English beer on St. Patty’s days is close enough right?
This post isn’t about that. Actually I’m in a quandary. First, this is going to be one of my long rambling posts. Try not to make them often but meh. And I’m by no means bitching. BUT I’m sought after, by multiple companies wanting me to work for them.
It’s a new and strange experience for me. I’ve always planned my next step, knew what I wanted to do, knew where I was going or what I was after, had a plan for the future, had ambition for my next step, but not right now. Right now all I really care about is this ridiculous motorcycle ride I have planned and that’s about the only thing that concerns me (that’s a whole nother post, and if you really want the full scope of the trip you’ll need to find me on Facebook and Instagram to get the whole idea, but I digress). This is me wondering about my future. I have an awesome new girlfriend (which wasn’t supposed to happen, super glad it did. She’s amazing, but just one more thing to consider). Back on topic. What or where do I see myself in the future? All the jobs have their positives and negatives. All of them are fine with me taking a month off for my trip (which blows my mind). But I don’t know what’s best for my future. And if I’m being honest I just want to get back to being a railroader, not doing what I was doing. God no, never that, that was awful, but the pension and benefits they offer are just to good for me to want to get away from. Again this isn’t bitching, I know lots of people struggle and life is hard and it sucks and many probably would be envious of having the options and opportunities presented to me, but I’ve also worked my ass off and made my opportunities possible and know what my worth is as an employee.
I just don’t fucking know what to fucking do.













