Not to be anticapitalist on my positivity account, but capitalism fucked me up. I literally avoid starting certain hobbies because I think “I couldn't profit from this”...as if I should never do anything that’s not directly productive.
Today I heard some good song covers and remembered how I kept wanting to record some covers, but immediately thought “I’m not good enough to become famous and sell music though...maybe some day if I am.” That sucks so much??? Maybe it was school or being broke that made me this way, I’m not sure, but I can’t believe I kind of forgot that you can just do things for fun and just post things for fun without the intent to gain something from it.
I found a cover of a song that had a few mistakes and even had an awkward pause where the artist messed up one part. I listened to it like five times in a row. Maybe if I ever post a cover, someone will really like it and listen to it on loop. Or maybe not, and so what if not? My friends will like it, and I might like it, and at least I did something fun. Nothing wrong with that.