It’s been awhile and though life is pretty good at the moment there are still a few things. Mostly I kinda wanted to write something and seeing as my creativity for RP has nearly all but evaporated here I am. Lately I feel like I’m more of a daily pest than I am an entertainment and or company. I don’t know how to fix this, though I’ve thought maybe if I just go radio silent for a bit it’ll put a spark in the friendship? I dont know I thought I’d rekindled it but I still think a convo that happened fucked all that up. But whatever I guess, is what it is.
Now my other friend whom I've known from high school is anything but happy. She’s turned into a damn right miserable person, sometimes to me but more often just in general. I know it’s because she lets her sibs run all over her over and over again. Which is her fault, I’ve given her advice she never takes it and just lets the cycle happen again and again. So I feel sorry for her that her sibs treat her like shit but then I don’t because she lets them treat her like shit. I try and be supportive when she bitches about it but tbh I'm tired of hearing the same damn thing over and over again. At this point I simply tolerate it because she’s my friend. Which at times I wonder why we are, we don’t have much in common and we really don’t hang out much anymore because she never likes to leave her house.
I’ve been avoiding work because that place is ridiculous. So I’ve managed to go to the lake a few times this summer which is super nice. I love the water and it calms me out. I’m currently still loosing weight though I’ve not exercised now in like two months. Which I keep saying I have to get back into it but then never do. I’m not sure how to jump start that drive again. I am however going to try and drink more coffee as most times it makes me happier at work, which is a plus and very much needed. Maybe the coffee will also give me that small boost of energy to help me get back to my daily walks. I hate when I do this... I should have never stopped working out. I’ve lost 10lbs.. which is great! but it also took me 6 months to do it. I dont know man, maybe I just don’t have the dedication or drive to keep up on anything. Far too wishy washy. Well wish me good luck. Think this is long enough for now lol. Guess I'll go watch some Bobs burgers.
