I was happy today ...lol #AprilFools Anyway, I decided to do the #purpleheartchallenge because I hate April Fools pranks and one led me to a panic attack at work today. Whilst my scars are old and faded, and I have managed not to succumb to temptation for years self harm is not a joke and is not something to be romanticised or admired or laughed at. People hurt themselves when they are in such a position of pain or emptiness that they need something to distract them, to take away from their feelings, or even to help them feel something. I cut myself for 7 years and my biggest fear right now is that I'll start again and no one will love me because of the cuts and scars on my arms. That's kind of what is stopping me...knowing how much it would hurt the one person I have ever truly loved, even though he has hurt me repeatedly. So tonight's #8pmSelfie is a bit deeper than usual, but really that is the point, I'm supposed to be talking about my journey Sidenote: how cool are my #worldcupvii #mudbloods and kansas #quidditch wristbands :3 there's also my #beyondblue wristband that my stepmum made fun of...