#yeeeeeerp

[carnophobic]

wanted to colour this krauser :p

[endearinglybedraggled]

I felt like shit a few hours ago, after having looked at some photos taken of me today.

I thought I looked really overweight and just horrible in them.

But then, five minutes ago, I looked over them again. I looked at my friend in the photos too, and she was basically the exact same size as me, except my hips were a little wider and my stomach was a little bigger. And in real life, this girl is gorgeous. I would love to have her body. 

I can't decide whether my perception of myself is really out of whack, or right on target. I know that I'm overweight, it's a fact, and I really should lose 10kgs... but I don't have any idea of what I look like. But basically, I really don't need to feel shit about myself right now, especially when I'm going to this formal event on Friday night. I don't want to be worrying about my weight when I should be having the time of my life.

So I'm not going to care. I'm going to have fun. My future husband won't be there anyway, so I don't need to be worrying about impressing anyone (even though I don't need to try to impress him - I already do! I mean, I'm his future wife for goodness sake! LOL)

PS : I don't actually know how to do 'read more's so you'll have to suffer and see all this shit on your dash.