The Difference
Johnela (wuttdaeff), texted me earlier. Too bad, I don't have my phone right now with me. And perhaps, I have deleted everything... So, I'll just try to be verbatim as far as how my memory can recall.
Johnela: Kirsten!
Me: Oh?
..... ( I can't remember. Let's go to the point of this convo)
Johnela: Congrats! :D [This was something I never expected her to say. It was like ... It came from the person I least expected to] Kayo ni Garri yung sa internship ni Ma'am, di ba? Yung sa travel?
Me: Oh. At sa'yo ko lang narinig 'yang congrats. Salamat! :) Yeah, kami.
Johnela: Ang saya ko kaya kasi kayo yung pinili! Pero di ba may OJT ka na sa (insert company here)? Pano yun? Lilipat ka?
Me: Balak ko nga ituloy pa rin yung sa (company). XD
Johnela: MASAYA BA DUN?
Me: (Hindi ko alam paano ako sasagot) Masaya? Ano bang definition mo ng masaya? XD Gumagawa kami ng props saka my mga shoots din kami. :) ['Cause she's at ABS, so I kinda compared it to her experience since I saw her photos].
Johela: HAHAHA! Sige na nga, ganto na lang yung tanong! MASAYA KA BA DUN?
Lalo akong di maka isip ng sagot. Not that I am not happy. It's just that, I just go with the flow. Na parang happiness is not that important anymore. Since it is a requirement to have an OJT. Hindi rin dahilan na ayoko don dahil hindi ko naman nafi-feel yun. Yes, before, I wanted to be somewhere else -- not that I wanted to be somewhere else when I was already in the company but, maybe, I kinda envied my classmates who are in TV stations. Not that because they are able to see celebrities but because, that's the place more or less a Broadcast Communication graduate should be in the stereotyped world of the humanity (fuck, what?). What we do is also in line with our course but in general perspective -- Mass Communication. But being honest, I know I envy them. For some reasons like, I want to write a script, I wanna do some editing, be an assistance during the shoot and those stuff. But that doesn't mean I cannot do that in the place where I am now. Maybe, it's all about the ambiance. Yeah. That's it. The environment. Beggars cannot be choosers, yes, but that's not also the thing. That maybe (geez, this has too many maybes already), everything is planned the way it should be (when did I learn this kind of scripting again? This kind of scripting doesn't really work for me like, God has better plans, in God's perfect time, Everything will be OK, God has given you something you deserve because He knows you can do it and its for your own good. I am not Anti-Christ, guys. It's just that, positive scripting just really don't work on me. Wait, this post ain't about religion and faith).
So, my answer to her was:
Feeling ko naman magiging masaya ako kahit saan ako, eh basta may OJT!!!!. Interview ba 'to? Hahha! Wala akong kwentang sumagot, no? XD
Masaya ba dun?
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Masaya ka ba dun?
Happiness is a choice daw, eh! XD
At hindi ko alam kung tama pa grammar ko. Iche-check ko pa ba? HAHAH!