so I've been sitting here the past couple of days trying to figure out why God would leave me in a loveless relationship for 3 years, with someone who so obviously didn't give a single shit about me or my feelings.
And I had an epiphany.
Before we were even dating, I met his friend and we kind of bonded over music. Over the years we got closer and he somehow became my big brother I never had. And then I met his girlfriend. She and I are so much alike, we've gotten so close. She's played a huge role in bringing me closer to God again.
So, I realized. Yeah, that relationship taught me a lot about myself and gave me a million examples of what I don't want in a forever relationship, but it also brought two of the most amazing people I've ever been blessed to have into my life.
So you know what. I can accept that he didn't love me, that I was convenient and that he really had no emotional connection to me. Because now I have a friendship with 2 people that is worth more than the pain that he brought me.
God is so, so, so good. I may not agree with the way He works but....this is an outcome I can get behind.