Man I'm always like "I wish I had time to work on this special project of mine but I just started going through a lot of shit in life that is more urgent so I dont have time baffff man theres no rest for the weary man" as if I literally don't initiate more than half of them
Like TO BE FAIR to myself, I start these because there are aspects of life that I can see that can be fixed that are causing a negative status buffer on my life so its not like Im creating unproductive and pointless problems to deal with
But I still escalate issues so I can solve them without consideration for the last time I just... tolerated an issue and gave myself to recooperate before taking on the next moutain
And it pays off, it absolutely does. I'm not the household breadwinner, knocked most my family into healing and recovery, and at late stage DID recovery at age 23 because I knew how to tolerate unwanted life circumstances for any longer than I literally had to
But honestly, I think at some point I need to find the line where a level of bad and unideal is OK if it means I can rest.
But hey, I already started PhD applications and potentially getting a new better paying job 2 hours south which means Ill have move so like... Im probably not gonna get a genuine chance to try to figure that line out for another year at best 😂
