I'm questioning again but not my wolf identity, but the subspecies of wolf I am.
I'm questioning tundra wolf at the moment because it was the very first instinctual identity I knew when I awoke back in 2007. Immediately with zero hesitation, I accepted being a white wolf (arctic or tundra). Right now, I identify as a Eurasian grey wolf but, even while looking up photos of them, I will often find myself drawn the random white wolf image that's slipped in. When I see a photo of one, I get that feeling of recognition, like the feeling you get when you see yourself in a mirror.
But I'm struggling with the thoughts of "I don't want to be just another white wolf". Even though in the wild, there are packs of nothing but white wolves found in the arctic, in the northern tundra, etc. It's not uncommon but I worry about the outside views of others. I know I shouldn't, but I can't help myself and it plants seeds of doubt into my mind.
I dunno if I'm looking for advice or just wanted to get this off my chest. Either way, feels good telling someone this.