Started brainstorming a little because I feel terribly stuck at the moment.
I think the impulsive thought of moving somewhere else might be coming from my lack of goals I currently have in my life. On one hand, it’s good to have a job that pays well, an apartment that’s perfect and generally everything pretty much being as I could wish for - no worries there, right?
But I think that automatically leads to kind of just “going with the flow” and thus, boredom with everything. Which in turn isn’t that good.
So I started listing things I like doing, contemplating whether I should maybe try to pursue a different career or, if I can stay in my current job, insert myself more and better there and find some way to balance my non creative work life with a more creative private life.
I know I did that a couple of years back but all of that kind of fell apart during my last relationship and I’m having a hard time finding that person and her passions again.
Like, sometimes I sit at home and think “man, what did you even do before you had Netflix and a PS4? You did watch some stuff online on a regular basis, yes, but not as much as you do now. And you didn’t have the newest and most fancy video games, so what did you even do all day??”
I would never have thought that I might have so much trouble with this once I had my life back for myself again. And I really plan on staying single (at least for a long while, if not like, forever) and simply enjoy being independent.
But yeah, long story short I feel like now that I have a lot of things I used to dream of having one day (a better flat, a better job...) I’m kind of lost as to what to pursue next. It’s weird because I know there is no need to feel unsatisfied and yet I do feel that way.
Hopefully the brainstorming and trying out new stuff will help though.
(Btw thanks corona virus for limiting my possibilities to do something on my own outdoors exactly when I need to, lol.)
