it has been TOO long omg!!! i saw ur user in my inbox and went :O i’m doing good, writers block aside smh. HOW ARE YOU!!!

[brainstorming ways i can turn a masculinity in captain america essay into a joel miller fic 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️]

[devilfic]

i think i spent today’s time well, reading almost every single fic you have posted. (if you’re okay with spam likes, please let me know. i have no problem going back to like every piece of writing). I GENUINELY ENJOYED EACH OF THEM?????? LIKE. how do i even express how satisfying your works are to me? the words i read just trickle down crevices of my brain, tickling my scalp. makes me giggle. OKAY THAT’S IT have a good day/night <3

AHHHHH THANK YOU!!! 🥰🥰🥰 I read this right after I got up for work this morning and it really set a wonderful tone for my day, thank you so much for reading my works ;-;;; I hope you have a good day/night as well!

(and I am 10000% ok with spam likes, trust me!!! it tickles me whenever I see it LOL)

[heartpascal]

IT GOT WORSE? THE FIC? (but the writing was oh-so satisfying.)

IM SORRY!!!!! but thank you :’) i am so glad you thought so!!!! and i was aiming for it to get worse so im glad that worked out as i wanted it to HQHSHAHA

[heartpascal]

SCREAMIFN IM NOT EVEN DONE WITH THE NEW FIC I JUST STOPPED ONCE (spoilers for those who didn’t read) THE MOM DIED. LIKE, yes, okay, it was coming. it was obvious. it was stated. BUT. BUT. ?:!:!3!;!:!:$:&:&:& i don’t know how i can finish this fic. i have to sit and contemplate this. she wasn’t even a canon character (as far as i know). wasn’t even given a name. but was so real to me. the epitome of strength—what it might as well means to be alive—molded tightly by the given title of ‘mother.’ (i swear i was going somewhere w this but IM SAD.) AND? THE LITTLE BITS AND SIGNS OF HER AGING HINDERING HER? THAT STRENGTH? ERRGGGGG SHE’s GONENEJEJJFJDIEISJS

HAHAHAHAHA. i’m sorry for immediately laughing but i can’t help it. i am a terrible person. BUT THE MOTHER WAS SO HUMAN TO ME AND ALSO THE BURDEN OF MOTHERHOOD IN THAT FIC WAS SO INCREDIBLY REAL. anyway let me actually answer the ask now LMAOOOO

the mother was not any canon character in my mind!!! sorta just a made up character who had been with joel for a WHILE before the outbreak!!! i kind of wanted her to be a blank slate other than that, which i did think would make killing her hurt less but !!!! i’m not sure it did!!! i think it’s sad either way bc yk. if she hadn’t had a kid she might’ve survived longer? but equally, she might not have!!!

but yes :( the reader’s mom was in fact an old lady, (no she wasn’t, ~50’s age is NOT old, but in the apocalypse….. kinda is) and her age did hold her back!!! i think bc she had so much stress throughout her life after the apocalypse - LIKE SHE RAISED A WHOLE CHILD!!!!! - she just kinda lost her strength a bit quicker than joel :(

but ALAS. i’m sorry :(

[heartpascal]

OMG!! U POSTED!! AND U ATE. giggling and kickigngn my feet 🤭🤭🤭 but OFC before i yap-ish about ur writing, HOW HAVE YOU BEEN?????? i hope you’ve been taking care of urself!! <33

“hoping there’s somewhere to go” HURT. it hurt me. BUT YOUR WRITIBG???? KEPT ME GOING. i so love how you further divulged the reader’s perceptions and mindset that not only drives the storyline, exploring the reader’s value and questioned significance, but puts a spin on familial/platonic tropes and elevates larger themes of life. (felt a little like a hs english teacher there for a moment😭)

i truly enjoy the plots you craft. i don’t think i can put into words how refreshing(?) and pleasing your writing is, even if a lot of your works destroy me 💀 (gotta go make my own comfort ending 🧎)

AAAAHHHH THANK YOU!!! i have been pretty good all things considered!!!! how are you!!!!!!

you feeling like a hs english teacher is so slay, they were some of my favourite teachers ever!!! and could be very insightful. so i love that. AND I APPRECIATE THAT MORE THAN YOU KNOW LIKE HELLO?????? elevates larger themes of life??? THAT IS SO KIND WHAT I AM SO HAPPY YOU COULD SEE RHAT IN MY WRITING??????? screaming and crying. every time i see you in my ask box i know i am in for some tears. you are the loveliest.

i am literally screaming and kicking my feet rn. don’t call my writing pleasing (please please please do oh my god hello ????????????????? in love.)

but yes. one thing i should probably work on is comforting endings :’) i never give yall comfort really do i

[heartpascal]

hihi!! OMG HAPPY BIRTHDAY!:!!!!!!!! i hope you had—and will continue to have—an amazing day!! 💗💗 AND I HAVE NO DOUBT THAT U SLAYED YOUR EXAMS trust 🙏 i am the universe ☝️

i hope you’re getting plenty of rest and love! you more than deserve it :)

oml THANK YOU!!! you are too kind. sending you so so much love. getting ur notifs truly makes my day better fr. i had a good day tysm :’) HAHDHAH I HOPE U ARE THE UNIVERSE FOR THE SAKE OF MY RESULTS!!!

stay safe and well my beloved. MAKE SURE TO DRINK AND EAT PLENTY!!! love you so so much.