|| |Wash Thy Sins Away; Gye Ul & _____ (OPEN)
The soft ocean breeze blew across her face and for a moment she let it blow her away from reality. For reality had become so difficult to deal with and so burdensome. Her eyes close and to her surprise, clearing her mind didn't take too much effort. Finally she was calm. She breathed in the briny smell that was the salt water that made up the body of water before her and she found peace. It had been a night of unpleasantries accompanied with shame and guilt. She had killed once again for the sake of her feral desires and this time she was too hungry to formulate an educated choice. Instead of criminals, Gyeo Ul had taken the life of an innocent man. An innocent man who most probably had a family who he loves and loves him. An innocent man who most probably had dreams he has yet to reach for, and because of her ignorance she had taken all of this away from him. Suddenly her moment of peace was disturbed with such aggressiveness. She had expected this to happen though, she knew she didn't deserve this peace. She knew she was unworthy of solitude. She had accepted this for she knew she had sinned and should be punished for it. Yet, the stream of tears flowed freely from her eyes. She felt defeated and worthless. Why was it so hard for her to be herself? Why was it so easy for the monster to over power her? Without her knowing, she was already waist deep in the water. She opened her eyes in time to see the clear blue water be tainted with red from the blood on her hands. It was as if the mark of her sins were being washed away so effortlessly. An idea made it's way to her already crowded mind-- purification. Salt has always been considered as a tool for repelling demons and evil because of its purifying abilities. She had seen it in many television shows and movies and they all seem to be consistent. Even in the monastery it had been common knowledge as well. Therefore her spontaneous plan seemed to make sense. Seeing as she was in salt water, she might be able to chase away the demon that had made her it's home. Taking in a short breath, she submerged herself fully into the water. Not long she released the air from her lungs making her body sink deeper. Calmly, she let the soft waves carry her aimlessly. Her gaze was on the blue-grey sky that indicated dawn was breaking. She had no idea if her plan would work and suddenly she didn't care. The water was making its way through her lungs but she didn't feel any pain. Was it another benefit of being a vampire? Was she incapable of drowning? Again she couldn't care less. All she cared about was escaping. Escaping this new and terrible world she had awaken to. Escaping the sins she had committed. Escaping the guilt that was eating her soul. And most importantly, escaping the monster she was now becoming. Closing her eyes, she decided she didn't want to exist anymore "Father forgive me for I have sinned..."