Exchange student thoughts
Am I the only one out here who can barely care about anything else than going on exchange in about 3 months?! School is almost over and finals are approaching, I have my last projects due in a really short time and all I can think about is hopping on that plane and have a year to myself: to discover, make friends, learn a bunch of stuff, eat DELICIOUS food, hang out at different and cool places… All at once, I feel great about experiencing something that few get to experience, to finally be independent and find myself somewhere else, but I’m also wondering about how things will change when I’ll get back, how I’ll change especially, knowing that things won’t ever be the same as they are now. If that’s a good thing or not, that depends and is yet to be discovered.. It makes me think about each of our small worlds, that mean nothing but everything at the same time…
I want time to fly past school and summer and it to take me to my host country. Still, I don’t want it to because that’ll mean that my exchange is finally starting and there’s no turning back! This, meaning that I will eventually have to come back home. Maybe I won’t want to! From the moment I get on the plane, time will be ticking 11 months away and I’ll have the responsibility to make it count.
I want to appreciate what comes before I leave, but I find myself thinking: “maybe I’d like to sleep through those times”. I want my last summer to be successful: get a job to have all that extra money overseas, hang out with my friends, become a better me and fix my ever-so-tiring habits, maybe get that guy I really like even if I know it can’t last..
I want to ace my exams and zoom into summer, but I just lack motivation right now and want to sleep all the time. Everything around me at the moment is just a blur in my mind and since the last couple of months, I’ve only been thinking about my selfish desires. I know it is wrong and bad, so I truly hope you guys can relate, but the only thing keeping me moving is my departure abroad and for some reason, I blame my actions and feelings on my upcoming exchange.
I just want to go so bad I’m scared to miss out on great things that could happen. However, if I stop thinking about my exchange, I’m scared that I won’t be ready enough…
I don’t really know how to conclude this post, so I’ll just give a big and loving shout out to y'all exchange students out there : those who’re about to leave on exchange and those who’re about to return home. I wonder if anyone feels the same as me?





