IT ISN'T HIM. it can't be. how long has it been since he heard his name in vein's voice? when was the last time he heard the rare needle-sharp bark of his laugh, the way it shakes through the canopy of leaves above him?
two years on the dot, his half-addled brain supplies. at least, it was two years on the dot when he fell through a glitch in space-time and wound up here, in the bowels of this never-ending fucking forest. was that... this morning? how many hours has xia fei been wandering, listening, as vein once taught him to do, for sounds of running water? listen carefully, felix. you don't want to die out here, do you? he can almost feel the flick to the back of his head, and he almost huffs in response, snaps something like i'm trying, boss.
but he can't, and he doesn't.
and he has no goddamn idea how long it's been. all he knows is that he needs water, or he's going to die in this prison of trees.
there it is again — louder, closer, his real name like a knife straight to the heart. fuck. he's got to be hallucinating again. he has to be. what else could explain the smell of cinnamon and incense drifting past him on a breeze forcing its way through the trees? this voice? worst of all, what could explain the man standing on the path before him when xia fei looks up from the forest floor?
vein holds his hand out with an expectant smile, and xia fei breaks down into sobs. the logical thing to do would be questioning what's happening to him, of course. the pieces align too easily: a portal to a new and unfamiliar world, a man who looks and smells and speaks like vein. hoping it's only some alternate universe where he never died is like handing over your bank account number to a scammer, but he can't help himself.
❝ boss — ❞ his voice breaks; he reaches out, stumbling over his own feet, and forgoes the outstretched hand to fling himself into vein's embrace. it's too good to be true. he knows it is. he has no idea. vein's arms slip around him exactly like they used to, and squeeze, and squeeze, and squeeze —
❝ he — hey, boss, too tight — ❞ vein plays these games sometimes. he keeps him on his toes, never quite comfortable, swimming in adrenaline, until the pretense drops and felix can sink into him again. but this time, there is no break in the façade. he keeps squeezing. by the time xia fei starts to squirm, that grip has already become crushing; he yelps when he feels his ribs creak, a horrible, lancing pain bursting through his chest like a firecracker exploding beneath his skin; he pushes at vein's chest, mouth wide-open in silent protest but only able to squeak like a broken instrument in absence of air.
❝ it's alright, fei, ❞ the siren murmurs against his ear. ❝ no need to struggle. you're already half-dead... doesn't a rest sound nice? you're so lonely now, aren't you, you poor thing... come home with me. ❞
come home. vein's apartment is winter-still, now. xia fei hasn't stopped sleeping in his bed, but over time, vein's smell faded from the sheets. that place is not home anymore. he knows what he means.
is it finally time to stop fighting? should he put down the burdens and let vein crush him to death, here, in a forest where no one will ever find him?
it sounds... nice. to die in his arms. better than any other way to go.
fei is about to nuzzle into his neck and let vein's arms squeeze the life out of him when something whistles through the air. it's bright, so bright fei can see the glow from behind his closed eyelids, and even before his eyes fly open, he hears the sickening thunk as an arrow sinks straight into the side of vein's neck.
he's too stunned to react at first. it's almost absurd, the way it happens, vein's mouth stretching open and emitting a bird-like screech as the fire burns away his skin and muscle and bone. his visage, in this engulfing, warbles and melts away, shrinking back into him like a formless creature afraid of the light. what's left behind is something more harpy than human: feathered, crooked, hulking. fei's mouth opens, but rather than screaming, he doubles over and dry heaves into the dirt. oh, god. he almost died, he really almost died, and it wasn't even vein who did it, and now his ribs are cracked, and he's stranded out here, and his head is pounding and he needs water and and and —