Can I say that your frank personal posts about your own thoughts on writing Steps have inspired me to try my hand at writing fanfic again. My fic ideas tend not to be romantic, sexy, fluffy or angsty, so I never thought anyone would be interested in reading them. It's nice to hear someone say that just because something may not be a typical Kylux smut fic that it doesn't mean it's not worth writing. I'm paraphrasing slightly but that's what I took your words to mean.
Oh, this was a surprise. I’ve not inspired anyone to doanything before I don’t think. So that’s cool (i’m actually super happy I just don’tknow how to express that well) and I hope you write, and enjoy it while you’redoing it.
I’m assuming you’re referring more to this post than much else I’veposted about. I’ve lamented a lot of things and then deleted those posts later –mostly popularity imbalances and frustrations with promoting my own fic. They were written out of anger and i didn’t really feel like tumblr needed my own negativity added to the general overabundance displayed.
Whatever you want to write is definitely worth writing.Someone will want to read it. (send me an anon if you post it somewhere, i’ll read it…and promote it but i’ve got a very small follower count so that might not help much) That being said…posting something, no matter how good, probably won’t be popular initiallyfor the reasons I mentioned in the above linked post. And getting an tractionin probably any fandom is next toimpossible unless you have a very popular fandom friend.
Its so easy to say “write for you, not for fans” when you have fans. The people that have liked my fic are the only reason i haven’t drop-kicked my blog and story off the internet. I got lucky and i got loud, and that seems to have gotten me most of my attention. That being said, getting angry about the lack of traction your work receives is an acceptable and understandable reaction - attacking or harassing someone more popular than you because they are more popular than you is not.
But it’s very, very hard to want to write something, and then want people to read it and like it when you haven’t gotten any real idea about how other people feel about your writing. You’ll never see your own stuff without bias. Whether you like it or hate it you will have an opinion on it that has little to with the the quality of it. But, sometimes, you have to just say fuck it and get as obnoxiously loud about your shit as you can and demand attention.
I’ve had a lot offeels during my writing/posting process that I’ve never seen someone else evenmention and I’ve been told things like ‘don’t be so emotionally attached to yourfic’ and ‘don’t put so much importance on other people’s opinions.’ Which are both ridiculous statements thatmade me feel like i was an idiot that didn’t know how to feel about my own creation when I heard them. If you are writing a story ormaking an art and you are emotionally attached to it then that is yourgoddamned right as an artist who has spent 8+ hrs writing or drawing somethingthat will only take 30 minutes (or seconds) for someone to appreciate.
You arecreating something and presenting it to the world and you should notfeel ashamed for wanting validation, and you should not be told you are beingfoolish or narcissistic for wanting people to not just like it, but share it.
…i meant to keep this short. I meant to do a lot of things. chriiiist. I’m happy that you are going to write again. If you wish to hear me lament more about my writing/posting woes send me another anon, or if you are having your own send me one. Really i’ve got like…a lot of just things i’ve had to do to keep writing my damned story because i like it and other people like it. I don’t read other fanfics in the kylux fandom(although i have a folder dedicated to people that have kudos’d my fic and write in fandoms i’m interested in - i read those although i avoid kylux ones for now), i don’t follow any star wars blogs anymore.
So, basically. if you find yourself struggling with the kylux fandom and writing what you want while knowing that its not going to fit in with the popular stuff? Keep in mind that the Kylux fandom has literally been the largest source of discouragement i’ve had to deal with in order to write my kylux fanfiction. And i’ve had to deal with it by ignoring it - which is really, really fucking sad.
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Google, thesaurus.com, and dictionary.com -- the lethal weapons of a writer. Use them with darkness and desire to make your readers collapse under the weight of your words! BWAHAHA. /her own fic is murdering her right now
I think I'm actually putting this off a bit and I shouldnt cause time but i am and after I watch these 10 eps of anime I swear I'm gonna make those websites my home and also behindthename since that's where i've been all day lol
