#wytchcore

[sadmages]

this is my baby boy tambourine i love and adore him, he turned 2 about a week ago

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO TAMBOURINE

[gerrydelano]

i need to catch up on your fics but i am chin hands about trans fem gerry. i remember you talking about it before but id love to hear any new or updated thoughts :0

some of it would be spoilers for the PBR epilogue so i'm going to keep that to myself until then, but! ultimately i just was thinking about the fact that he uses she/her pronouns and enters Girl Mode in his happiest moments, his most intimate and vulnerable moments with people he trusts to love him, and what that says about his actual state of being outside of those moments. it means he's not fully happy or comfortable, there's something holding him back, which i've gathered is a fairly common feeling.

he's still got an attachment to being A Son specifically it's just rooted in his being but look me in the eyes and tell me that ever made him feel safe in his own body or head or surroundings. y'know? there's spoiler territory there with that part of the discussion though so heehee.

(not that long i just don't want everything stretching the dash where i might not be able to edit it later)

i do think she's always going to identify himself as a fag though which is also pretty common because things are more complicated than they are binary and he's always a color wheel understander. his gender is faglady but realistically her gender is also just nothing you could comprehend if you're not open to contradiction. you can't expect him to fit into neat little boxes, she just won't do it, it's not anybody else's business but his.

so. transfem gay man is probably still where he's at in general at this point in time in my writing but as time has gone on his egg has increasingly cracked lol it's just a matter of like... what's going on in his life, who she's with, how safe he feels being herself. as of right now, she saves herself for tim and tim is nothing but reverent about it and i could go ON about how her sex life goes hand in hand with her gender but i don't want to flood the dash with BDSM discussion LOL even though i have thoughts for MILES about it. i talked a bit about it in the link above iirc. it's incredibly soft and meaningful and also, crucially, sexy. but mostly it just makes her feel so incredibly safe and desired and respected and these are all things that were previously missing from her life in such a huge way, like.

look at his life. look at the life he's lived and tell me he's ever been fully happy playing the role he was put in. the expectations his mother had of him, that gertrude had of him, the way he was expected to obey and sacrifice and even hurt people at times because that's just how the world works, right.

well, he's never wanted to participate in that way of living! and he only did it as a survival mechanism because where else could he go but always come back home to mary and her dreams for him which were always just an extension of herself, he was nothing to her but an extension of herself and her wants and her beliefs and he was anything but that, even when he tried to blend in. half the time he measures his life from injury to injury. his whole life felt like nothing but punishment and for a long time he wouldn't even know what for.

it can be such a transgender narrative if you look at it. the repression that he'd have had to deal with is insane even if you look at how loud and proud he is about his sense of style (which is extremely queer in and of itself.)

and i also just do not buy transmasc gerry i'm so sorry you can absolutely have that HC if you want and i will not attack you for it but look at him. listen to him. and also remember that eric, who died when gerry was 2 years old, referred to him as his son. sorry but that to me says he's amab because He Was Un Bebe. also in what WORLD would mary be a supportive parent to a trans kid. she literally insists on calling him by his full birth name that he DOESN'T LIKE BEING CALLED; classic trans thing! he canonly has a PREFERRED name. a preferred androgynous name!

it just makes more sense to me that he's transfem. i don't believe he has a desire to be all that traditionally masculine. he literally is so gnc in canon and his whole life just reads to me as "person who did not get the chance to fully embrace themselves because everything was just too damn hard." i also enjoy depicting people transitioning later in life, because it's never too late! it's NEVER too late to embrace who you are and work out who you've wanted to be for a long time.

i think he still lives in ambiguity and grey areas and blindspots. it may not have even occurred to him that she wanted to transition until later in life anyway because life never slowed the fuck down for him enough to let himself ask the questions! but he knew he wanted his hair long. he paints his nails. he wears eyeliner and dangly jewelry and alt clothes and yeah, cis people can do that, but it's also a way to flag! a very strong way of flagging! these are all the things that felt right to him in canon and no one stays that alt into their thirties without a little bit of gender going on somewhere in the mix, be serious, y'know? g-d. i'm so invested forever in gerry's gender jfhbnkjn.

he doesn't like labels, he really doesn't. and she might not ever call herself a woman as much as a lady in particular but she likes the phrases "good girl" and "princess" in bed, she likes being seen as feminine in comparison to a partner, she has feminine preferences. she would probably use more reclaimed slurs to refer to herself than i'm comfortable just tossing around but like, a lot of people prefer those as identifiers than "man" or "woman" like i refer to myself as a fag dyke all the time and it's more affirming to me than trying to decide if i'm a trans guy or if i'm a butch dyke At All Times. gender can be complicated! i think it IS complicated for gerry at the moment with his baggage but i imagine if he were ever able to really let go of that baggage, she'd be a very different, happier person. i think she would like it to be simpler sometimes. she treats it simply even if other people might not be able to. she's really calm about all of it, and even as it changes, it just makes her confidence grow. really comes down to the people she's surrounded by and the opportunities that she manages to grab a hold of in terms of finally letting herself just be. and i just think the results of it are really gorgeous.

anyway transfem gerry truther forever

[fatcowboys]

20, 42, 58, 72?

20. favorite type of baked goods? are they good at baking?

i dont think they are picky about baked goods lmao they will eat All and Any. but i think they like a good good loaf of bread like a good sourdough loaf with some added flavors. im making my fav bread archies its a garlic parmesan sourdough made from a bakery not far from fix's work that they go to all the time.

they are not a good baker mostly bc thats not really something they've gotten to try much before tbh. that would be a luxury skill and not very practical but i think. they'd Love to if they got the chance

42. whats the most ridiculous thing they've ever spent money on?

hmmmmmmm they have not made a lot of ridiculous purchases before tbh mostly bc again. until recently they didnt super have the opportunity to? but i think after they completed their first score and made money they Did buy themself something just. Goofy. not something super expensive but they were in a market and bought just like. a cute little figurine. maybe of like. the reverie lighthouse or another landmark that 90% of the people in reverie would thing is tacky and obvioisly just for tourists but they keep it on their shelf and they honestly love it a Lot just bc like. they bought it for them and it serves no practical purpose but its cute and they made the choice to buy it and have it and look at it Yknow

58. most emberassing situation they've ever experienced?

hmmmm. archie is someome who will do just about anything so i dont think they are emberassing by like. i am a fool in front of these random people. i think a lot of the stuff they feel very emberassing about are related to their bad social skills like they tried to tell a friend something heartfelt ad fucked it up So much they thought they were mad at them lmao

72. feelings on spicy food?

they Love it but have a low tolerance for it lmao they are working on building up their spice tolerance

ty!!!!

[cuewulfir]

12 and 22 for the art asks?

12. show us an old drawing

went through some old sketchbooks for this and while most of it will never see the light of day, here's a self portrait that was coincidentally done almost exactly four years ago! i remember being so proud of it at the time

also honourary mention to this because it gave me a good laugh

22. what inspires you

other artists, a lot of the time! i'll see a friend's art or come across something on tumbr/twitter/pinterest etc and find something in it that i really want to try out. also the media i happen to be consuming at any given time inspires a lot of my things–the majority of the art i do is fanart

[mcwebby]

okay i literally got an eyebrow piercing yesterday and its great but also i walked home and my face started bleeding like a block away and just. walked home looking like i just got into a fight and it was so funny ehdbd

HAHAHJSJSJSJDJSJS SO IT JUST STARTED POURING??? that’s kind of badass not gonna lie… spontaneous opportunity to look like the toughest bitch on the block

[hevcrap]

My baby boy

THEY HAVE OPPOSITE COLOR JUMPSUITS HOOOLY SHIT I LOVE YOUR CLOWN French Henri and your guy are twinsies :)

[prim-moth]

Commissions for @wytchcore of eir oc, Dante & Gable Skyjacks💖 I still have my comms open, pls check out my pinned post if interested!

Commissioner use only

[lexicals]

i adore your tief!! shes so pretty omg. but also, as a heads up, img descriptions should come directly after the image/before the caption. that way, people who rely on them understand posts in the same order as everyone else.

Hey thanks! I'm glad you like her!!

I hope you don't mind me publishing this also, if so lmk and I'll delete it, but I just want to see if others have anything to add re: the image descriptions? Obviously if this is a big issue then I'm happy to change the way I do it, my main worry & the reason I do it in this order rn is that the engagement level on my posts is already really low (in general but especially atm with the amount of original content I'm posting), & I feel like putting a big chunk of text below the image makes it way more likely for people to just skip over it :')) I'm just curious as to what the general consensus is on that, i.e. if it's a best practise thing that doesn't make much difference overall or if it's something very important I need to fix?