The photo prompt for today is #whatif and this is a hard one. I spent most of the earlier parts of this journey dwelling on this pondering. It made me think that on some level I have control over something that I don’t. It made me feel angry and, guilt at times would creep in. So I spend a good part of my time thinking about what I did do. That helps me see that I was a good mom. A good parent. It puts into perspective those things that I am able to have some control over and it takes the control of how the universe plays out into the hands of the Creator. We miss you Evan EVERY SINGLE DAY. #wygriefphoto #wygholiday #jesustakethewheel #forever251114 #evan #mysons #wygrief (at UC Davis) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bq0wLtdg1ZM/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=3nmuwpzupuml