First time with Jiyan would feel like an out-of-world experience. He would be incredibly gentle with you, treating you as if you might break under him.
The second you murmur that it’s your first time, he would take a deep breath. His heart would do that strange, unfamiliar thing he later realizes has a name—love. And there would be a quiet pride in him, knowing you trusted him enough to share something so intimate.
To Jiyan, sex is never casual. He does not understand casual in that way. For him, it is sacred something that binds two souls together. (Hard agree)
There would be a pressure on him to perform well, a little too well if i may add.
His priority would always be you. Even if he is overwhelmed by his own feelings, he would focus entirely on your comfort first.
And the self control? that man would have on him will be astonishing. He would constantly hold himself back, careful with every movement, every reaction.
He would keep asking you if you are okay, if anything hurts, if he should slow down, if you need a pause or just to be held instead. His hands would never leave you for long, as if letting go might make you disappear.
If you become overwhelmed or emotional, he would immediately slow down and comfort you, gently wiping your tears and asking softly if you want to stop. His voice would always be calm, but deeply concerned.
Even if he is flustered or internally overwhelmed, he would never let it show fully. He would stay composed for your sake.
He would never rush anything. Instead, he would let the moment build slowly and carefully, giving you time to feel safe and grounded with him.
If you allow Jiyan to take the lead, and if you say yes, god that would unravel every ounce of his control.
he would cup your ass, and slowly, guide your entrance onto his tip, and once he is inside you, lord have mercy, he will thrust deeper, and kiss your collarbone, your neck with every movement he makes, and say, "look at me love, let me see your face", "dont hide from me." "You're are taking it so well", "you are such a good girl", "my beautiful lady", "keep going", "yes like that, move your hips, just, go with my rhythm" "you are doing so good".
His praise would be soft and constant meant to reassure you, not overwhelm you. He would want you to feel safe, seen, and valued above everything else.
Jiyan, will definitely talk you through it, he will make sure you are comfortable with him.
Even if he doesnt cum, he would not push you, he will make sure you do, and if you are tired after that, he will gently pull out and make sure you are not pushing yourself too much for him.
And if you insist on returning the favor and ask him not to be so gentle, you would definitely see the other side of him. But even then, there would still be softness in the way he handles you, because something inside him would always fear hurting you unintentionally. To him, you are simply too precious.
After all said and done? He would take care of you, he would be tired too, but still, he would clean you up first, wiping you, changing the sheets.
After, he will lay down with you, doing nothing just cuddling you, reassuring you, telling you how you are the most beautiful person in the world.
Later, he would prepare a warm bath for you, taking care of every detail with quiet devotion. Decorating it with scented candles, rose petals, and gently laying you in the bathtub, and will step in with you and, he will wash your hair, your body, almost reverently, as you relax against him.
And eventually, when everything is calm, you would fall asleep against him again, while he stays awake just a little longer kissing your hair softly, holding you close, and thinking that he has never felt anything more certain than this.
