𝔭. ▐ @xylemic ⊰ my muse confesses as they tend to your muse’s wounds, their hands gentle. “ you don’t get it, do you ? i’d do anything for you. ”
finnick's gaze has been distant all night. it tended to be , at these gala's. he's drank too much – all to swallow the fact that he has dealt with too much. wandering hands &* lewd comments from even drunker patrons. no one does anything to stop it. he is government property – a thing to be sold &* swapped amongst the elite. there is just so little he can do with the attention tonight – tighter lips from too many listening ears mean no real secrets , outside of useless gossip. the most he can do is find new clients. normally he can dissociate out of all of this. he might have been able to , had the last guy not made a comment about johanna instead. reduced her to wasted opportunity – suggested simply taking what she doesn't sell.
he threw a punch. hadn't even considered the consequences in the moment. next then he knew , he was tumbling on the ground with the guy , shouting &* hitting &* not caring when the man's nose was broken &* his own lip was busted. he hadn't cared until jo herself pulled him away. him being in trouble with snow was one thing – johanna involving herself put her in the line of fire , too. he'd been quick to get them out of the party – knew the best place to hide away. it wasn't as if snow couldn't find them , but for just a moment , they'd at least have a moment together.
❛ the guards would have stopped me. ❜ from killing the guy. maybe they'd kill him in secret to keep his mouth shut so he wasn't trash talking finnick , but hiding a victor killing someone at a party was harder to cover than a simple tumble. finnick will be punished – beaten &* starved , then healed up &* put back to work. it's always the same. he's always lived in fear of the capitol taking his family – always given every bit of himself &* stayed in line to avoid it. made himself so indispensable that his use outweighed his rare fuckup. normally he would worry about them going after his family for this fight , but with johanna making herself a spectacle &* them knowing his softness for her … ? would jo face the same punishment he will or worse just to make his unbearable ? it makes his throat tighten. ❛ you shouldn't have — ❜
i'd do anything for you. sad eyes turn to her , emotion finally touching his swimming gaze. his throat feels thick , like he can't swallow. he has always protected what he loves – kept it safe from snow's grasp. she has lost everything – refused to back down. it was a dangerous relationship. the only thing she has left to lose is her life – &* that would be far too much for finnick to endure. so he takes a shaky breath &* shakes his head. ❛ if you want to do something for me , do not put yourself in the line of fire. i can take care of myself. what i can't take is anything happening to you. ❜
