not to bang the same drum I always do (didn't expect this to be my hill to die on! but here we are) but I think what I'm getting at with my "yes and" that I mentioned for this post is the assumption that the only/best way to pin a control freak character generally Assigned Dom At Fandom like a bug is to force them into a submissive position.
and to be clear this is a very fun thing to do and i have written it! many times! and there's the part of this of course that is about characters being Assigned Dom At Fandom for reasons that are not character related (wanting to assign another character Sub for pairing or kink reasons, etc.) or due to an assumption of an alignment between character type and character sexual preferences that may or may not be "accurate." but also.
I do want to push at that concept because I think on some level the idea that submission is the only way of getting at that vulnerability is (same drum) another manifestation of the lack of interest/inability to imagine the dom subjective experience as vulnerable and complex. and sometimes you can break down a control freak by putting them in a domming situation.
and this goes back to the assignment of the Dom Type as always smooth/confident/in control at all times, which is often (same drum!!!) the dom whose desires are primarily there as an access point to the sub as opposed to a desiring entity in themself.
not totally sure this is coherent, it's first thing in the morning and I'm not saying that the post is bad, this is why it's a "yes and" because yes!!! and also.
A tiny rant. Because has been the most Mondays of Mondays. At my job we are getting kicked out of our building. I read the date wrong for an appointment, showed up a week early like a moron. I also thought I had ZERO phones calls to make and ended up having six. Coffee has not cured the disaster that this day has been.
My little self-indulgent alarene... something. A short little story.
Summary: Alain has been trying to work on this new project but things are just not going all that well. He's been losing sleep. Rene is here to help him out
Tags: Alternative universe: noone dies, fluff, nsfw as a joke, but nothing actually happens, established relationships (they are like. friends with benefits or something like that. Not- not dating. Kaveh: "it's complicated" you know, scientists stuff, the usual)
English is not my first language, sorry for any mistakes,,
"Alain, please." Rene sat on top of the other's bed while Guillotin was studying some kind of lock. He was struggling to open it because it had a detector that required to use elemental reactions which was very unusual... and hard to achieve without a vision. Meanwhile Petrichor was bothering him with some unrelated questions.
It's not like they had a lot in common when it came down to the things they were interested in. Alain studied technology and kinetics while Rene - mostly biology and alchemy. It is more interesting that way, Rene once said to him, something about experiencing the world through different lenses and what not. Alain didn't wear any glasses except for the ones to protect his eyes while he was working but that was probably one of those things they call metaphors...
"No. Isn't it obvious I'm a little preoccupied right now?"
He hears humming.
"Why can't you put it aside then?"
"Why should I?" That was his answer.
Rene stood up and walked up to him, his hands landing on his shoulders. "I haven't seen you in a few days and when I come back you're busy. Is it so unlikely that I would miss you?"
Alain sighed. "Three days is only 72 hours. That's an adequate amount of time. But... I have to admit that I'm not qualified to comment on the latter."
Rene furrowed his brows. "I don't think you can calculate how long it would take for somebody to start feeling lonely without an important person in their life. You would need to consider a good amount of variables in order to even estimate such a thing."
He then grinned and leaned in a bit, their noses almost touching. Alain averted his gaze, blush making his face look a bit more healthy.
"You look like you've been losing sleep. A case of insomnia or sleep deprivation as a result of working on a new project?" said Rene and kissed him on the cheek, something brief and light.
"None of your business." Alain closed his eyes and put his little lock on the table. He then stood up and went right to his bed, shaking his coat off his shoulders and getting rid of the gloves.
"Alright then. Surprise me."
Rene smiled at him, amusement obvious on his face. "Weren't you busy, Monsieur researcher?"
Alain nodded. "I was. But it is indeed quite dangerous to work non-stop and I've only managed to get two hours of sleep last night."
Rene sat down next to him, taking their hands and clasping them together. The way Alain's skin felt under his fingers... it put his mind at ease. "Insomnia then? Have you tried taking any medication?"
Alain shook his head. "Nothing quite managed to help. Made me sleep longer but approximately only for 13 minutes and 44 seconds."
"Hm... alright I'm not sure if this will help but we can try it anyway."
Rene stood up again and started taking off his clothes. Alain looked at him, a tired expression on his face.
"I don't think I'll be able to hold on for long enough..."
Then it was Rene's turn to look at him with confusion.
"Whatever do you mean by that?"
Alain shrugged, pulled his pants down and took of his shirt. He was about to take everything else off when a hand stopped him mid movement. "What are you doing?"
They stared at each other for a bit.
"Nothing."
Alain removed his hand from his underwear. Rene just laughed to which the other also smiled, even if a bit embarrassed. Rene then rolled to the middle of the bed. Alain crawled up on top of him which looked quite interesting from an outside perspective.
"Hi." said Rene. Alain giggled, a rare but beautiful sight. He looked so carefree for once, nothing heavy weighing on his mind. Rene pulled him closer by the neck and connected their lips. He kissed him slowly, enjoying this moment they were sharing. Alain, tired as he was, closed his eyes and completely relaxed in his arms, his worries melting away. Rene tangled his hand in his hair and started brushing it, his fingers running through the strands.
"Thank you..." Alain said after a while. "I think this was very much necessary. I've been stuck on this lock for a week now. Maybe I need some time to just... not think about it."
"Perhaps. I might try to help you in the morning if you want, maybe all you need to do is to look at the problem from a new perspective."
"This sounds reasonable..."
Alain closed his eyes. Rene wrapped his arms around him. Alain then, with his eyes still closed, pulled out a blanket and gave it to Rene who then covered both of them with it.
"Alain."
"Hm?"
"Sometimes I think about cutting your head open and looking at your brain"
"That's a very bad compliment."
"It isn't."
"Yes, it is."
They spent a couple of hours arguing over some different topics such as human autopsy and the necessity of morals but soon enough Alain fell asleep, his face in the crook of Rene's neck.
"I thought I should bring you some medication to help with your insomnia but maybe you just need some company instead"
