#work vent cw

[puffinproof]

sitting in the bathroom trying not to cry / feel bad. its not even 2 hours into a 6 hour shift.

I got here and was deployed to line but we got slammed and no one was on fryers so I jumped on that since they didn't need me on line. next thing I know the person who was deployed to fryers is on line - he hasn't been trained on it, he just walked over and put himself on line - and now the rush is over they're still training him and I'm still doing fryers.

I've only been on line a handful of times in the almost 4 months I've worked here. they keep saying they'll train me and then it never happens. I don't know if I should be like, hey, when do I get more training on line ? because I feel like I'm awful at it and that's why I end up on frying / prep. I just want to get training ! I want to be able to do more than fryers / prep !

I need to go back now. deep breaths. gonna be okay. I've got this !!! accepting good vibes 😭

[puffinproof]

gonna rage cuz my manager keeps fucking with the schedule and disregarding things I'm telling him about my availability

at this point I'm like. dude. you have 0 respect for me or my time or my willingness to show up for this fucking job so I have 0 incentive to be chill about your negligence.

I do good work. I don't complain. I don't talk shit or cause drama. I take all the shit I am given when I could justifiably not. yet you treat me like an inconvenience when all I have ever done is act for the convenience of the job. I follow the rules, I communicate. I am a perfect lil worker bee.

and I 100% expect me being like "I can't work this day / until this time" when I have already communicated that to be taken out against me and used as an excuse to prove I am not a team player and reduce my hours or some shit

[puffinproof]

I haven't cried yet ! plus I got all the prep done. sitting outside with a snack hoping that + cooling off will help me feel better

officially been relegated to fryer while someone else gets trained on line. I don't want to be bratty but its like ! idk it feels like preferential treatment cuz this coworker and the coworker who stepped on line earlier are both really good friends with the manager and shift lead. it's frustrating. :c

maybe I should be more pushy and confident idk but thats just not. who I am. I don't feel like I should HAVE to be just to get training !! that they've been trying to do !! SINCE THE BEGINNING OF NOVEMEBER !!

like I realize I'm taking it... personally. I feel like my feelings are valid but I'm also like. I'm probably being overdramatic / oversensitive.

anyway. 2 more hours. thank you for all the encouragement ♡ let's go !