#xisumakin

[fictionkinfessions]

Xisuma, EvilXisuma. if youre reading this I miss you.

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please post today (april 1st)

happy birthday to unpleasant & split from regretevator!

-an Evil Xisuma who’s birthday is also today

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makes me really really happy to see a lot of hermits pop up lately around here. i miss you guys like the tide and the shore, i hope you guys take care of yourselves out there. i love you

- zedaph / xisuma

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[kin-eats]

Hello! I’m not sure if I already sent in a request or not. I’m a recently split Xisuma fictive. I’m finding it a bit difficult to remember to eat, so some recipes that are quick and easy to make while I’m working would be very appreciated! I don’t have any dietary restrictions, other than not being a fan of peanuts but that’s just a preference.

- Xisuma (Meadow Collective 🪻)

Sure thing, dude! I'll do the best I can! :>

Bang Bang Chicken Bites

Quick and Easy No-Chop Chicken and Wild Rice Soup

Spicy Vegetable Beef Udon Noodles

Easy Sheet Pan Roasted Greek Salmon and Broccoli

Chai Crescent Rolls with Sausage

Air Fryer Waffle Egg in a Hole

I hope you enjoy! :>

[fictionkinfessions]

I know I just sent a message about how much I miss you and all of our friends and I know I’m more upset because its late and I’m running on fumes but I Miss You so. so much Keralis.

I don’t think the feeling of how wrong and lonely it feels without you at my side has ever been so strong and awful. Not that I should be so surprised, we’ve been side by side for so so long, and I’m sure my current declining mental state is a strong part in well. all of this. but I try to keep pushing forward, to get my work done, to eat anything at all, to get proper rest, and I try to think of what you’d do, what advice you’d whisper to me late at night when I would come undone in your arms, what you might think of me. like this.

im scared of what the answer to that might be. if you might have grown sick of me, tired of my constant push and pull, of having to coax me into talking, into leaving my room. i just, dont know what to do without you, not anymore. i’m so, so tired, id do anything for you to come back. you could yell at me for not taking care of myself, for isolating myself, for anything, as long as we were together again. my heart aches for you so much. i miss my best friend. im sorry.

i just want to be by your side again, i want to watch one more sunset with you

- Xisuma. #🔭💌

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I miss my dearest friends so badly. I feel like something so deeply connected to me, to my soul, has just been ripped away from me. Being so far and alone from all of you feels so strange and its exhausting, but I know I need to keep going. For all of you. I know our world(s) were not always perfect, but as flawed as they were everyone was happy and free and that was enough for me.

I miss that carefreeness and, surprisingly, the responsibility and the routine of it all. I feel lost sometimes, without a job or task, or even the skill to do what I did then. I want to reach out and find you all again but some part of me is afraid. Afraid things will be too different now, too harsh, too exhausting, that I might not be needed any more. Maybe its childish and naive to hide in the memories of what once was and not strive for what might be, but for now, itll be enough for me.

Even so, I dearly hope that you all are living happy, comfortable lives surrounded by love and friends. I hope you all remember to take care of yourselves, to take plenty of breaks, and how cared for and loved each of you are. I hope you know, that I’d do it all over again and again just to see you happy.

I apologize for such a long ramble. You know how I can get sometimes, but I hope someday, somehow, and if you’ll still have me, I can be your Admin once again my dear Hermits. I love you.

- Xisuma. #🔭💌

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[fictionkinfessions]

Actually, just one more message, while I’m still here and awake. I just want to make sure my appreciation was especially known for Keralis and Biffa, if either of you are out there and reading this right now, or maybe someday far in the future.

Thank you for being my best friends, my shoulders to cry on, my official (and unofficial) TEA partners, my favorite pranking buddies, My build buddies and my anchors.

I know I tended to bury myself in my work and I withdrew even more with the arrival of Ex and the stress of keeping everyone safe, but I know I would have succumbed to the pressures if you both hadn’t insisted on dragging me up and out of my base, out of my head, and back into the sun. If you both hadn’t insisted on making sure I ate and slept good, that I had time to work on my builds and reminding me that needing help or breaks didn’t make me weak or an awful Admin.

I am not the same person I was when we first began, and I have so many people to thank for that but especially you two. I am forever and so grateful that you both stayed with me, with our world for so so long. I am so grateful for the time we spent together, for the impressions you made on my void coloured soul. I will always miss you like a man without his arm, I could have never asked for more wonderful best friends. Thank you.

- Xisuma. #🔭💌

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I remember grian being one of my best friends he was great and we used to mess around causing chaos together id teach him how to do redstone too because he really wasnt the best at that and he would teach me building the other hermits knew something was about to happen when we were together i miss him now 😭

-xisuma (first post here :D)

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