Hate having a sister who is a few years older, but like, close enough in age for you both to grow up together, & she always gets high marks, is now a registered nurse in the city, & whenever she comes back to town for a little while, or even whilst I was visiting her, I feel constantly on guard & stressed out if makes me want to cry.
Been staying at my fav sister's place with her husband & toddler (This sister is several years older than me but we click, probably because the 3 of us are neurodivergent, even if I am the only diagnosed one) & these past few days, my city sister will come over for a little while, & scroll tiktok or Instagram & have repeating sounds without headphones on, loudly, or put the toddler near me.
I DO NOT like children generally. They are noisy, have grubby hands & being touched without permission or general known consent of when to & to not touch me makes me freak out internally. I am okay being around the toddler, even watch over him and move him away from things, but this is all with my consent & I am usually not in grabbing range, but this sister doesn't care. She stresses me out, and when I try to work on the damn baby mobile that I am creating by hand & my sister puts him right next to me, saying 'You know I won't let him touch you or near your stuff." I had to up & leave.
She makes me panic. I know she loves me, & I love her too, but she makes me uncomfortable & panic & just stresses me out.
I usually feel safe & happy here at my older sister's house, & happily do some stuff to help out, but my city sister just ruins it all.
I know this is first world issues & all, but I just wish she didn't have to do that KNOWING CHILDREN MAKE ME UNCOMFORTABLE WHEN I DON'T DO IT ON MY OWN TERMS!
I wish she would just fucking respect me & not do this shit, but every time I bring up something small that makes me overwhelmed or uncomfortable, she either ignores it or says it's such a little issue & I shouldn't care.