#work t

[blue-nebulae]

WRITE, YOU DAMN PIECE OF LAZY SHIT! WRITE!

THAT'S WHAT I'M TELLING MYSELF TO DO.

[yikesqueer]

Just some trash from my trash brain feel free to ignore

I literally...cannot function around death and I cannot continue to run this body/our life if people are going to keep getting sick and possibly dying on me. Should I see a therapist about this? Yes. Will I? No.

On a related note, Ceb’s aunt has cancer. And between that and the recent thing with the grandparents I’m having a rough time existing in this body right now and it’s triggering all sorts of shit. Like the desire to get fucking drunk at one in the afternoon even though I have work in an hour and a half. 

I don’t want to go to work today. Or tomorrow. I want to curl up in a ball and refuse to leave my home and I’m honestly debating just not showing up since I only have a week left but I know that’s a dick move and I don’t want to be that person. Even though it’s so fucking slow that they don’t actually need me and my knees are getting actively worse every day because it’s cold and I’m standing for 9 hours a day. I really miss working in places that were warm. I miss being warm. 

I’m just...really fucked up right now and I need to get through Christmas and then things will be better. This time of year is always hard. This time of year always fucks with me. 

[validtwink]

the crew at work piss me off they constantly take over the station im on and they rotate through stations without any semblance of order or staying at any one station for the shift it makes me livid!!! and they stand in the corner of the kitchen all talking when theres work to do and im the only one working!!!!!

do i like working by myself? fuck yeah i do avoidant personality. do i like working by myself when i cant handle the work by myself and theyre not working while i am? NO!!!!!!!!!

honestly i go home happy cause ive been using a sigil for more money in tips and its been working so far  👌

[validtwink]

also work was good!!! i was so excited!!! i recognized three people working there as having seen them from my other store o: too bad a terrible manager i worked with works here now lmao i get stuck with him tomorrow!!! unexcited!!!

also since im a manager (i dont care what my position is im still a manager. leave me alone with my delusions) i noticed things about how the manager on duty worked and. hes very unimpressive and he couldnt even manage one station during the rush when only four people were on staff so im???? why are you mod if you cant handle even a single station when i was handling at least two at all times?????????

im such a better manager why cant i get my gray shirt back smfh

[bloodbuzzohio]

tl;dr

I'm having a second dinner(date) with a cute boy and i'm very excited

[painpro]

my dad lost his job, again, fuck

[joniness]

Having a panic attack after being told you might be fired by someone in person at work but pretty much being resigned and almost chill when someone tells you over the phone that you're definitely fired.